Happy Holidays

I’m a full time college student so during the semester I don’t have time to focus on projects outside of class work. I enjoying writing, drawing, filming, and refurbishing clothes. Sometimes, I feel like i may be too ambitious because I am majoring in a STEM field, which I do love, but I am interested in everything, I seriously want to learn a little bit about everything.

So during the winter and summer breaks, I have time to focus on these art projects. However, my issue is I’m stunted from completing them. I have stories that I have began in 2012 and it’s like I can’t finish any of them. I am literally one of those people who start something but find it incredibly hard to finish it. Now I work on these projects throughout the year but I just can’t seem to be completely done with it. So now I am trying to determine why do I do this to myself? Why do I do things I enjoy but I can’t seem to move on?

Yesterday, I asked myself that question and I thought back to when I would start an art project and was criticized by my parents about it. They didn’t understand why I was making a clay-mation Iron man, or why I wanted to learn to play the piano. They are older and I they aren’t accepting of alot of things. My question is how do i just write, just create without feeling like a failure, or like it’s a waste of time. Because I know that it’s not but I can’t get myself to fully understand that for some reason. I just want to be my best self, but I need help understanding how to get pass this.