Thanks I would like to meditate but I feel like I can’t rest my mind.

To still the mind notice the inner narrator.

Ear’s hear, eyes see, skin sense, tongue taste , heart beats, lungs breathe…. mind narrates.

Seeing, hearing, tasting… these are happenings. There is no-thing to make happen, happenings happen. Yet the ‘I’ (and language) likes to think it can and so tends to get in the way.

Your breathing and then someone tells you to breath… what changes? Its funny, if one is asked to be spontaneous can your response to that ask be spontaneous? Even if you might be spontaneous language will prevent you from proving it so the wise remain silent.  Thus we come to the inner narrator.

In meditation one is asked to breathe and the narrator, narrating on the breathe and maybe even try to take over. I think the idea is that the narrator will get distracted on the breath and turn from a narrator into a silent detached observer of the breathe….

That kind of works until the narrator gets bored and or uncomfortable when it notices that ‘no I’ is breathing, there is just breathing, just the happening. The narrator realizing that its not and can’t make happenings happen wonders about its own existence. If afraid of such a question it fills the empty space meditation with random thoughts and memories.

Practicing the practice the inner narrator might notice the problem isn’t existence but with language, the problem of naming everything as if the name is the thing, the narrator might notice it can watch with out naming and still exist. The inner narrator might even find it enjoys the rest and role as observer. The observer with no name, just is.

Happenings happen, eyes see, ears hear….