Hello Kris

Congratulations on being brave enough to come onto this forum, to show your vulnerability to a bunch of strangers.
That little voice inside of you that encouraged you to take a leap of faith with this community, that is the voice which will show you how to take care of your anger in a healthy way ( note I did not say get rid of it) it is also the voice which will tell you that you are enough & that you are capable/worthy of both giving & receiving love.
The members here have different styles & we try to respect each other & help each other on our lifes journey.

I look forward to hearing more from you

Hi

When we understand & accept the nature of reality in a broad sense ie birth sickness aging & death & that we & our oved ones do not have a free pass from this, there is a reduction in our personal suffering. So if you have a cold or toothache, you take the medicines or go to the dentist, there is no need for the woe is me, in fact you can be grateful that one has access to medicines & pain relief & have the heartfelt wish that all beings be free from pain, one could even be motivated further to help those in the same predicament say by donating to a local charity that offers dentistry to the homeless.

If we feel that we only have one lifetime then Karma can look like it does not exist/work when we see that other peoples actions go unresolved.
We are planting the seeds for future karmas to ripen all the time & some seeds from our pasts when the right conditions arrive will fruit in this lifetime. As life happens it is how we respond to it that is important, do we meet life’s ups & downs with love, compassion wisdom etc or with greed hatred & ignorance?

Hello Starlight
I am a bit confused “When i was younger, i could have gone to art school to do a foundation course, and then perhaps fine art. But about the time i was thinking of this, my mother decided she was going to go to the art school. She told me i should help support her by doing housework. I ended up leaving and going to work.”

When your mum asked you to do housework, was that taking on some of the chores around the family home or did she mean you going out & earning money to support her? Also you said you were thinking about the art course, did you talk to your mum about your dreams, before she went ahead & actioned hers?

I did art as a nightschool subject ( I was rubbish, but still got pleasure) & I also did a distance learning course in arts & antiques ( I think I have a good eye) all whilst raising a family & working.
Is art for you an expression of your thoughts & feelings? and or a way of getting money, recognition & prestige? Does the action of creating something bring you joy?
Who owns your art & joy? you, your mother, art critiques?
Was/ is your mother happy & fulfilled by going to study art?
What is art to you? I have a friend who is in their seventies & has only just started to express & explore herself thru art, so it is never to late to reclaim yourself.
Kind regards
Roberta

Hi Thomas

For a long time I did not have the time for formal practice & missed/resented that aspect until a friend & fellow practioner/carer said that looking after our parents is the practice put into real time reality.
Now I am not so busy, but have got out of the habit of extended daily practice, so I am always grateful to make time to sit with others when they request or take up an offer of a session.

Been married twice & had more relationships than I can count, so romantic relationships are definitely not my area of strength. The more I understand myself, I realize I was a sense junkie ( giving & receiving sensual pleasure) with limited capacity to put up with bad habits as I judged them whilst ignoring my own faults! Since taking a vow of celibacy I create a lot less havoc in mine & others lives.
I am grateful to this forum as a place where conversations that have a depth & sense of enquiry happen.
I hope your urge to drink is not overwhelming & you are being kind to yourself.
Roberta

Hi Anita
You are the homecoming queen. live, love & laugh your way to freedom
Roberta

Hi
Anita

Sorry that you Bogargt has wet your bed. I hope it was just a passing phase.
Sorry i have been out of loop, I dont know where the time goes.
My satellite dish fell onto the rook last night & the wind kept bouncing on the tiles above my bedroom in sounded like a giant doing a tap dance on the roof. This was the room I was going to put my friends in when they visit at the end of the week, so I had to spend most of today spring cleaning another room for them to use, gosh I have accumulated so much stuff, where is Maria Condo when you need her.
Anyway off to bed, hope you have a dry night
Roberta