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  • in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455764
    anita
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    “Hence my nickname”- you are funny, Confused, and I say it positively, affectionately, that is.

    What were you afraid ๐Ÿ˜จ of? Only you can tell (me). It’s not for me to tell you .

    B Back in the morning ๐ŸŒ„

    in reply to: Alone Again, Naturally #455763
    anita
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    Okay, whatever comes to mind.. Naturally:

    My exchange with members will be changing: no longer the directive, corrective, analytical essays. If I submit a LONG post, it will be in one of my threads (like this one), not in another member’s thread. This is a big change for me.

    Sincerely, I am embarrassed by my years long, LONG posts to members. That ship ๐Ÿšข has sailed โ›ต๏ธ

    So, here, in my thread, it can be as long as I want it to be because I am sharing about me, my stuff (not analyzing your stuff).

    I was born in Israel, only THIRTEEN years after it was declared (UN) as a country. It was supposed to be a refuge place for the survivors of Hitler’s Destroy-the-Jews campaign/ holocaust of 1939-45.

    Fast forward, the current war with the Iranian ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ท- regime who for 47 years (since 1979) aimed at the destruction of Israel ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ฑ (their words: “Death to Israel”)- bothers the hell out of me. I mean, the only way to satisfy the Iranian regime is the destruction of the country where I was born, the murder of millions.

    Why? Iran is what.. 70 times the size of Israel, Why not let Israel live in peace?

    Oh, it’s the Muslim Shia thing- wanting EVERYONE, EVERYWHERE- to be Muslim. That and nothing less or else.

    I am worried ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ No doubt in my mind the Iranian regime is evil. Will it win ๐Ÿ†? Will it’s threats: ” Death to Israel”, a country so much smaller than theirs come true?

    I am beside myself, really. Just worried.

    ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ฑโ›ต๏ธ๐ŸŒ™โœจ๏ธ Anita

    in reply to: Alone #455761
    anita
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    How interesting, Lisa: my newest thread starts with “Alone”, same as your title. I didn’t notice until just now. Maybe the only 2 threads in tiny buddha that start or have Alone in their titles.

    Which reminds me of your 2nd thread, Choosing Love.

    Do you feel that it’s too late, or futile to Choose Love Again?

    ๐Ÿคโœจ๏ธ๐ŸŒ™ Anita

    in reply to: Alone Again, Naturally #455760
    anita
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    Dear Alessa:

    Funny, I am using my phone and wvery time I type your name, a glass of beer emoji shows up and I never stopped to figure out why. I now understand why: Ale ๐Ÿบ here it is.

    I am typing this message on a Sat afternoon 4:54 pm at this moment, Bogart slightly snoring, curled up against me on the lounge chair we’re sharing.

    When I read “We have some similar values”, I felt nice, flattered.

    One of the advantages of my laptop ๐Ÿ’ป breaking is that I no longer quote members on a regular basis because I can’t select and copy on the phone. But even if I could, I don’t want to.

    I think that quoting sometimes (like above) is okay, but not religiously, so to speak, like I used to.

    Like I expressed to Peter in his thread, I am quite.. bamboozled by the.. what’s the word, inappropriate replies I sent too often: directive, corrective, overly analytical, overly lengthy, like essays no one asked for.

    So, the ๐Ÿ’ป breaking was part of this realization.. can’t and won’t write long, long analytical essays on the phone or on the computer.

    So, it helped me be more of a conversationalist.

    So, being on the ๐Ÿ“ฑ I scroll up, read a part of your message, scroll down and respond:

    I wish you didn’t suffer from bug after bug ๐Ÿ˜ช and hope for your full recovery ๐Ÿ™

    Yes, I am interested in simple techniques to recover from a PTSD episode. Thank you for offering ๐Ÿซด

    And thank you for sharing your research on early-life autonomy.

    My sister was luckier than me in that she did attend kindergarten and preschool, so she had the opportunity to learn and develop some autonomy skills. I didn’t. My mother was a major autonomy killer in every way you listed. Every single one.

    Congrats ๐Ÿ‘ for having the cooker fixed!

    I did Google images of the tattoo you’re considering: colorful and delightful ๐Ÿ˜Š

    Yes, I feel fine about talking about autonomy, thank you for asking. Autonomy is a huge item when it comes to mental health. When I walk Bogart (sometimes he takes me on a walk ๐Ÿ• ๐Ÿšถโ€โ™€๏ธ), I see to it that he ofyrn gets to stop and smell when he wants to, choose his pace.

    But sometimes I lose patience. I can only imagine how much patience and endurance it takes to be a good mother of a baby and s toddler.

    Yes, I too appreciate “small talk”- way preferable to the analytical, long essays I used to send members ๐Ÿ˜ณ

    (55 minutes since I started this post ๐Ÿ˜Š )

    ๐Ÿค ๐Ÿค ๐Ÿค Anita

    in reply to: Alone #455758
    anita
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    Dear Lisa:

    The moment I saw your name on the list of topics; there was an excitement in my heart. So good to read from you again ๐Ÿ˜Š

    I too am concerned in regard to recent events. What I found helpful is having a new dog. Well, he’s my first dog ever. His name is Bogart. He’s so affectionate and loving that it makes a big difference in my life.

