Ever since I was a child, I was raised to believe in the American Dream. I loved every bit of it – having my own place, freedom, a job, a wife, a stable day job, respect as a hardworking honest man, and maybe kids down the line.

I try not to think about this anymore, because I feel disappointed. I feel stuck in an endless college experience, and things just keep getting harder. I make $10/hr, and try to get hired to make more money, but it feels almost impossible to move out and not live in a ghetto or move really far from my support system, even then, I would have to work for several years just to afford a down payment. I don’t really have any energy to invest in dating, and if I was to date, I would want it to be an experience that I am passionate or at least feel something for. I could come up with more of a sob story, but I think you get the picture.

I have a lot of anger and resentment stored up, and I am wondering if anybody knows of any techniques or strategies for releasing it. Perhaps part of my problem is my disappointment and lack of self-esteem. I feel powerless to this. I really want to embrace this, but a part of me sinks when I feel like I have to live like this and that I am not really respected as a full adult in my twenties because I am so reliant. I feel demasculated, and don’t even have a libido anymore. I almost wish that I could become Amish (though I would have to leave my support system and start over and leave my family).

Any thoughts or suggestions?