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September 12, 2025 at 2:22 pm #449711
anita
ParticipantThank you, Alessa. I will do my very best to not fail you again!
Steady ❤️ ❤️ ❤️, Anita
September 14, 2025 at 9:13 am #449752anita
ParticipantThinking about you, Alessa, hoping you’re.. safe and brave 🛡️ 🦁
September 14, 2025 at 11:40 pm #449769Alessa
ParticipantThanks Anita. I’m okay, my class has started again. So I’m studying at the weekend now.
How are you doing? ❤️
September 15, 2025 at 8:57 am #449778anita
ParticipantGood to read that you’re okay, Alessa ❤️, and that you are continuing your studies. I am very tired, exhausted. Reflecting on what happened here. It will take some time for me to understand further, to learn, to change within me what needs to be changed. I will share about it later, after enough time, rest and lots of private reflecting (a month or two, I figure).
Thank you for your part in holding me accountable and for your empathy and understanding ❤️
🌿 Anita
September 15, 2025 at 10:26 pm #449803Alessa
ParticipantHi Anita
I understand that these things are tiring and painful. I have been through it too.
Try not to beat yourself up over something that you were born into. People cannot change something that they aren’t aware of. Now you are aware and as painful as it is, it is a blessing. ❤️
September 16, 2025 at 9:29 am #449817anita
ParticipantHi Alessa:
Your message is so very supportive, 100% supportive (no accusations, no criticism, only understanding and empathy). Thank you!
And yes, my developing new awareness is a blessing.
On Aug 1, in my thread (Life Worth Living, page 17), you wrote in a message to me: “I know that it is hard for you to trust people that you’ve had disagreements with in the past”-
You were right, and this is what I am reflecting on at this time. Seems like the moment someone- in real-life, or here- said, wrote or did something that bothered or triggered me negatively (through no fault of the other person.. just part of being themselves, nothing abusive, and sometimes- like in the case of you and Tee- with best intentions), I automatically- without thinking, without awareness- in my own mind, labeled the person “bad”, or “enemy”, forgetting all the good in the person, all the good that preceded what triggered me.
I know I said that I will reflect privately, but above, I reflected publicly because of your very supportive message right above. Your message made me feel safe. And, after all, the title you chose for this tread is “Safe and Brave”- just what I need: Safety so that I can reflect Bravely.
Please let me know, Alessa, if it’s okay that I continue to reflect in your thread? It’s okay if you prefer that I don’t.
I want to reflect here because of your 10% supportive message above, and because I.. trust you.. and I trust Tee, although I must say, it’s scary to trust.
I can’t reflect on Jana’s thread because I was asked not to (“Wonderful. Let’s move on, please. 🙏 You can start your own thread, Anita, or continue in the journal. 😉”, Jana, Sept 11), and I don’t feel safe reflecting in any of my old threads, or in a new one, because I am afraid of Jana and Brandy using my reflections there so to repeat old accusations or form new ones.
To honestly reflect publicly, I need to feel safe, and I am hoping that here, you will protect me from accusations resurfacing, so that I can continue to reflect. I will add that in my reflections- if permitted here- I will not be accusing anyone. Whatever criticisms I have about any other member, I will not express those here. There will be no mention or reference to any member in the forums. If any member responds positively to me, in a supportive (non-accusatory way), I will be glad to address the person with gratitude.
My only motivation is to honestly reflect.. and seems like it’s difficult for me to do so privately. I am used to express publicly.
I know that you resumed your studies and that you are very busy. I am not asking that you spend any time on my reflections, nor am I asking that you analyze or evaluate them, only that you allow me to do so Safely and Bravely, in your thread.
But again, it is fine if you don’t feel comfortable with my idea (reflecting here). Maybe it’d feel unsafe for you. It may not be a good idea. I might be unaware of a reason why it’d be a bad idea. So, I am open to whatever you prefer, Alessa, truly.
❤️ 🌿 Anita
September 16, 2025 at 12:42 pm #449828anita
Participant* Oopsie, reading my post above- I forgot a zero: 100%, not 10%
September 16, 2025 at 1:30 pm #449830Alessa
ParticipantHi Anita
Everyone is welcome on my thread, all I ask is that people are respectful and honour the intentions of the thread and help to make this a safe and brave place for everyone. ❤️
I appreciate your intentions. Do you think that perhaps by sharing your feelings about Yana and Brandy you might essentially be inviting them to respond to you? ❤️
My understanding is that Yana is a good person. I don’t know Brandy, but she seems to care about you. ❤️
In my experience, when people are hurt, they use stronger language. The conflict was painful to watch even for bystanders. They are both very caring people, that is why they were hurt. ❤️
September 16, 2025 at 4:26 pm #449833anita
ParticipantHi Alessa and Everyone:
Thank you for the reply, Alessa, and for welcoming everyone on your thread ❤️
If this thread, or any other in the forums, feels safe place for me to publicly reflect further, I will.
