Hi everyone!

I wanted to ask you guys a question and hopefully you guys can help me find a solution for my predicament.

So I have been talking to this girl who  I graduated high school with, but never got the chance to talk to and get to know since she moved a country away. We had each other on social media and we talked every now and then just to check in with each other   And recently we started talking and decided we wanted to see where things go even if it ended up to becoming a long distance relationship.

For the first two months, things are going fine and we are just taking our time, but  things started to progress faster and faster where both starting falling for each other and it felt  natural to me because I go with the flow.  So three months in and she pops the question and wants to make it official  even though I wanted to see you so bad I felt like that would be more appropriate when we see each other in the summer,  so I told her now is not a good time let’s wait till summer and we both agreed.

Three weeks ago we’re having a conversation and she mentions a guy who is a former classmate of hers in which she ran into one day and who late asks her out on a date to  which she says no to.  Not a big deal I  didn’t think about it too much, till couple of days later  when she went to hang out with her friends he ended up being there as well.  She told me nothing happened until the end when he asked her if she wanted a ride home in which she said sure.  Later, she told me that she felt bad and at first I didn’t quite get why she did because it was just a car ride, but  she told me after that she had a big crush on him and even though nothing happened then she doesn’t want to be around him in fear  of those feelings are returning.  During that I was shocked and didn’t know what to say because I  been in a situation like this before.  But basically I told her  that everything is a choice feelings can be control plus this was a year old and nothing happened between you two and how can I trust you when you can’t trust yourself?   After all that she figured it out  and we moved on from that  this is where the Dow started to creep in slowly.

Last week she was studying for midterms she was focusing on school which is fine because education comes first but things started to get a bit weird and shady.  (Just to establish we’re so close at this point to where we’d be considered dating like ex. We’re calling each other babe and  we’re both on the same understanding)   I send her something that  I thought it was funny and relatable and she followed up with saying “I’m not your girl so can’t relate”  so through all that I thought she was being sarcastic and we kept going back-and-forth until she clarified even more and said we’re single we’re just talking.  At that moment I felt kind of hurt because we’ve talked about how we  wanted to be with each other and all the stuff  and when  I asked her where is this all coming from she always try to say “ I’m too busy” or “  Lets not talk about this now.”  And so for four days we had and talked which was hard because we talked every single day .  So she finally came back and basically told me that she’s indecisive, keeps thing about these “what if” situations, that’s she’s not ready for relationship right now and apologized for treating me like crap and etc  and then she asked me if I forgive her. In those four days I felt like I was about to end up in the same situation but with the previous girl I was talking to for nine months where things were going A-OK and all tha in those four days I felt like I was about to end up in the same situation but with the previous girl I was talking to for nine months where things were going great till  she lied to me and said that she was only in it for the good time but at the long time.  And through all of that I kind a got over it and so even though I forgave her  I just don’t know what to do.  We previously talked about wanting to see each other and I planned on going to see her but after I kinda don’t know.  I personally feel like I can’t have those same conversations we had before because trust has been broken. Today, She brought up today that wants me to come up to Canada to see her and I do but I’m conflicted  because I know that we’re going to do stuff to each other physically but I don’t want to give myself by putting in my time effort and energy into something that could potentially end up like last time  where the first time in my life I felt vulnerable and my heart shattered.

Now I ask you all if what shall I do?  Should I take the rest and take a leap of faith to see where things ? Or cut things off and not risk it?  But first I want to hear what you guys would do

thank you