    Please tell me more about what currently concerns you, or anything at all that’s on your mind (only if it’d help to express or vent).

    ๐Ÿค Anita

    in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455757
    anita
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    Good morning, Confused:

    * I wrote the following before I noticed your new post

    In my reply yesterday, I think I focused on something that’s not relevant to you (?) I went back in the thread looking for Hailey’s post. I found it on page 3, Sept 8, 2021. That was her only post in tiny buddha.

    Hailey shared about her fear (the big-case letters are my doing for emphasis): “I was in FEAR of getting caught to my fam because I was SCARED that they might try to separate me from my bf… They THREATENED me to break up with him”

    She shared about her anger and emotional distress: “I CRIED A LOT and I was so MAD at them.”.

    Next, following ongoing fear, anger and emotional distress (an overwhelmed nervous system), there came the mental and emotional shutdown: “I woke up next day feeling such an EMPTINESS IN MY MIND MY BRAIN. I COULDN’T EVEN FEEL ANYTHING for my bf… FEELING NUMB”

    * The emotional shutdown is not permanent: “Some nights I STILL FEEL that I LOVE HIM but then that feeling again gets VANISHED and Iโ€™m depressed. It feels like Iโ€™m on an emotional rollercoaster.”

    Confused, you wrote yesterday: “I found similarities on the fear and the ‘feelings vanishing after appearing for a little bit’ thing.”-

    Emotional shutdown is often not permanent: itโ€™s more like a switch that flips back and forth depending on emotional safety. The person still cares, but the fear is louder than the love. When they feel calmer or safer, the love resurfaces. When they feel threatened again, the fear takes over and the love goes quiet.
    This creates the โ€œonโ€‘offโ€ feeling.

    When someone is overloaded, the brain protects itself by numbing emotions. When the overwhelm fades, the numbness lifts โ€” and the feelings return.

    Emotional shutdown is not a choice โ€” itโ€™s a protective reflex. Itโ€™s the brain saying: ‘This is too much. I need to turn off for a while.’ Thatโ€™s why the feelings return when the person feels calmer or more regulated.

    ๐Ÿค” Anita

    anita
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    Thinking about you, Dafne. I’m sorry for any response here that may have discouraged you, misunderstood you, maybe even judged you unfairly.

    You have always, always been kind to me and to others, here in thus thread.

    You’ve deserved nothing but positive โœจ๏ธ emotional support.

    ๐Ÿค Anita

    in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455753
    anita
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    Hey Confused:

    Hailey said she’s South-Asian and her traditionak, South Asian family’s disapproval of her relationship was a big part of her losing her feelings.

    Are you South Asian too, and is a family’s disapproval of your (now past/ inactive) relationship been part of the problem?

    ๐Ÿค” Anita

    in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455750
    anita
    Participant

    That’s okay, Confused. I like communicating with you anyway. I hope you find more solutions than problems as time goes by!

    Wait, wait, wait.. I didn’t know you feel somewhat better in the last 1o days, I am so glad to read this. Not like your old self ๐Ÿ™, but better is .. well, better ๐Ÿ˜Š

    (I will soon be away from the computer for a few hours).

    ๐Ÿ‘€ (my favorite emoji at the moment) Anita

    in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455741
    anita
    Participant

    Hey Confused:

    I meant that a lot of the times (if not every time) when I suggested possible explanations to the what-s, why-s and how-s, you rejected them. Like nothing clicked from what I said.

    You say that you find it strange that no one (neither the psychiatrists you saw nor the therapist nor anyone else) suggested that you might be suffering from depression (since Nov)

    I find it strange too.

    Do you think you suffer from depression?

    ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ˜” Anita

    in reply to: self harm #455739
    anita
    Participant

    You are very welcome, Caroline. Thank you for the note. I hope things get better for you. Anytime you’d like to share or vent, please do!

    ๐ŸŒฟ๐Ÿค Anita

    in reply to: Zen Story #455736
    anita
    Participant

    How are you, Thomas, 9 days since you posted last?

    ๐Ÿค Anita

    anita
    Participant

    Dear Robi:

    Today is the day after the scheduled 4 days spent with her. I am very curious as to what transpired and hope it was clarity, at the least..?

    ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ™โœจ๏ธ Anita

    in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455725
    anita
    Participant

    * not “less than 3 hours ago”, but exactly 2 houre before I submitted my last message, to the minute, which the magical part of my ๐Ÿง  says is a sign that what I wrote was accurate.

    But thing is, often when I write X oy Y to you (and feeling confident about it), you say it’s not so (“But… I didn’t mean it that way, etc.)

    ๐Ÿค” Anita

    in reply to: I just randomly and suddenly fell out of love #455721
    anita
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    Hey ๐Ÿ‘‹ Confused:

    I suppose you lost the happy kind of loving feelings, and are left with the sad kind of loving feelings (“it makes me sob and hurt” you wrote less than 3 hours ago).

    Sounds like depression to me. Did any of the professionals you talked to mentioned depression as the main issue?

    ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜• Anita

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