As is, I don’t feel safe to publicly reflect, so I will go back to reflecting privately.
❤️ 🌿 Anita
September 17, 2025 at 12:19 am #449845Alessa
ParticipantHi Anita
Do you think Yana or Brandy might feel unsafe too? It was suggested for you to speak directly to people if you have any issues with them. Why do you think that might be? Could it hurt people not being spoken to directly? ❤️
I felt unsafe while the conflict was going on too. ❤️
September 17, 2025 at 12:55 am #449846Alessa
ParticipantI know that it hurt Tee and I when we were ignored and not spoken too directly. ❤️
September 17, 2025 at 12:55 am #449847Alessa
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September 17, 2025 at 3:05 am #449850Tee
ParticipantDear Anita,
I do understand your need to feel safe. It also appears that you don’t feel safe if there’s a possibility that you might be faced with unfavorable feedback, right?
But the thing is: whenever we post in a public forum, there is a possibility that we might receive unfavorable feedback. It’s just the nature of public spaces. And that’s why, I think that we all need to be willing to accept the risk of receiving unfavorable feedback.
Of course, this doesn’t mean we should tolerate abuse. There are rules and guidelines that define the code of conduct here, and if these rules are not kept, the moderator can intervene and prevent abusive posts. So the moderator is what keeps this place safe, i.e. free from abuse.
I believe that if we start imposing extra requirements, e.g. that certain people shouldn’t post in certain threads – preemptively, so that we can feel safe – unfortunately, that’s already infringing on people’s rights to freely express themselves in a public forum.
Because we’re requiring people to refrain from posting (or we’re asking others to do that on our behalf), because we feel threatened by them and they might say something we don’t like down the line. That’s basically censorship because it’s about preemptive action: not allowing certain people to post – only because we feel threatened by them. They might have not even said anything, and yet we don’t want them to speak, lest they say something we deem hurtful.
I don’t know if you can see that this would be censorship, Anita, and not really congruent with the rules (and the spirit) of a public forum? Preemptive attempts to prevent people from posting vs. case-by-case intervention by a moderator if real abuse has taken place. The former is censorship, the latter is keeping the forum safe. Huge difference. I hope you can see it?
What I’m also noticing is that your stance on sharing in public vs. private has changed in the last day or two. Whereas right after the conflict you said you’re planning to take your time to reflect privately, and that it may take a month or two, yesterday you’ve expressed to Alessa that you would prefer to reflect publicly:
My only motivation is to honestly reflect.. and seems like it’s difficult for me to do so privately. I am used to express publicly.
Have you thought about why it’s easier for you to reflect publicly than privately? Because honestly, doing any kind of self-reflection in public is much more exposed, much more vulnerable, than doing it in private. Sharing our deepest thoughts and feelings with the entire world, so to speak, is really putting ourselves out there.
What I’m noticing is that you really want to share deeply, to “put yourself out there”, however it’s very hard for you to receive any unfavorable feedback (or what you might perceive as unfavorable). You want to be shielded from that.
But I’m afraid those are two contradictory desires, which cannot really be met simultaneously, because we’re talking about a public forum.
Please don’t take this as criticism, Anita, but simply noticing a certain dynamic, a certain struggle in you, and inviting you to take it into consideration, to reflect on it. ❤️
I hope that on this forum, we’re able to really hear each other, understand each other, and share without fearing each other. Because I think that’s what safe and brave places should be about ❤️
September 17, 2025 at 7:57 am #449868anita
ParticipantDear Tee:
I am working on a response to you and taking my time with it. Just wanted to let you know that I very much appreciate your explanation and the spirit behind it. Your explanation is very helpful, thank you!
Be back soon. I will also respond to you, Alessa.
Anita
September 17, 2025 at 9:22 am #449872anita
ParticipantDear Tee:
Thank you for an excellent explanation. Excellent because it’s clear, easy to understand, and the spirit behind it, the intent, the motivation are positive, non accusatory, but gentle.
I want to respond to your message part by part:
“I do understand your need to feel safe. It also appears that you don’t feel safe if there’s a possibility that you might be faced with unfavorable feedback, right?”- yes.
“But the thing is: whenever we post in a public forum, there is a possibility that we might receive unfavorable feedback. It’s just the nature of public spaces. And that’s why, I think that we all need to be willing to accept the risk of receiving unfavorable feedback.”-
True, it didn’t occur to me, this truth didn’t cross my mind. This is one of these times that I notice the limits of my intelligence.
“Of course, this doesn’t mean we should tolerate abuse. There are rules and guidelines that define the code of conduct here, and if these rules are not kept, the moderator can intervene and prevent abusive posts. So the moderator is what keeps this place safe, i.e. free from abuse.”-
I am looking for the Forum Guidelines for a Positive Space (April 5, 2013) for the definition of abuse: “5. Keep it friendly.
