Hi Rod,

From man to man…you are on a crossroad in your life. Seems to me like you are reviewing your life from were you are standing now. For me personally life has no opposite. Most people say that the opposite of life is death. For me the opposite of life is birth. Just another portal we go through. I guess you found the key in “I am ready to let go of this world”. You know the song of the Beatles let it be? A perfect state to be in! Your darkest thoughts are like clouds in the sky… just gently let them past…

Best of luck and namaste

jeroen

“I have just got to the point now where I have given up on things changing”….

Could that be the answer for your struggling? Not to give up but to give yourself a break? A break from overthinking, -past and future- and labeling (“my life has been crap for 8 years long”). This kind of living is indeed very hard for yourself!

How I see it is that life can pretty much do without our interference and controlling. To just go with the flow and give life the space to unfold itsself. We do not need to control the sunset or our hartbeat. Try to see the love in your child’s eye. Concentrate on your breath… Just let things be…Thank you and namaste.