Thank you so much for all your feedback. Im glad that so many people are willing to put their time for me. I hope – in another relationship I can truly express my feelings/thoughts/emotions etc. The last guy who dumped me really crushed me, cause with this guy, I actually opened up and just told him the truth/my truth and it was all going well untill our 5th date. He was trying hard to give me compliments and approach me. The next day he told me that he was confused about us, and for the first time I stepped up – grabbed my phone, called him and asked him to talk about it face to face (thats big)!! I went to his house and we talked, and he told me that he felt like he was running against a wall and everytime he tried to kiss me or touch me I kinda dismissed him (which I dont feel like i did) but I guess I’m not aware of my bodylanguage. I told him it has nothing to do with him and if we could try over but he was totally over it – I even asked him if he wanted to give it another shot but he totally rejected me… Ugh.. for the first time I tried to save it but it was too late..
Does anyone know how you can improve your body language so it matches with your words and emotions? Cause I can’t imagine a anything worse that feeling rejected as a guy when he tried to approach you.. It was obviously so bad that he didn’t even want to give me another chance

I have been trying to show more affection and love – but it just seems like a wall – I think too much about it and I just cant open up. But I still try to be more clear when communicating and telling people where and what I stand for without being afraid of their reaction. It’s harder than it sounds – to be more loving. I think there are more profond issues than “just” change it. I am willing to try though.

Any other thoughts?