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May 24, 2024 at 8:04 am #433068
Helcat
ParticipantHave a look about in the photos app for a recycle bin or a recently deleted section. A small chance that you might find your deleted photos in there and be able to recover them.
May 24, 2024 at 8:22 am #433072anita
ParticipantThank you for trying to help me recover the photos. I am technologically disabled: I just looked for a recycle bin but couldn’t find it. But moving screens and all, I found the photos, all there. I guess I didn’t delete them after all, but somehow they are not accessible the old way.
May 24, 2024 at 11:57 am #433074Helcat
ParticipantYou’re welcome. I’m really glad that you found your photos! It’s awful to lose stuff like that. ❤️
May 24, 2024 at 9:17 pm #433082NotSoSadSoul
ParticipantDear Anita! I’m so pleased you found your photos! Hello Helcat 🙋
I did my dangerous sport and all went perfectly! I’ve been a bit anxious (insert/terrified) this week about doing it again. A tiny part of me wanted to give it up. Luckily it’s been a really hectic week so not too much time spent focusing on it.
I’m so glad you are fine and dandy, Anita. I am too at the precise moment in time. What do you do to help feel calm?
May 24, 2024 at 9:32 pm #433083anita
ParticipantDear SadSoul:
I am glad you did your dangerous sport (What the hell is it…?) and you are alive to talk about it.
“What do you do to help feel calm?“- to understand what is true and real.
anita
May 24, 2024 at 10:03 pm #433084NotSoSadSoul
ParticipantOur eyes are open at the same time for once! I need to sleep though 😂 I’m exhausted.
I like this: to understand what is true and real.
I do this a lot with my sport, looking at my surroundings and focusing on them rather than the stories in my head, the worries and fears that also have a place but get away from me if I don’t keep myself centred in what is, rather than what if. I’m not explaining it well. I’ve been hurt in the past doing it so I carry fear when I do it, I have to tackle the fear in order to be safe, and a lot of that is being tuned into what is true and real. Only I never thought to look at it like that.
I’ve been thinking a lot on the posts in your other thread. What is true and real. The words I needed to describe what I’m trying to do, after reading them. I’m trying to untangle myself from my parents’ affects on me and my whole life. To give a stupid example, only it’s not stupid because it’s hurt me my whole adult life, my mother is very critical of my appearance, how I walk, how I hold my mouth, how I dress… I hate how I look, worry about how I walk and hold my mouth, you name it I’m insecure (hurt etc) by it. I’m trying to disengage myself from it. What is true and real is so true! Her meanness is true and real. I would never say such meanness to my children, to anyone. In actual fact, how someone walks, talks, dresses, I don’t think about it because why would I? I’m not that mean. I don’t have that horrible of an outlook. I don’t even notice things like that.
May 25, 2024 at 8:42 am #433092anita
ParticipantDear SadSoul:
“Centred in what is, rather than what if”– original, poetic wording and an inspiration for a poem: Centred Sad Soul, Centred in What is…
“I have to tackle the fear in order to be safe, and a lot of that is being tuned into what is true and real“- I need to think about this sentence for a while, about its meaning.
“My mother is very critical of my appearance, how I walk, how I hold my mouth, how I dress.. I hate how I look, worry about how I walk and hold my mouth, you name it I’m insecure (hurt etc.) by it. I’m trying to disengage myself from it. What is true and real is so true! Her meanness is true and real“- shifting focus from what she said about you directly (your looks are unacceptable to me!) => what she said about her indirectly (I am mean!).
I have to run and will be away from the computer for a while. I hope you rest some this weekend.
anita
May 25, 2024 at 4:02 pm #433093NotSoSadSoul
Participant“I have to tackle the fear in order to be safe, and a lot of that is being tuned into what is true and real“- I need to think about this sentence for a while, about its meaning.
