Dear Kris

I am so sorry that this year so far has been very difficult for you, so much loss in so many ways, thankyou for sharing.

I note that your interests on the surface appear to be quite solitary indoor activities. I think that initially instead of looking for romance maybe begin with fostering connections to the outdoors & others not necessarily humans. For instance offering to bake at a homeless shelter, playing your violin at a hospice or carehome, join your local conservation group or animal sanctuary these kinds of activities also look good on your CV.

What kinds of jobs would you like to do to earn a living? I work 15 hours in a preschool & 7 in a care facility this gives me just enough to get by as I live in a shared house & I have time to do charity stuff, walks with friends/family, go to board games nights & most importantly meditate & study Buddhism & wellbeing.
Got to sign off now & feed our 3 chickens.
Kind regards
Roberta

Dear Confused

At some point in our convo, she took like 25 mins to answer and because her previous replies were not too sweet (she was indeed affectionate but my damn mind setting high standards again), i started thinking that she’s tired of me, ………

Do you read back your posts? Can you see patterns emerging? Impatience leads to anxiety or possibly vice versa. It was not so long ago that people living even a short distance apart would have to write each other letters & would have to wait days/weeks & even months for a reply. This modern busy world has reduced our ability to be patient & raised our expectations for instant gratification/input. I am going to the toilet now & then I am going to wash my dishes & then get the clothes off the line fold them up & put them away too much info for you? I will just politely sign off.
Roberta

Nowhere to go – nothing to do

Hello Kris

Congratulations on being brave enough to come onto this forum, to show your vulnerability to a bunch of strangers.
That little voice inside of you that encouraged you to take a leap of faith with this community, that is the voice which will show you how to take care of your anger in a healthy way ( note I did not say get rid of it) it is also the voice which will tell you that you are enough & that you are capable/worthy of both giving & receiving love.
The members here have different styles & we try to respect each other & help each other on our lifes journey.

I look forward to hearing more from you

Hi

When we understand & accept the nature of reality in a broad sense ie birth sickness aging & death & that we & our oved ones do not have a free pass from this, there is a reduction in our personal suffering. So if you have a cold or toothache, you take the medicines or go to the dentist, there is no need for the woe is me, in fact you can be grateful that one has access to medicines & pain relief & have the heartfelt wish that all beings be free from pain, one could even be motivated further to help those in the same predicament say by donating to a local charity that offers dentistry to the homeless.

If we feel that we only have one lifetime then Karma can look like it does not exist/work when we see that other peoples actions go unresolved.
We are planting the seeds for future karmas to ripen all the time & some seeds from our pasts when the right conditions arrive will fruit in this lifetime. As life happens it is how we respond to it that is important, do we meet life’s ups & downs with love, compassion wisdom etc or with greed hatred & ignorance?

Hello Starlight
I am a bit confused “When i was younger, i could have gone to art school to do a foundation course, and then perhaps fine art. But about the time i was thinking of this, my mother decided she was going to go to the art school. She told me i should help support her by doing housework. I ended up leaving and going to work.”

When your mum asked you to do housework, was that taking on some of the chores around the family home or did she mean you going out & earning money to support her? Also you said you were thinking about the art course, did you talk to your mum about your dreams, before she went ahead & actioned hers?

I did art as a nightschool subject ( I was rubbish, but still got pleasure) & I also did a distance learning course in arts & antiques ( I think I have a good eye) all whilst raising a family & working.
Is art for you an expression of your thoughts & feelings? and or a way of getting money, recognition & prestige? Does the action of creating something bring you joy?
Who owns your art & joy? you, your mother, art critiques?
Was/ is your mother happy & fulfilled by going to study art?
What is art to you? I have a friend who is in their seventies & has only just started to express & explore herself thru art, so it is never to late to reclaim yourself.
Kind regards
Roberta