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March 26, 2018 at 8:05 pm #199607MParticipant
Three months ago I left my emotionally abusive husband. I repeatedly asked him to go get counseling and he refused. He said he didn’t need it and that I was the one who needed help. After many, many years of him convincing me that our issues were all my fault and many years of therapy for myself, I decided I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew I wasn’t crazy. With the help of my current therapist I finally mustered up the courage to leave. It took the action of my leaving to finally open his eyes. He now realizes that it was all his fault. He has started going to counseling, which is great. My issue is I have a lot of anger and resentment towards him now. I am very bitter that it took my leaving to make him see what was really going on. I had to leave my home, which I loved, to get him to see that he was the cause of our issues. He’s working on himself which is a wonderful thing but I can’t help thinking I’m the one living in an apartment with my three pets when I should be living in our home. Why did I have to leave? Of course he wouldn’t have left because he didn’t see his part in our situation at the time. Even if we don’t wind up back together I see my feelings making me miserable for a long time unless I can let them go. He is fixing himself, which is what I wanted, yet I am so angry and bitter over the situation. I am looking for suggestions on how I can release that anger and bitterness and see happiness in the situation. How do you forgive and move on?
March 27, 2018 at 4:25 am #199635InkyParticipantHi M,
He didn’t take you seriously before. As soon as you came into your power he realized that you are equals and he had to shape up. Wonderful!
Houses and homes are nice. But to me living in an apartment with all my animals beats living with emotional torment any day of the week. You are so used to living with torment from without that you are now creating it from within. Stop it!
After a year and a day of him going to counseling, you might beneficently return to your home like a gracious avatar.
Perhaps then he can start over.
Best,
Inky
March 27, 2018 at 4:37 am #199637AnonymousGuestDear M;
You wrote: “I’m the one living in an apartment… Why did I have to leave? Of course he wouldn’t have left because he didn’t see his part in our situation a the time”
“He now realizes it was all his fault”- now that he realizes this, why is he not leaving the home and maybe moving to your apartment while you live in the home?
anita
March 27, 2018 at 5:28 pm #199759MParticipantVery wise words Inky. Thank you. You are so right. Living with the emotional torment was way worse than having to leave. I should be happy that I am financially able to have a place of my own. My sister-in-law (who is married to his younger brother) is not so lucky. He’s almost as bad but she does not work and has a young daughter so feels trapped. Thank you for your honesty.
March 27, 2018 at 5:29 pm #199761MParticipantAnita – while in theory switching places sounds good. In reality it’s a lot of work and expense. I guess if one good thing came of me leaving it was that he finally woke up. 😉
March 27, 2018 at 7:03 pm #199763MarkParticipantForgiveness is something for yourself not for him. The anger eats you up. I don’t see a rush for forgiveness for you need to be able to sit with it in order to let it go. That may take a long time. Taking action also helps.
March 28, 2018 at 7:27 am #199797AnonymousGuestDear M:
You wrote that you leaving him three months ago caused him to “finally open his eyes”. For less than three months then, his eyes have been open and he sees his responsibility to the troubles in the marriage.
My suggestion: continue a communication with him, where the two of you are motivated and working for a common goal. Opening one’s eyes is a good thing. But it is easy for most to close them again.
See to it that your eyes are open.
anita
March 28, 2018 at 7:58 am #199805MParticipantThank you Mark!
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