Dear Bill:

You wrote: ” the reality that i have been feeling so so positive for about 3 weeks now, is really beginning to not be special anymore… right now i feel a great longing for it (feeling stressed and depressed). i want that struggle, at least just one bad day”

– well, you got your want and longing materialized: you are having a bad day. When you long for something different from what you are experiencing, you are no longer content.

anita

Dear Bill,
Congratulations on such a feat. I commend you for doing what it takes to reach such a milestone. I am certain that it goes without saying that you have not always been in such alignment with this higher form of yourself so it’s very inspirational that you’ve managed to attract to you what you sought.

I think your question is a perfectly legitimate one because I too was feeling a similar way earlier on today but for an entirely different reason. 3 months ago, I was in the midst of healing from inconceivable sorrow and turmoil- something occurred in my life that literally ripped the very seams from my already fragile life. I lost the most important person in my life, the one person in whom I felt joy and life and I was left to face the demons of my sad little existence alone on my own. I didn’t think I would survive and I wanted to die and there was no one who understood or even cared to understand this great pain. But during this time, I learned about myself, I learned to nurture myself, I learned to find contentment in me, being alone in the simplest, humblest of places to be. It was through that struggle, that pain that quiet time, the many shed tears, the overwhelming feelings of sorrow and grief that I felt a true and pure power and love within me.

That wonderful, remarkable, agonizing period ended when I decided to return to New York for work. I have since recently returned home and brought back a whole lotta baggage and extra grief that I certainly didn’t need. I’m no longer dealing with the grief that I once had but now, the struggle that I face is no longer localized. There’s so much muck within me that I don’t even know where to begin in order to reach that high vibration that you’ve described for us. So I too on today missed my struggle, I missed the pureness of that remarkable pain that brought me so much closer to myself.

I would say continue to nurture and build up this positive vibration that you have found. I can understand the frustration that might ensue once one feels a sense of complacency in their satisfaction. Perhaps you may even subconsciously feel anxious that you are in the calm before the storm?

I also have the idea that you take some time and share your stories with others. You could help people with your experiences. I come to this website so often and I find so much inspiration during the most difficult times. I’m sure you have a story to tell that so many others wouldn’t mind reading. Maybe you could write about what has been the impetus for this new found freedom and high vibration that you’re experiencing. And in so doing, perhaps you can reflect on where you once were to where you are now and that might engender a deeper understanding of your past struggles and a more profound appreciation for your recent awakening. I think and I hope that this could help you and so many others.

I hope my thoughts have resonated somehow.
Hummingbird

How interesting, as I too have felt content and satisfied with the way my life is at the moment. I also find myself somewhat bored, if it were not for my work which I enjoy. But I can only work so much and now I find myself with more free time than I know what to do with. I have a hobby but I am looking for a new challenge. I don’t want to take on a challenge just for the sake of it, it needs to be worthwhile to me. I’m very goal-oriented and I think my recent contentment is due to me having achieved some very important life goals that I’ve been working on for many many years.

The odd thing is when I was working towards those life goals I could picture myself at the “goal line” and how relieved I would be. Now that the line has been crossed and the initial elation has passed I find myself somewhat aimless. I have no idea what to do next in my life. My job is good and I don’t want to change that. My personal life is good. It would appear that all is well. However… what now? If I don’t find a new goal I feel like I would be wasting time. I need a new interest perhaps. But how do I find it?

• This reply was modified 8 years ago by Steven Segal.

Dear Bill,

This is just my opinion, take it with a grain of salt. You need a goal. Something to challenge you and motivate you. You don’t want to struggle with happiness, you want to struggle with accomplishment. Helping others can be a worthy goal, but perhaps you need something that challenges you personally. Can you run a mile in under a minute? Ever tried passing a securities test? Writing a book? One handed push-ups? Seeing how many times you can satisfy your lover in a row? Start your own business? Train for a marathon? I’m sure you can think of a million other things that you’d like to try or have thought about doing. Do those. Human beings have to have a goal or they feel exactly the way you feel. You need something to shoot for! Have you tried sales? There’s always a quota to hit! Bonus can be very nice when you do.

Good Luck!
Jessi