I have not posted here in a while. I have had some tough times since my last visit, and some good ones. (I.e.i  ‘m still with the same guy),  but the last few days I have just been so mentally incapacitated by the newest thing that is happening to me. I can think of nothing else. I have not done much of anything. I had a day where I don’t even think I ate.

I wrote about a lawsuit I was in by someone who was trying to hurt me in 2019 on here. That continued on,  I was in that suit for  five years, until the end of last year where the person that had me in that court case suddenly died. The case was never resolved and sits stayed with no one from his side to pick up where he left off.  I will not lie I felt relief that he couldn’t bother me or hurt me anymore, but the whole experience created a lot of PSTD for me that I have not gotten past.  Also it hasn’t been that long.

Now a new person that  I don’t even know is sending me extortion letters and threatening a lawsuit for a photo I used on my business Facebook page. They are claiming I didn’t use the free license correctly, so now it’s no longer free and they send me a bill for thousands. I suppose I can ptry to settle but I don’t want to. I feel like he is extorting me in the same way the last man did which landed me in court for speaking out about it, and all of the things he did. I almost feel like I rather he sue me, but that also gives me a lot of anxiety that I would be sued again in less than a year of the unofficially end of the other one.

At first I thought this newest one was a scam, but it’s not, it tuns this man is notorious for doing this, and indeed I used one of his photos. I thought I had used it correctly and it just feels so unfair that this happening. It’s bringing me so much stress, anxiety, and worry. I don’t know if he will actually sue me, but he might. I refuse to give anyone money who tries to take it in this way. Plus they have yet to even prove definitive ownership of the photo in question.

This time it’s my business so it isn’t even as much about the money. I have professional liability insurance, I called and this would most likely be covered under the copyright umbrella I added.   I know I won’t be in court for many years if he did sue me for this. I know he won’t be so vengeful, but just looking for a quick payday from a stranger,  but I feel like that person who tried to hurt me through the court system for years just came right back and is doing it all over again. I barley had any time for relief for being in a constant state of being sued. I feel so triggered that the PSTD is just really bad.

I will try to find someone to talk about this with, but in the mean time just trying to get through my days.

Trying to find a way out and see the bright side of all of this. If there is one.