Hello Anita and Alessa,

Thank you for your warm welcome. I didn’t expect it.

I am glad that you feel affection for me, Anita. Especially after I left you with pain when I wrote to you that you were not healing. I apologize for being unskilful.

I did it out of my own frustration and you didn’t deserve to be at the end of it. I shoud have taken better care of my own feelings so that I didn’t hurt others.

I am more mindful. I am more responsible for my own emotions today. And I am finding ways how to be compassionate with myself and others at the same time when times are tough.

I believe that vulnerability and humility should be an invitation for being genuine and open. It’s a great honor when somebody offers me their true heart. ❤️

What specifically do you mean about the fake words, Anita?
I can see that you have been a bit upset by these words, Alessa?

Do you think that we could find a way how to discuss this openly, politely and with compassion? Maybe… it’s a test. It is a great opportunity how to cultivate compassion with ourselves and others.

However, there is no need to rush. I suggest we take a break, go for a walk, spend time with loved ones and come back with relaxed mind. 🤗

I’ll do that. I’ll be back on Monday.

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Hello Anita, 🙂

can you help me to understand a little bit. I feel I am not following what you mean. You wrote:

” I know that my humility and vulnerability can be an invitation for these things to be used against me… Perhaps similar to your vulnerability having been used against you?

You know about fake-empathy, fake words.. I know these too now, more than before.”

And you wrote about that politeness can be seen artificial in my country. I am not sure about the connection between this and the idea that humility and vulnerability was used against us. I’m not sure what you mean.

🦋

Alessa 🫂 ❤️

I just want to say that everything fine. 😊

It’s just that this forum is probably not suitable for me because there are too few active people and the vast majority don’t want to get involved, so it’s all pointless. Forum is for discussion, and when there is no one who wants to discuss things, you know… it doesn’t make sense.

But I think that I just don’t understand this concept of forum.

So, I will visit another one.

I am sending ❤️ and ☀️

Anita, so please, let me. I try so hard. I really want to connect.

But I just feel rejected when you don’t want to discuss things with me. I don’t know what you mean. And when I don’t know what you mean, it cannot resonate, I cannot relate when I know so little.

I am not an enemy, either. I will not judge you. I wish I could understand your point of you better. It doesn’t matter if it resonates, because I will try to at least understand. I will not reject that idea. I will not minimize your feelings.

I know it is the vulnerability. I know that you might be scared. But I will not hurt you anymore. I spent some time with people with trauma and difficulties. I am more compasionate, more aware of the fact that people suffer too much and that the suffering has different shapes, forms and degrees… I respect it and I know that only that suffering is the source of these misunderstandings. Not people, or their feelings.

It is that I myself am met with a form of rejection from you… when you write only these short sentences, which read that you don’t want to connect.

What can I do then?

Do you remember? You wanted to make this place bigger… I really wish we could.

I can give you space. You can think about it and let me know later.

I am still open. I was just caught in a moment of my emotions. I need to control myself… I know that it wasn’t rejection… just my emotions read it as rejection…