August 9, 2018 at 7:06 am #220815
So.. A friend of my brother was out on vacation and picked up a souvenir, more specifically a Buddha figurine made out of a dark wood with robes painted in a golden~ color. A few weeks after taking it home, he began to feel bad vibes from the figurine and got rid of it, He gave it to my brother, who didn't really care for it, so he gave it to me and I took an instant liking to it.
I've had it with me for 11 years now, either facing me above my desk, or in a window, facing outwards. I prefer to have it facing outward seeing as that's the view I'd prefer if I was a figurine.
I woke up one night and got a bad feeling, so I looked around the pitch black room and saw two light blue glowing eyes at the window. I ignored it, laid down again, but then decided to look again, and it was still there, two glowing light blue eyes, right where the Buddha figurine is sitting, facing outwards as usual..
I ignored it and went to sleep, when I wake up in the morning, the Buddha figurine is facing towards the room. I turned it around, but some days in the morning, the statue has turned a bit in an attempt to turn towards the room again.
I'm not really freaked out about this, I've seen some weird stuff. But I'm more interested in why this happens, and what the blue eyes represent. What it all means.
Maybe this forum isn't the right place for this type of question. But, not really sure where to go about Buddha questions.August 9, 2018 at 11:52 am #220881
You wrote that you are “more interested in why this happens, and what the blue eyes represent. What it all means”-
you also wrote, “not really freaked out about this, I've seen weird stuff”.
The answer to why this happens and what it means may be in the other things you have seen, the “weird stuff” you mentioned. Would you like to elaborate on that weird stuff?
anitaAugust 10, 2018 at 1:22 am #220963
Well, it's mostly auditory and visual hallucinations that I used to have.
Every time I move into a new place, the first morning I get a full on hallucination that lasts minutes. It's always the same thing, a huge rumble, followed by a blinding light. I walk up to the window and look out and there's a huuuuge explosion in the distance that's quickly coming closer. But as I accept it, it goes away.
I've seen hand drawn pictures of the sun (as if drawn by a child) pop up on my wall along with a loud static noise, only to disappear seconds later. I've seen floating toys and faces forming inside the walls. As I was out driving, a bridge melted just as I was driving under it.
All of my auditory hallucinations are also coupled with some kind of sleep paralysis.
The first time it happened I was trying to sleep. I hear a voice behind me, a man speaking to a woman in a deep and broken voice, all he said was “Are you certain about this one woman”. Then overwhelming fear came over me and I was stuck in sleep paralysis for a few minutes.
The second time it happened was again in bed, trying to fall asleep while facing the wall. A woman speaks to me in a soft voice “Don't look behind you”. And then sleep paralysis kicks in, but it's different this time. It's not that I cant move, it's that I'm being dragged out of bed, and pushed in under my bed. I managed to snap out of it just in time and somehow I was in bed again.
The third time it happened I was sitting at the computer, just playing a game. All of a sudden sleep paralysis kicks in and I cant move, my office chair is being dragged out of the room and towards the stairs. Something was trying to push me down. But again, I snap out of it just at the edge of the stairs and I'm back at the computer. I never fell asleep and I wasn't tired.
All of the voices stopped after I had a heart attack and died for 15~ minutes. I still see people from time to time, most recently a really old, short yet sturdy man that stood next to my bed for a few minutes one night. He didn't look at me once though, he just kept looking at the chimney.
These hallucinations are different compared to the Buddha figurine though, I know these hallucinations aren't “real”. The figurine turns at night and stays turned in the morning, the eyes keep glowing even after I look away for a while. It feels real.August 10, 2018 at 5:27 am #220975
Everyone hears voices, we hear other people talk to us and often we talk back to them, having conversations in our heads, on and on, every day. We hear commentaries about what we do, on and on. Most people know these are our own voices, generated by our brain. Some of us, think these voices are generated elsewhere, outside of our brain (auditory hallucinations).
Everyone sees things, imagining things all day, seeing faces on the wall, like you, or seeing faces in the clouds. We see a lot of things that aren't there, still images or moving images, like in the movies, but most of us know that it is our brain that generates these images, these visuals. Some of us think that these images are generated outside of our brain(visual hallucinations).
The thing about auditory and visual hallucinations is that they feel real. I once had a dream, when I was a child, or maybe it was a visual hallucination, that I was flying like a bird. It felt so very real and it took me years to believe that it couldn't have been real, that it was not possible that I flew like a bird.
When you move to a new place, your anxiety increases and so do the hallucinations: “Every time I move to a new place, the first morning I get a full on hallucination that lasts minutes.. a huge rumble, followed by a blinding light… a huuuuge explosion in the distance that's quickly coming closer”. It is a good thing that you learned these are hallucinations, that is generated by your brain (“as I accept it, it goes away”).
