Hi Ms. Anita,

I hope you are asleep and having a nice comforting feeling, I have found in the past few days if I go to bed with comforting thoughts I sleep better and do wake up with a smile when I realize life is & never will be perfect.  We all have good and bad days.  You will never be happy all the time, if your life is perfect all the time you won’t appreciate it as much if you don’t have bumps in the road to make you appreciate the blissfully happy days.

I had a turnaround today.  3 of my babies are not feeling well.  My Balinese 2-year-old is like a child and is such a unique little boy who fell down a pine tree & has a large wound on his head & I am nursing him.  My 10-year old which I have had since my Precious Mother passed & has always been attached to my hip has a Heart disease/FIV and a bad upper respiratory infection which he has had since he was a kitten.  He is such a sweet boy.  I had an ultrasound taken & found this out. about the Heart Disease.  I always pay close attention to him because with the heart diseases the vet said he could live a week or a few more years & there was no way of knowing so of course he is pampered.  His little sister has a fever and is feeling a bit puny & she is also on meds.  Last is the latest edition which walked in my door one day and jumped in my bed where Takeda was lying and went to sleep, she loves him and they get along so well so I have an appointment to have all of his shots and to have him neutered.

I decided not to see my friend tomorrow.  I called him and let him know I was going out of town tomorrow.  He asked when & I told him one day next week.  He told me he had a slot on Monday or Friday and that is when I had an awakening moment & thought this is crazy.  The type of life I would have with him is everything I don’t want and if we were together there would be the drama that would come from his clan.  I live a very drama-free quiet life.  I don’t want that.  Having to be put on a schedule. {LOL}~  INSANE~

He said he would bring my gifts by one day.  I have an enclosed area with tables & chairs in which he often leaves little things.on occasion. So he will set them in a chair.  I didn’t ask when or anything.  He knows I don’t open my doors for guests unless I have a heads-up.  I don’t like drop-ins and he is respectful of that. I don’t know what I am going to do with him.  Maybe it will just slow down and we can be like we were and text on occasion to say hi & ask no questions what we had was sweet but not the life I want.

I know in a few years if we were together I would get disgusted because he will always have the Drama Family to contend with.  Something like that can’t disappear.

Also, I realized I love music/reading and watching a good movie, and he does not like any of these.  All he thinks about is work and family and I am a deterrent to that Drama.  Hopefully, I will stand my ground.

Please smile in the morning, it is going to be a Beautiful day My Friend. Rain or Shine.  Both are wonderful, rain gives us a guilt-free reasons to be lazy and catnap/read or watch a good movie.  Sunny out I will work in the yard and chase my babies around.  I have a bubble machine on those days and my cats go nuts chasing them while I am running trying to catch them.  It is so adorable.

They all Love me unconditionally, why do I need a man that puts me on a schedule?

Something funny, my friend did tell me he hears the songs in his head and hums them when in his truck or in his bed before he goes to sleep and he laughed.  He said it made him feel good because if saw me while I would listen to my music. He also watched movies with me and seemed to enjoy them.  He buys me movies because he knows the type of movies I watch.

I am starting to feel bad for him because I feel he does not want to be living the life he is in and feels trapped.  He told me he wanted a happy life but taking care of so many people he couldn’t.

I am watching Frankie Valli & the four Seasons Concert & bed full of fur babies and will fall asleep around 3 or 4~

Have a Beautiful night and “Smile” tomorrow.  Medicine for the soul!

Good Night my Friend.

Shookie~

Hi Anita,

Smiling?

I smiled when I asked the question & hope you are.  Don’t laugh, I found a 10-minute daily spot that comes on Youtube called Elegant Women.  I have seen it a few weeks & would bypass it.  And today she was talking about do’s and don’ts of how to be elegant (Clothes/purses/shoes which I understand that part & is why I bypassed it.

Today it popped up & she was discussing how & what to do to not seem desperate with men.  What to say & how to respond to them.

One big thing was to respect yourself first and what you do, do it for yourself because it gives you the confidence which radiates when you are out which attracts men, and never ever call or text a man first.  If they call or text DO NOT respond that day.  Make the man earn you and put you on a pedestal.  Also, make them earn your respect and always continue to educate yourself and believe in yourself.

Are you in California if you don’t mind me asking?  You mentioned wildfires & I lived in California where a lot of wildfires are. I was in The Military in Cali which I loved except the weather can be harsh.

I have 4 cats~ 2 Tuxedo babies, 1 Balinese, and a Russian Blue which are all rescues~ I love all animals except a cat person.  I believe it is because they can be so independent and self-sufficient which to me is a special trait.  Also, they can peg a man quicker than I do.  I have only had 3 men in my house since I have been here for 11 years one was my ex.  The other 2 were a 1-time deal and they were here for only a few hours.  If the cats won’t have anything to do with them, they are out quickly.

The Balinese and Russian Blue are very protective over me and my 2 Tuxedo kitties from a distance sit and watch.  The Balinese were fierce & screamed and wanted the creep out.

I am learning to take responsibility and control my life.  I need to practice the Law of Attraction, believe it works, and practice it every day.

I need to start staying focused and stop letting myself get bored.  Everyone gets lonely & should expect the loneliness.  You can be lonely in a room full of people.

