@Sammy

Apologies for my absence, Rupert’s death has really taken its toll on me and I also have a lot of other things occurring simultaneously which has made me feel exhausted. I wanted to be in a clearer frame of mind to reply to posts. Doll you were doing so well, I gather you are no longer sober anymore? That’s ok, from my own experience I can attest growth is never linear, it has its peaks and troughs. You are always welcome to reach out for support on here it is the purpose of such forums, to seek anonymous support when you feel unable to reach out in person. There is nothing wrong with that. However, @Rhaenys has a valid point in the sense there will be a time when I or @Shelbyville are unavailable at the exact moment but I want to try and encourage you in your journey e.g when you cried out for help and ended up drinking because we didn’t see your message in time. Where was your buddy?

Come back on here when you are ready and we can talk, in the meantime flush down the remainder of the booze, and let’s start again yeah? You will get there. You have been giving very sound advice from what I read so don’t be hard on yourself but do apply some of it to yourself. I’m here to correspond when you are ready. Bare with me if I am slow, just acclimatising myself.

@Rhaenys

Not sure of your backstory but you have some very good techniques in place. Working on oneself before jumping into a relationship will do you wonders. It will address any underlying issues and make you choose better. Good luck in therapy and well done for taking that huge step despite your initial resistance. Hopefully, it will make a significant difference.

@Kkasxo

Sounds like things have been unsteady for yourself also. If you ever need that male advice, I’d be happy to offer my assistance.

@Lucie

Doll, I have been to therapy and enquired about PTSD so if you need any guidance, let me know. Reading your insights for Shelbyville was heartwarming and very articulate. I too assumed you were fairly young, however as a college graduate, the world is your oyster, keep up the good fight and change your life!

@Shelbyville

Looks like you and I have both been through the wringer, vastly for different reasons. However, I too had to go onto an SSRI for a month just to get me back on my feet after Rupert. So I completely understand, never feel guilty for doing what is best for your own wellbeing. Reading your posts this new guy has really created a mind fuck of his own. I will just say I have been through a tough few weeks but a caring, supportive, and loving partner by my side made a remarkable difference. So whether you are with a new guy or taking time out currently, always look for a partner who will show you that emotional understanding and maturity it has an immense change in your anxiety, wellbeing, and future life. I have been through different relationship patterns so if you need an insight do let me know. In the meantime, you too keep up the good fight, as long as you are willing to grow and not apathetic, change will come.