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August 11, 2025 at 9:25 am in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448453
anita
ParticipantYou’re welcome, Adalie. I’m really glad you don’t regret it. It sounds like it held meaning for you—something real, even if it came with pain. You deserved to be encouraged, and I’m holding space for all that this stirred in you.
🤍 Anita
August 11, 2025 at 9:02 am in reply to: True Love still exist when you have faith and patience. #448448anita
ParticipantDear Gregory:
Thank you for clarifying your goals. I appreciate the scope of your work and your commitment to aviation development.
That said, the kind of support you’re seeking—drafting KPI frameworks, identifying international partners, and coordinating via WhatsApp—is outside the scope of what I can offer. I’m not connected to aviation institutions, nor do I use WhatsApp for communication.
I wish you the best in your efforts and hope you find the right collaborators for your vision.
Warmly, Anita
August 10, 2025 at 9:12 pm in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448429anita
ParticipantAdalie, I hear how deeply this hurt has landed. And I want to gently name something: trusting someone isn’t a flaw. It’s not a weakness or a mistake. It’s a reflection of your capacity to care, to hope, to connect. That capacity is still yours — even if someone mishandled it.
You didn’t cause the harm by being open. The harm came from how he responded to your openness. That distinction matters.
You don’t have to rewrite your story to make it your fault. You’re allowed to grieve what was real for you, even if it wasn’t real for him. And you’re allowed to receive kindness without owing anything in return.
🤍 🤍 🤍 Anita
August 10, 2025 at 7:08 pm in reply to: Feeling Like I’m Reliving My College Loneliness at Work #448426anita
ParticipantYou are welcome, Miss L Dutchess. I hope things change for you.. deeper, genuine connections with others!
🤍 Anita
August 10, 2025 at 7:01 pm in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448425anita
ParticipantYes, Adalie- seems like this isn’t it, and I fully understand that you would want something else 🩵
August 10, 2025 at 11:28 am in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448421anita
ParticipantAdalie, I hear the tenderness in what you shared — the ache of not knowing, the significance of Jake’s encouragement, and the meaning you’ve found in the details surrounding the firearm. It’s clear that moment carried weight for you, and I can feel how deeply you’ve held onto it.
I wonder if, when you feel ready, it might be possible to gently shift your focus — away from Jake, and toward practical steps that support your healing and clarity within your marriage to Vince.
🤍 Anita
August 10, 2025 at 9:35 am in reply to: Feeling Like I’m Reliving My College Loneliness at Work #448419anita
ParticipantHi MissLDutchess,
What you went through in college with your roommate, your RA, and your fiancé was deeply unfair. You were trying to build a life, and instead you were stuck in situations that made you feel unsafe and alone. That kind of experience doesn’t just fade — it leaves a mark.
It makes sense that your current work situation brings some of those feelings back. I’m really glad your supervisor stepped in this time — that’s a small but important shift. You deserved that kind of support back then, too.
You’ve worked hard to build a life that reflects who you are. You’ve tried apps, events, classes, volunteering — all while commuting and working in a space where you’re the youngest by far. That’s a lot of effort, and it shows how much you care about connection.
It’s okay to feel tired. It’s okay to feel bitter about the past. And it’s okay to want something deeper than surface-level friendships. Wanting real connection doesn’t make you picky — it makes you honest.
You haven’t failed. You’ve been navigating a world that doesn’t always make space for quiet, thoughtful people — especially those with NVLD, who often feel misunderstood. But your voice is clear, your heart is open, and you’re still reaching. That matters.
I believe the right people will come — not because you force it, but because you keep showing up as yourself. And that self is worth knowing.
Warmly, Anita
August 10, 2025 at 9:16 am in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448418anita
ParticipantAdalie, I became aware of your most recent post after I completed the reply above.
It makes sense that you’re trying to understand Vince’s behavior through the lens of mental health. Whether it’s bipolar disorder, DID, or something else entirely, what you’re describing — the emotional highs and lows, the cycles of cruelty and apology — is less about diagnosis and more about impact. And the impact on you has been destabilizing, exhausting, and deeply confusing.
It’s not your job to diagnose or fix him. What matters most is how you feel in the relationship, and whether your emotional safety and stability are being honored.
As for Jake — it’s okay that he’s both a “lesson” and a “what if.” Sometimes people enter our lives not to stay, but to show us what’s possible. Jake reminded you what tenderness feels like. What encouragement feels like. What it’s like to be seen and supported without being controlled. That’s not trivial — that’s a glimpse of the kind of emotional landscape you deserve.
You said you really like Jake. That feeling matters. Even if he’s not ready, even if it doesn’t turn into something lasting, the way you felt around him is telling. It’s emotional truth.
You’re allowed to want something different. You’re allowed to question what you’ve been living. And you’re allowed to hold space for both grief and longing — without rushing to resolve either.
🤍 Anita
August 10, 2025 at 8:57 am in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448417anita
ParticipantGood Sunday Morning, Adalie—
What you shared yesterday is a clear, emotionally articulate account of a relationship that has become emotionally imbalanced, psychologically taxing, and increasingly unsustainable. You’re not in a mutual partnership — you’re functioning as Vince’s emotional regulator. Instead of developing his own coping tools, he relies on your presence, reassurance, and emotional labor to regulate himself.
Emotional labor is a term I came across only yesterday. It describes the often invisible work of managing emotions — yours and others’ — to keep relationships functioning, often at the cost of your own well-being.