Regarding the Buddha figurine, the topic of your thread, you like it, took an instant liking to it and have it in your life for eleven years at this point. You prefer to place it in the window facing outwards, just as you would prefer to be faced if you were a figurine, you wrote.
One night you woke up “and got a bad feeling”, you looked around the pitch black room and saw “two glowing light blue eyes… right where the Buddha figurine is sitting, facing outwards as usual”. In the morning, the figurine was facing the room. You turned it around, but some mornings it is “turned a bit in an attempt to turn towards the room again…The figurine turns at night and stays turned in the morning, the eyes keep glowing even after I look away for a while. It feels real”.
I am now ready to guess as to the answer to why this is happening and what it means. Let me know what you think of my guess:
I am guessing you are afraid at nights, anxious. The figurine is more than a figurine for you, it is almost like a person that has been a constant in your life for eleven years, someone you learned to rely on. It is dependable, always there for you. You are kind to it, placing it so it can enjoy the view of the outside, so it doesn't get bored. Being kind to you in return, it turns around to give you a view of a beautiful color, light blue, the color of its eyes, looking at you. This is its way of interacting with you, giving you something in return, attention. And so, you are not alone and so, you are less afraid.
August 10, 2018 at 11:35 am #221061
- This reply was modified 6 days, 9 hours ago by anita.
Hmm, well. There used to be only one thing that scared me, and that was the knowledge that someday, my mind will cease to exist. But after my experience with death, this went away. I'm not afraid anymore, for better or worse.
But you're right, I am very anxious, about my future in this world. I like certainty, and life only offers you one certainty. Being anxious keeps me from sleeping at night. Though I am not afraid of my hallucinations, or spiritual interactions. They don't hurt me so why should I fear it. The figurine intrigued me though, since it actually happened in real life, and not just in my head.
I did some researching (googling) and found this website talking about “The eye of the Buddha”. That it stands for Peace, Harmony, Wisdom and Conscience. In one of the pictures this is depicted as blue eyes, I found the coincidence interesting.
Is it possible that the figurine sensed a negative presence in the room and calmed it?August 10, 2018 at 11:44 am #221063
I don't know. I think that a figurine can not sense things and calm a negative presence. What the figurine represents for us can do that. I mean, if the figurine represents to you protection, then it will calm you. I don't know much about figurines or statues, these things are a big part of culture and religion through centuries of human history. I wish someone with this kind of knowledge would reply to your thread.
If I understand correctly, you believe the figurine really did and does turn toward you with its glowing blue eyes, this is not a visual hallucination?
anitaAugust 11, 2018 at 8:09 am #221173
You wrote: “I am very anxious, about my future in this world… Being anxious keeps me from sleeping at night”. You asked: “Is it possible that the figurine sensed a negative presence in the room and calmed it?”
The answer is in what you shared: “I woke up one night and got a bad feeling, so I looked around the pitch black room and saw two light blue glowing eyes… (I) laid down again.. decided to look again, and it was still there, two glowing light blue eyes… went to sleep, when I wake up in the morning, the Buddha figurine is facing towards the room”.
May you continue to find comfort in your figurine, and please do post here anytime, share, if you would like about what worries you regarding your “future in this world”.
anitaAugust 11, 2018 at 10:23 am #221181
– “If I understand correctly, you believe the figurine really did and does turn toward you with its glowing blue eyes, this is not a visual hallucination?”
Yes, the Buddha figurine actually turns on it's own. Some days it only turns a little bit, some days it does not turn at all. This particular night, it had done a 180 degree turn.
I have never seen it move with my own eyes, but I'm the only one in this room, no one could have moved it.August 11, 2018 at 12:56 pm #221189
I will be back to the computer in about sixteen hours. I will reply to your last post and to any other you may choose to add (maybe regarding my post to you just before this one) when I am back.
anitaAugust 12, 2018 at 7:26 am #221223
This is what you can find online, simplified and probably not very accurate: the word “budhi” (in Buddha) means to awaken. The name, Buddha originated about 2,500 years ago, when a man by the name Siddhartha Gotama, at 35 years old, went on a six year quest of learning and meditating. As a result of his quest he was awakened to the truth. In Buddhism this truth is called Dharma.
Some of the basics of Dharma are that life is suffering: physical, emotional pain, disease, aging, and death, that we will suffer less if we don't crave, cling and desire that impermanent things will last and last, and if we take the Middle Path, that which is between extremes.
Does this mean something to you, in context of your observations of the movements and glowing blue eyes of your Buddha figurine?
anitaAugust 12, 2018 at 9:19 am #221231
I have a friend that is certain that she can remember many past lives and like many who have the same experience spends a lot of time looking for ways to prove the experiences are “real”. (begs the question what makes a experience real? )
My opinion is that such searches to prove and explain the experiences are interesting but often misses the opportunity to learn something about ourselves from them.
