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September 24, 2019 at 4:20 pm #314117
<p style=”text-align: left;”>Hello Peggy!</p><p>It has been a rough week. All the grand projects. Exams. I am trying. Really hard. To get better. I have my classes and I tutor two teens to keep myself busy. I go for hour long walks, read novels, color books and meditate. I am not religious but to find peace, I sometimes try to pray as well. Everyone says faith brings peace. I try. After all this, I end up pathetically crying over my ex at nights and without any sleep unless I take some kind of medicine for it. It’s 5 am here. I was planning to go to library to catch up on my long study sessions. I’ll just end up being too sleepy and restless. My chest ache is less now. </p><p>The boy who likes me asked me out. But the thought of going on a date, getting close and hurt all over again….makes me not want to go. </p><p>I come back here again and again to hear kind words I think. I know the answers maybe. </p><p>I am sorry I sound so lost. But I am. Take care.</p><p>Rideeta</p><p> </p><p> </p>September 13, 2019 at 7:26 am #312065
Tough love doesn’t work for me. The more I try it. The more difficult it gets. I have faced poverty when I was younger. I just need bare minimum to survive. I have a big project submission today. I have GAD. My chest hurts. It’s difficult.September 10, 2019 at 1:01 pm #311391
When my parents fought it hurt. I questioned love and romantic relationships. Now that I am little older. I understand. Every romantic relationship faces the test of time and difficulty. My parents did not hide their hardships and fights.
I coped and was strong all those times. A part of me hoped that one day I will have a family of my own. I’ll marry the person I love and very attracted to, get financially stable enough and raise kids. Life had other plans for me when it came to romance. The person I love is not waiting for me to show up. I lose my focus in academics as well. I am in one of the top universities in my country and I cannot focus. Because studying seems useless. If I am not going to build a family, what am I going to do with all the money I earn anyway?!
I know I can donate. Enjoy. Going to places by myself. But it seems not enough. Most of the time.
RideetaSeptember 8, 2019 at 3:13 am #310813
I was young. After my ex broke up with me, I dated other people. My ex got hurt. I was young back then. Now I underatand, I did not cheat on him. We were not in a relationship then. Even if he is hurt, that’s not for me to worry about.
The dates went nowhere though. I was too sad. Not much regrets about it anymore. But I wish I had given myself more time to heal back then, except of trying to distract myself with dating.
RideetaSeptember 8, 2019 at 3:09 am #310811September 7, 2019 at 8:30 am #310735
@peggy yes, my ex wanted me to be religious as well. I made it clear from the beginning that I am not. He kept hoping.
I have had anxiety issues since sixth grade. Mom-dad fighting a lot and pressure to do well academically. My parents are okay and peacefully together. Academic pressure has increased. I feel a need to prove myself all the time. I know my ex does not care and he i’s the class topper. But I felt so insignificant compared to him. Like I am nowhere near good enough. It’s just my insecurities talking, I know. As much as I try to not consume myself with these thoughts, the more the engulf me.September 7, 2019 at 6:20 am #310725
Yes @anita. I need to see a better therapist. And a counsellor again, I think. I had a breakdown last night. The boy in love with me helped. After exams and classes we hung out.
@peggy, I had anxiety issues since young. I dated my ex for about a year before breaking up. He is religious and I am not. Something he did not want to negotiate.
I try to meditate. It’s difficult. I’ll keep trying.
Thank you for your responses.September 6, 2019 at 1:19 pm #310687
I have generalized anxiety disorder. I am currently prescribed prozac 20mg. Then later on when I was crying to much. I was advised to up the dosage but it was too much for me. I slept all day and had a headache. I now take only 20mg of it.
I was not prescribed clonazepam. I take 0.25-.5 mg per day. It helps me with my anxiety attacks and makes me sleep.September 6, 2019 at 1:06 pm #310647
I am not okay. I like attending classes but my focus is waay off. About 8 more months till I graduate.
P.S. Thank you Anita. I was hoping you would show up.September 6, 2019 at 1:00 pm #310641
I feel extremely lonely and suicidal. I have an exam tomorrow. I really wanted to talk to someone. Maybe everyone is just busy today.
Hey, I do not want to be so lonely. I shall try to sleep. Without medication. Have an exam tomorrow. Medication will make sleep easier but I need to wake up on time for my classes.September 6, 2019 at 12:51 pm #310633
<i>I know that the pain is overwhelming and it will go away if you let yourself be.</i>
I am not sure if God exists or not. But maybe you can do things to make yourself calm and happy? Simple things like- art, cooking, a walk, talking to a loved one? Take one day at a time. And be good to others and yourself.
Here, we are to listen.
May you find peace and joy. I am so sorry you are going through this. May you be alright.September 6, 2019 at 12:42 pm #310627
What I like about myself-
1. Brave. I want to give up. I make plans for it. I never do.
2. Forgiving. I always end up forgiving the people who did wrong. Holding a grudge is just too much for me.
3. Confident about my body. I love my body, my smile, my voice.
4. I like that I am creative sometimes. I can make art with bright colors.
5. I am caring and sensitive.September 6, 2019 at 12:33 pm #310623
He was watching you. Every detail of you imprinted in his memory. Enjoy the days of love.August 18, 2017 at 9:57 am #164588
Are relationships this difficult for everyone?
I feel devastated.August 18, 2017 at 9:31 am #164582