It’s not very deep, mainly I’ve hurt myself, my sport is a partnership that goes badly if I focus on my fears, so I gave to focus on the environment, my partner, and what’s going on around us. If I let my fears take hold my partner gets scared, then we can both get really hurt. I have to be present, focused and confident, to maintain the leadership role required of me. It’s hard for me because I’m afraid and I’m not a leadership kind of person. I’ve had to learn these qualities and they do not come naturally. Half of it is being focused on what’s true and real.
Have a great time on your adventures. See you when you’re back.
May 25, 2024 at 8:50 pm #433097anita
ParticipantDear SadSoul:
“to focus on the environment, my partner, and what’s going on around us… to be present, focused and confident, to maintain the leadership role required of me“- Amen!
A way to live Life, not just a sport.
anita
May 26, 2024 at 2:47 pm #433124NotSoSadSoul
ParticipantI wish I could inject it into my heart. My stomach churned and felt sick all day, because I fell into my default response to life, that I’m a failure. It wasn’t fun. So in the end I went and did my sport for an hour or so for some positive reinforcement. EG: if you don’t die it’s positive 😂
I’ve been a bit sad not hearing from my son to add to feeling failed. I miss him a very enormous large gigantic mammoth amount.
How are you doing? As I sit for a moment, listening to the birds sing their beautiful songs, and the sun gives up some of its warmth on my face.
May 26, 2024 at 6:27 pm #433163anita
ParticipantDear SadSoul:
“I miss him a very enormous large gigantic mammoth amount”– very enormous, gigantic, mammoth, that’s a whole lot of missing.
“How are you doing?“- Sun evening here, still light outside, and green, as always. I am listening to people (YouTube News) in pain, gang violence in Haiti, war in the middle east, dead young people.
anita
May 26, 2024 at 6:51 pm #433164anita
ParticipantDear SadSoul:
I’d say I am a sad soul myself, this evening, sad for the massive pain in our world, so many people in pain, emotional pain, and many, in physical pain as well. And so much of it could be prevented. So much of it can still be prevented. I am so powerless in making any difference of significance. If there was a mountain I could climb to make a difference, I would! A stormy river to cross- I would!… If there was a way for me to reunite a Sad Soul with Son.. I would!
anita
May 27, 2024 at 2:18 am #433165NotSoSadSoul
ParticipantThank you, beautiful Anita, for such heart-warming wishes. I’m sorry it’s a hard day for you. I feel the same sometimes. The only thing I can think of is if we make our immediate space the best it possibly can be, then where possible we help those around us, then the ripple has gone further than just us. Then maybe people who’ve felt blessed will be inspired to help others. I don’t do much of this anymore. Last week I took a plate of corned beef and veg to a neighbour who had mentioned how much they love it. The joy they showed was so nice. If forgotten what it felt like doing something for someone – bearing in mind I’ve been quite shut down the last few years with my life’s things, and I ran out of give, because I was giving so very much more than I had in me to my was best friend. Hopefully I’m going in a good direction now.
How are things after a good sleep? Thinking of you.
May 27, 2024 at 7:32 am #433169anita
ParticipantDear SadSoul:
You are welcome and thank you for the beautiful.
“if we make our immediate space the best it possibly can be, then where possible we help those around us, then the ripple has gone further than just us“- reads good to me, yes, let’s ripple!
“How are things after a good sleep? Thinking of you.“- didn’t have a good sleep, but not too bad. Thank you for thinking of me, I am sending you a ripple of good thoughts right now-
Sent!
anita
May 27, 2024 at 2:48 pm #433188NotSoSadSoul
ParticipantI slept fairly sh*t too. I think, apart from the emotional side, my sporting fail used a few muscles I’m now having to live with 😂
I was thinking on how much the ripples of knowing you (notknowing but you know what I mean?) mean in my day. I eagerly check my inbox both ends of the day for a piece of wisdom and thoughtfulness. So it’s been working for a while now, those ripples 🌻
Gigantic hugs and happiness for your evening!
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