It includes:
* Soothing another’s feelings (e.g., calming someone down when they’re upset)
* Suppressing your own emotions
* Silencing your own needs
* Managing your tone of voice, facial expressions, and reactions for the sake of someone else’s comfort
* Absorbing blame or guilt
* Offering constant reassurance or validation without reciprocity
* Walking on eggshells to avoid triggering someone’s moods
Emotional labor is unpaid, unacknowledged, and leads to burnout, resentment, and emotional depletion. Over time, it erodes your sense of self — because you’re constantly prioritizing someone else’s emotional comfort over your own truth.
Emotional containment is another new term for me. It refers to when one person’s emotional needs, reactions, or anxieties are so dominant that the other person feels forced to suppress, shrink, or silence their own emotions in order to keep the relationship stable.
It’s not mutual regulation — it’s one person absorbing the emotional chaos of another, often without consent or reciprocity. It can look like:
* Avoiding sadness, anger, or joy because it might destabilize the other person
* Constantly scanning for emotional landmines
* Feeling reduced to “neutral” or “supportive”
* No longer asking for what you need because their needs always come first
* You become the emotional buffer — the one who absorbs, soothes, and stabilizes.
In your case, Vince’s panic, anxiety, and controlling behavior dominate the emotional space. Your independence, needs, and natural expressions of love are contained — pushed aside, minimized, or punished. You’re not just managing his emotions — you’re sacrificing your own to keep things functional. This leads to emotional exhaustion, loss of self-expression, and a sense of being trapped or erased.
You also described conditional kindness: Vince is “unusually nice” only when he wants something, and otherwise dismissive or mean. This is a manipulative pattern that creates emotional whiplash and erodes trust.
Mocking your age, questioning your dependability — these are demeaning tactics that chip away at your self-worth.
The apology cycle — conflict → apology → repeat — is a classic abuse pattern, even if it’s not physical. The apology doesn’t lead to change; it simply resets the tension.
Twisting situations to make you feel at fault for setting boundaries is a form of emotional reversal. He disrespects your boundaries, but instead of holding himself accountable, he blames you.
Unfortunately, you’re tied to him through shared housing and expenses, which makes leaving feel unsafe. His desire to move into a smaller place could further isolate you — physically and emotionally.
You’re not staying because you want to — you’re staying because you feel you can’t leave.
You recognized that you’re snapping back, saying mean things, and becoming someone you don’t want to be. That’s not a moral failure — it’s a sign of emotional depletion.
Your final line — “I hate it” — is a cry from someone who’s still in the fog, but beginning to see the edges of it. And that matters. You are naming what’s happening, and you’re beginning to imagine something different — a relationship where love flows freely, where you feel safe, where your emotional truth isn’t contained or erased.
Five days ago, you shared something quietly profound about your experience with Jake — not just the physical intimacy, but the emotional texture of it:
“Yeah it awakened what think I’m missing because it’s not always present at home. Tenderness… he was kind quiet gentle, didn’t make fun of me or force anything. So yeah for sure tenderness and care. Also motivation to go for concealed carry. I was interested in it and have only thought about it. He said “go for it”. And I did. I got my permit still working on step 2. He even suggested a firearm based off me saying my hands are small.”-
That tenderness — the absence of mockery, pressure, or emotional volatility — is what your nervous system has been craving. It’s not just about Jake. It’s about what you’ve been deprived of in your marriage: emotional safety, gentleness, and respect.
The concealed carry permit isn’t just a practical step — it’s symbolic. It’s you reclaiming your right to protect yourself, to enforce boundaries, to make decisions in your own favor. It’s you placing your needs at the center of your life, rather than orbiting around Vince’s moods and demands. It’s a gesture of self-trust — sparked not by control, but by care. Even if brief, Jake’s presence reminded you what it feels like to be encouraged, not diminished.
With care, Anita
anita
Participant“We weren’t for each other. And that hurts too much.”- be there for yourself, Eva. Be there on your side. Truly. Unapologetically.
Anita
August 9, 2025 at 10:02 pm in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448413anita
ParticipantAdalie, I will reply further in the morning, but for now, as I understand it, Jake is the guy we’ve been talking about, Vince is the husband.
“mocking your age”- that stood out to me as cruel. I am sorry, Adalie.. That’s nothing but cruel. How dare he???
“He sometimes twists situations to make you feel guilty or at fault, even for normal boundaries.”- cruel again.
Having read the rest, Adalie- it makes me sad. Your place is NOT with Vince. Home is not with Vince.. unless a miracle happens and he changes..
If you believe in miracles. I don’t, not really. Do you..?
Anita
August 9, 2025 at 5:21 pm in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448412anita
ParticipantI will read and replie, Adali, sun morning.
Anita
anita
ParticipantThank you, brandy .. for intending well. Thing is it’s not a good idea for me to discuss the matter further, at least not here, on this public forum.
Anita
August 9, 2025 at 1:53 pm in reply to: “He initiated closeness, then disappeared — still hurting months later” #448408anita
ParticipantYou are very welcome, Adalie.
It makes so much sense that your mind keeps returning to that moment with Jake—especially when it offered something you’re not receiving in your own relationship. That kind of contrast can stir up a lot of feelings: grief, yearning, even questions about what you deserve.
If you ever feel ready to talk more about how things are with your husband, I’m here to listen. No pressure at all—just an open space if you need it.
🤍 Anita
August 9, 2025 at 1:30 pm in reply to: True Love still exist when you have faith and patience. #448406anita
ParticipantDear Gregory:
The kind of help you’re asking for is different from what most members here typically seek. It involves research into areas I’m not familiar with, and I want to make sure I understand your needs clearly.
Could you please share, as specifically and clearly as possible, what you’d like me to help you with at this point?
Warmly, Anita
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