Hi @Rhaenys

Therapy is great for those who it helps, I have too many reservations so I know it will not work for me, for the very same reason I don’t lean on IRL support as much. I find it hard to verbalise and show my vulnerabilities in person especially to those I love, I find it hard to show how weak I’ve become, I feel ashamed.

I’m glad you are seeking therapy and doing a lot of activities, I was too but had to self isolate, and now have been put on WFH for the foreseeable future so some things are out of my control. I hope therapy and keeping active helps you win your battle with your demons. Good Luck.

“…As you Search support here, maybe that’s what you need with your friends and family too.” This hit me hard, maybe I should stop posting on here. I felt I was helping myself with @Tim insights I had really got to a better place before self-isolation and helping give advice to @Shelbyville about the new guy and @ Michelle made me feel significant and just eased the mess in my own head a bit. I felt useful if not to myself currently at least to someone else. Corresponding with them in a way helped. Maybe I am pathetic.

@Shelbyville

I didn’t mean to sound judgy about your medication, I just assumed it numbed feelings like alcohol. When you come off the high of alcohol it is a desperate low, like for me today, and all those emotions that you tried to suppress end up hitting you. I thought that’s what drugs do too.  I’m sorry. Considering you do not wish to talk about new guy I’m sorry if my advice made your anxiety worse and I hope he is supporting you, I was just trying to help when @Kkasxo was not able to because I didn’t want you to feel alone or ignored, I know that feeling too well.