A question I might ask myself is what blue eyes might mean to me. Blue is often symbol of spirituality and enlightenment but it is also a symbol for cold. Can “enlightenment” also leave one feeling cold?
I like what the bible has to say about such experiences – “But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart” There is a time to share such experiences but also a time to treasure them up. Words have a bad habit of diminishing a experiences, especially the words of others who are more then willing to tell you what qualifies as a real experience.
August 12, 2018 at 10:41 am #221237
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Thank you Anita, for your time and patience with answering my questions.
I'm glad I reached out, fate brought me here to find clarity. I now know what it meant. I've strayed the path of righteousness. It's true, life is suffering.. But as individuals we have the ability to make life better, for everyone and everything, or at least to keep a balance.
With all the negativity and evil that seems to overwhelm the world right now, I had given up. I've not left my home for 2 years. I believe it's time I went out there and started doing some good again.
August 12, 2018 at 11:22 am #221245
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You are welcome. I am glad you reached out here and I hope to read more from you, about your walk back on what you referred to as the path of righteousness. I would like to read about how you make life better, for yourself and for others. It so happens that reading your most recent reply had made my life better this very morning . Thank you.
anitaAugust 14, 2018 at 12:17 pm #221473
Spirituality is a strange beast because the majority of experiences involve the brain. I personally have made a conscious decision to give up on the ‘spiritual path' because it was driving me insane. You become very obsessive. At times I could swear blind I was Neptune or Apollo or that Odin or Artemis were contacting me, and yet at other times I found these ideas ridiculous. At times I thought I heard phantom rappings on my window at night, but when I stopped obsessing about these things they went away. Then there were the weird experiences of seeing my thoughts somehow bleed out onto Pinterest via strange coincidences. I have come to the conclusion that our task on this Earth is not to find a God that clearly doesn't want to be found (and who hides out in the grey area between mental illness and spiritual experience), but rather just to live this life to the full and enjoy it. Those in the spiritual business would never say this, but that's because they have to drum up trade to keep the business going and themselves in a job. For me, you've got to find contentment where you can, whether that's helping others, doing creative stuff or taking prescription drugs (my drug of choice is codeine). For a lot of people, God/Spirituality engenders confusion and anger and self-loathing rather than contentment. That isn't good for your health.August 14, 2018 at 5:37 pm #221531
I do not believe in mental illness, and I do not believe in prescription drugs. Your mental condition is a reflection of your physical life, what you have and what you don't have. All these prescription drugs do is mask the problem, to make it seem like you're fine.
In doing so you simply pile up issues and eventually you're at a point of no return, stuck in a swamp of negativity and pills. I suffer from heavy depression, not because of an illness, but rather because I was abused as a child, my father would take out his aggressions on me and beat me from year 7 to 14, when he finally left.
Part of me wishes I had a good father growing up, that I could have all those father son moments. But I never will, and no amount of medication or therapy will ever give me that.
But what I can do is understand why I am depressed, and surround myself with good people, and try to be as happy as I can be.
If you talk to your doctor he/she will admit that the medication is only to mask the issue while you work it out with a therapist, etc. I suppose it's good, if the pain is too much to bear. But I avoid it.
And about God.. God is around, in your heart and mind. Listening. If your prayer is sincere and what you're asking for is within God's grasp, I'm sure God will answer your prayer, in one way or another. Just remember that God is about love, and love is about sacrifice. Asking for something without giving something is a sin, what you give should not be materialistic either.
God has not abandoned anyone, but rather the other way around. We live in a world that is all about being famous or getting money. People pray to God for nice cars, a hot wife, a huge mansion, a great job. Both America and Isis is killing in Gods name.
Maybe we're just supposed to live our lives to the fullest, that would be dangerous though, and very sinful. Or perhaps life is a test, where our actions are judged.
I personally believe that life is where souls grow, and once your soul has fully matured it passes on to a sort of stratum where the soul will spend an eternity. And if a soul is not yet ready, it will seek a new vessel and be reborn. But that is just my own thoughts.
I agree that spirituality can become obsessive, and sometimes we wish for things to be greater than they actually are.. An old woman once told me I was the reincarnation of the Ascended Master Lord Hilarion, the fifth ray of healing and truth. She essentially put me up on the same level as Jesus.
It's important to remember who you truly are, and you shouldn't throw away your identity for anything, not Hilarion, Jesus or Neptune. We are all unique and we all hold the potential to do great things. 🙂
I hope you find a way to live your life without Codeine. I personally turn to marijuana for my emotional.. Troubles, as it makes me apathetic. Though I make sure to restrain myself as often as I can so I don't become reliant on it. Masking your problems is never the way.
I apologize for rambling, sleepless night.