Dear Anita,

first thank you so much for replying, and yes you got me totally right, but my parents don’t also believe that all forms of dance is a sin. because I’m from Egypt the origin of belly dancing and it’s such a huge part of our movie heritage and culture and since it implies (maybe some sexual moves) that’s why the church consider it unfavorable maybe not fully a sin but definitely not a good thing unlike me and my parents we don’t think that dancing is bad we know it’s a form of art.My parents also love me for whatever I am but their reaction would probably and I don’t for sure but probably would be that I am leaving God to go after someone that might reject me and maybe lose my self to the world instead of focusing on God but I don’t know how to show them that I truly love the kind of love the bible is talking about and that it’s truly from God, I am just so worried of their reaction, and in Egypt an unmarried woman can not leave the country alone without the aproval of her father or a godfather or some male authority who’s responsible for her if her father is not alive.

I am almost 25 years old and the problem with just visiting is money, money is a huge issue for me and safest way financially to get there as I believe is through securing a job before I go (maybe there are other options I didn’t consider) also I know from interviews that he likes to be in a relationship for long enough time to be able to get to know the person well so I don’t think just visiting will make him want to be with me because I won’t be around for a long enough time with him and he doesn’t really think communicating over the internet is efficient and actually so do I so I prefer to live their.

I want to thank you for saying that a great gift I could give him is love EVERYTHING about him, it means a lot to me and I know there are a lot of things I still don’t know about him and I’m looking forward to know them.

Again thank you so much Anita for replying I really appreciate it I needed and still need to talk to someone about it, thank you so much 🙂

Hello Anita,

Actually no, if he didn’t exist I wouldn’t consider leaving Egypt, but I am willing to leave and adapt to his country’s culture just to be with him (if he accepted of course), if he rejects I don’t know whether I would want to come back or stay there to be able to attend his concerts and support him as a fan because he never came to egypt and I don’t know if he will, I wish of course.

I fell in love with him because he’s emotional as well as me and because I have an artist inside of me I can really relate to him and I see reflections of myself in his art and in him.

she accused him that he beat her and she gave fake evidence for that and his lawyer proved that all this was fake but the case is still ongoing, also she had a baby with him and now he is fighting for the custody of the child and we as a fandom are behind him and supporting him we are a very loving and caring fandom the kind of motherly love giving fans, we are telling him and his family to not leave the child in her hands she’s so manipulative and always uses media and never provided real evidence for her claims. I understand all that will have influence on him and that he also might be afraid to approach love again but I trust that his love for life and our prayers for him will make him heal of all that, I also understand that it’s going to be hard to be with him and raising that child as my own (although we are still skeptical that there is truly a child) as people might think I will not love the child as my own but I took the decision to love the child if he truly exists. All that made feel so bad that I am not near him to comfort him all I could do is to send him messages online that I was not sure he could access them and pray for him, what made me love him more is that he was so patient with her and didn’t sue her but she wouldn’t stop so he had eventually to defend himself.

Also all this made me so deeply connected with him on a level I can not describe, when this scandal broke out in the news in korea and I haven’t yet know about it my heart was beating so fast in an unpleasant way as if I was so nervous, I felt like I was feeling his fear when it broke out the next day I knew what had happened and of course I was shocked in the beginning but my love for him and knowing his personality I knew he wouldn’t do such a thing and if he did then he made a mistake that he must pay for but that wouldn’t change my love for him also and my love for him grew stronger ever since as well as all the fans.