Respect yourself and always expect respect from others.

The ex texted this a.m. and nothing since which tells me a lot which is making letting go easier to know I am doing the right thing by letting go.

Have a Nice evening & I look forward to your read.

Shookie~

Good Afternoon My Friend,

4 fur babies I have which are so sweet & precious with each one having a different personality.  They follow me around like dogs & I have all except 1 whistle trained.

I like dogs & would love to have a Black & Silver German Shephard.  I had one when I was younger & he was so smart and the Best.  He was also a rescue full grown & was so easy to train with the help of a friend.

If you have ever seen John Wick #3 I believe with Haley Berry and her 2 Shepards my boy could jump & and do about 1/2 of some of the stunts hers did.  Of course, I feel they must have been professionally trained.

There is a gentleman in town that train police dogs and when I was verified to do animal abuse cases we became friends & I would watch while he was training new dogs from a distance due to not distracting the animals and on occasion, he would bring a well seasoned older one in and I would never have believed a dog could do some of the tricks and have the discipline they do.

As I write this I am realizing how much I like a person or animals which are disciplined.  I have absolutely no tolerance for the (I can’t) words.  Those words were not allowed in my vocabulary growing up as my Father was in the Marines as a Drill Instructor and then went into the Air Force due to it being more family-friendly as all he had was girls.

That is why I went into the Military because I wanted to know what he went through his whole life and he frowned upon me going in right out of High School.  I went in while in my 20s after he passed because again I didn’t want to disrespect him and his beliefs.  He felt a lady should not go into the Service.  No Regrets & see why he loved being in the Military his whole life.

Yes, that is why I have always tried to be independent and self-sufficient which basically I have.

No man has ever taken care of me.  I have always worked hard and tried to follow my Fathers advice long after he passed.  God Bless his Soul he was such a Wonderful Father.

At the time I used to think he was being mean & after he passed I understood.  I wish he were alive today to know I turned out almost as he primed me.

Don’t get me wrong it does get lonely sometimes but worth it.  You come into this world alone naked and eventually, we will all pass so I am making the best of what I have.

Being in a relationship in my opinion is not worth it if you have to struggle with it all the time.  A lot of people don’t respect their partners and it is not like it was back in the good old days when families in the 50s through 70s it seems like so many families wanted their children to be Doctors, Lawyers, or girls Nurses and now there are so many broken homes and undisciplined children.

I have witnessed kids hitting their parents, calling them names, and disrespecting the ones that brought them into the world.  If I had ever spoken or yelled at my Parents my Father would have drop-kicked me out of the door.  Not only that, I wanted their respect because I knew how it made me feel to be kind, helpful, and always honest with them.  Maybe a few little white lies if I would skip school when my Dad knew about it and I didn’t know.  I would go home & remember him asking me how school was that day and my response was “It was fine” Years later he told me he knew more than what I thought and his famous saying “Don’t ever try & pull the wool over my eyes”

My ex called and texted a few times last night & I gave him no response and didn’t answer the calls.  I am proud of myself for your words of Wisdom I am able to get through this by understanding this situation and I feel great today.

My neighbor called yesterday to see if I would like to come over have dinner and move this afternoon.  So I am going to get ready & hope to have a read from you when I get back home.

It’s funny because I walk through the woods like Little Red Riding Hood to get there and if I don’t put the babies inside the house they follow me over and sit in their backyard until I leave.  It is so cute.

Have a Great Day & Read soon.

Shookie~

Hello My Friend.

Not anything related to my ex as I have cut him off completely.  Since I have done that he has started calling and texting me several times daily.  I did send the last one a few days ago and texted him a response of I will not dignify any of his texts with an answer other than asking what block I was available for on his schedule as it was filling fast. I asked what have I ever done to be degraded with such a question!!!!  And sent a picture of a quote and a picture of LAO TZU reading “Time is a created thing.  To say “I don’t have time” is like saying  “I don’t want to”.

I felt soo good! (Smiling)~

My Best & only True Friend that GOD put in my life a few years ago her Chocolate Labrador out of nowhere started falling down and having strange facial uncontrolled movements.  The veterinarian told her to wait 2 weeks and see if it stopped before bringing her in which was insane.  She waited 2 days and said “Enough is enough and took her anyway.  The veterinarian said the dog probably wouldn’t make it home.  What was she thinking??  I am a weatherman, not a veterinarian.  The dog lasted 2 days once we got her home.  We put her in a makeshift oxygen tent using an oxygen tank and covering which helped her labored breathing.

She wouldn’t eat or drink and as she asked GOD for a quick death if she wasn’t going to make it.  She passed approximately 10 minutes later in my friend’s arms.  She was truly Blessed.

As you know I am the lady in the shoe with all of my fur babies.  Three are sick and it is a full-time job nursing and doctoring them and giving medicine twice daily.  Loving and talking to them more then usual which I didn’t feel was possible.

All of my babies are my family and I will do everything within my power to help them to get well and reassure them they are loved.

It is amazing how all of the positive vibes I am giving them now have turned into bigger snugglers than I thought they could be.

Has the smoke, fire, and winds calmed down for you?  I have been praying for you they do.

Are you Smiling?  I hope so~

Have a Beautiful Day.

Your Friend,

Shookie 🙂