We don’t need to all agree, but we need to treat each other respectfully, without attacking, insulting, bullying, condescending, shaming, threatening, or in any way harassing each other. 6. Remember that Tiny Buddha is a family place. If you’d be shocked to hear a five-year old say it, you may want to choose different language.”- I’ll get back to this later.“I believe that if we start imposing extra requirements, e.g. that certain people shouldn’t post in certain threads – preemptively, so that we can feel safe – unfortunately, that’s already infringing on people’s rights to freely express themselves in a public forum.”-
I agree, but in my message to Alessa almost 24 hours ago, I didn’t suggest that certain people should not post in her thread, I asked her for protection if they post with accusations against me (“To honestly reflect publicly, I need to feel safe, and I am hoping that here, you will protect me from accusations resurfacing, so that I can continue to reflect.”) Meaning, if they post negatively, I was hoping that Alessa would stand up for me so to create a safe place for me.
Was that wrong of me, Tee? Was it censorship, and if so, how? I would very much appreciate your input on this.
“That’s basically censorship because it’s about preemptive action: not allowing certain people to post – only because we feel threatened by them… I don’t know if you can see that this would be censorship, Anita, and not really congruent with the rules (and the spirit) of a public forum? Preemptive attempts to prevent people from posting vs. case-by-case intervention by a moderator if real abuse has taken place. The former is censorship, the latter is keeping the forum safe. Huge difference. I hope you can see it?”-
I don’t see it yet in regard to my post of 24 hours ago (hoping you’d explain this to me), but generally, you’re saying that I fear criticism so I made people whose criticism I fear- uncomfortable about posting. And that was censorship, that is, unfair control of the space..? I don’t want to make you work too hard, but if you have an example or two in mind (no need to go back and gather quotes if it’s too much work), please let me know.
“What I’m also noticing is that your stance on sharing in public vs. private has changed in the last day or two. Whereas right after the conflict you said you’re planning to take your time to reflect privately, and that it may take a month or two, yesterday you’ve expressed to Alessa that you would prefer to reflect publicly”-
Yes, my stance changed simply because Alessa wrote: “Hi Anita I understand that these things are tiring and painful…Try not to beat yourself up over something that you were born into. People cannot change something that they aren’t aware of. Now you are aware and as painful as it is, it is a blessing. ❤️”- I was touched by this supportive post so much that I thought that Alessa would care to create a safe space for me to develop my awareness in her thread.
“Have you thought about why it’s easier for you to reflect publicly than privately?”-
There’s something about being heard by other people (here, a public forum) that means a lot to me, so much more than hearing my own thoughts all by myself. The first feels like connection, the second feels like aloneness or loneliness.
“Because honestly, doing any kind of self-reflection in public is much more exposed, much more vulnerable, than doing it in private. Sharing our deepest thoughts and feelings with the entire world, so to speak, is really putting ourselves out there.”-
I agree. You’re right. It really is putting myself out there.
“Sharing our deepest thoughts and feelings with the entire world”-
Yes, I realize now the motivation on my part. It’s a sort of overcompensation: from the intense loneliness of childhood and adolescence, where I wasn’t allowed to share my deepest thoughts and feelings with NO ONE => => => sharing my deepest thoughts and feelings with the ENTIRE WORLD.
(I am using big case letters because I lost the boldface & italicizing features)
“What I’m noticing is that you really want to share deeply, to ‘put yourself out there’, however it’s very hard for you to receive any unfavorable feedback (or what you might perceive as unfavorable). You want to be shielded from that.”-
I need to be open to unfavorable feedback, yes. On the other hand, I need not be open to abuse. Later this morning, I will include Brandy’s last message to me, which feels abusive to me. It is okay with me whether or not you choose to let me know if you think it’s abusive. I would like to know, but again, I wouldn’t like you to work too hard.. or to be uncomfortable about perhaps taking sides..?
.. I know you to passionately take sides- in your many replies to members over the years- when you suspected or detected abuse in their lives.
“But I’m afraid those are two contradictory desires, which cannot really be met simultaneously, because we’re talking about a public forum.”- True.
“Please don’t take this as criticism, Anita, but simply noticing a certain dynamic, a certain struggle in you, and inviting you to take it into consideration, to reflect on it. ❤️”-
Thank you Tee. I am not taking this as criticism, at least not the negative kind. I trust your analytical intelligence and I trust your intent. I admire your character and integrity.
“I hope that on this forum, we’re able to really hear each other, understand each other, and share without fearing each other. Because I think that’s what safe and brave places should be about ❤️”-
I would like this very much, Tee ❤️
🌿 Anita
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