I have never been on a webcam except for when seeing doctors. I don’t fancy it; however, my sexual stamina is very high, which would make it at least a feasible option. This is something that is uncommon for me, I at least don’t have sexual sensation, it doesn’t contribute directly to other’s physical health problems or my own like so many ordinary jobs do (even working at a grocery store one sells liquor), and physical pleasure actually reduces my physical symptoms by reducing inflammation in the intestines and throughout the body.

I have never been a life coach but find it easy to help people psychologically and emotionally online. Regarding Buddhism, I have been able to partially follow all but the fifth precept, the abstaining from intoxicants. Buddhist monks, whose talks are free on youtube, whose discussions are free online, who right cheap books, and Buddhist laypeople and communities time and again have reduced my suffering more than any therapist or psychiatrist managed to do. I simply question my ability to renounce sexuality and psychoactive substances. If it were not for these to hindrances, which are effectively equal for me, I would have only mild difficulty acting as a monk.

I would most like to simply be supported for who I am without having to give out favors, ideally on my own at least for a time to get to know myself, but perhaps with a partner. For me it’s just a question of whether or not I expect or at least desire too much out of a relationship.

Also, reviewing you statement on my desires in a relationship, I don’t sound nearly as greedy as I fear myself to be when unchecked. This actually does seem like the best course of action for me, if undertaken with due caution, sincerity, honesty, compassion, and expectations. Your responses help me to take some of the excessive judgement I give myself away, and for that I thank you deeply and sincerely.

Regarding physical and emotional pleasure and its effects on inflammation (which is a surprisingly large topic), it does distract from it, however, the neurochemical changes and vagus nerve stimulation the type of which is caused by the sexual activities I enjoy actually does reduce inflammation. This is largely due to increases in the neurotransmitters anandamide and dopamine which have direct anti-inflammatory effects, as well as increasing serotonin, norepinephrine, and endorphins, which reduce the stress response, the stress response being a major contributor to inflammation. These benefits can be obtained in many other ways; however, none so far have been both compatible and effective for me with physical labor. In addition, sexual activity is dynamic, whereas many entry level physical jobs such as restaurant work involve much standing in place, which irritate my guts dramatically mor than dynamic physical activity, which involve motion, as sexual activity does. In addition, as gross as it is to say, anal stimulation directly stimulates the vagus nerve, inducing relaxation, reducing stress, and lowering inflammation. Ultimately, any enjoyable activity (even eating dark chocolate, sexuality is not an important factor) which does not directly harm the gut, improves the course of crohn’s disease.

All that aside, becoming a life coach is feasible for me as well, especially incorporating those principles, from Buddhism and elsewhere that have helped me.

But the way you summed up my desires in a relationship helped me realize it’s not unethically selfish for me to want to have a partner and have them support me financially. I can work to make a small income on the side, but if I’m open and honest while searching for a partner, I should one day be able to find someone who genuinely is happy to care for me in the ways I have a hard time doing, while I care for them and others, making it a win-win. I believe after some consideration that this is the best course of action for me to pursue.

In addition, rubbing the ears, and deep breathing also stimulate the vagus nerve, neither sexual nor anal stimulation are necessary for this.

You are right, endorphins mostly reduce pain, but blood circulation, movement, lowered stress response, and the body’s own “Cannabis” anandamide (which is powerfully anti-inflammatory), which is also released, also reduce inflammation. A reasonable sex life has many health benefits for most people.

Anyways, they are excellent practices (the meditative ones) and are indeed great to pursue, I mostly pursue open awareness and loving kindness at this time, which have eliminated my panic attacks.

Also, thanks for the agreement on finding a partner, most people look down on you if you want finacial support. Talk to you tomorrow also, good evening.

I need to find a new vice until I’m better at mindfulness, as when I don’t overeat, I want to do something else instead. When I originally lost my weight, I used a lot of cannabis and drank a lot of coffee, but I can’t do that anymore, and alcohol has calories. I do chew nicotine gum, maybe I’ll use that.