Hi Anita,

I’m always filled with gratefulness after your every reply and when I read it. You write with love.

I did attend to those wounds, they still hurt me when I think about them. Yes, these wounds have spilled over in my relationships. I have recognised then I tried my best to not lie but hind those wounds, I wanted a pure relationship with less wound exposure. Apart from that my mother is very well know, she attends to me very well and nicely. She understands me and helps me in every way. I know I can rely on her, I’m grateful to her. My sister wasn’t here with me at my home for 8 years now, I reconnected with her again, and she’s said she’s here for me, I’m her younger brother. I just want to focus more on these aspects now, ik my childhood got bad, but now the same people are here for me. I’m grateful. I just need to build faith in myself and work on myself, I’m scared of working hard, i don’t know why. But I know it’s time for a change. Anita, I ask your help in this change, not from a perspective from focusing on the past, but on the present and the future. I need your guidance Anita.

SS has no remorse now, she is blaming me too for how the relationship turned out, I agree I didn’t treat her like a typical boyfriend after first year, but I tried my best and I did not abude her in any way. I was ignorant sometimes yes.

I guess it’s to move on. I miss her, I’m sure she will too, but I need to accept it now. I can geel a weak signal now there is someone else out there for me.

Waiting for your reply Anita with an open heart and love.

GoingThroughLife