Hello Thomas:

Thank you for your kind words and for your criticism. I appreciate it that you felt comfortable bringing up something that has been bothering you and for doing it in a respectful, kind way 🙏

I would like to understand what you’re saying better: you’re saying that when I bring old threads back to the first page ( of list of topics), your current threads/ posts get drowned in the old, so they are less visible to potential new responders?

✨️ Anita

Bringing this thread up for later (it’s my own thread, maybe my first (in my previous, deleted account)

Adrian Gallardo:”The environments I grew up in were loud, obnoxious, negative, angry, sometimes filled with animosity… I still feel I had a good childhood” (Nov 27, 2016)

Will post again regarding the “it”

There is little chance that you are reading this, anonymous3, yet today, I am repeating my Dec 11, 2023 apology and I will elaborate on it omorrow or in the next few days.

Anita

Good morning, Confused (using computer):

As I read the following input from Copilot about trauma in general, I thought how much this fits you specifically and I thought it may help you to read this:

“How trauma‑based threat perception appears in daily life
Hypervigilance — constantly scanning for danger, feeling “on edge,” or anticipating something bad happening. This reflects the body remaining on high alert even after the threat has passed .

Misreading neutral cues as danger — interpreting someone’s tone, silence, or facial expression as anger, rejection, or impending conflict. This is an involuntary reaction to perceived threat rather than actual threat .

Fight‑flight‑freeze‑fawn responses — snapping, withdrawing, shutting down, or people‑pleasing in situations that don’t objectively warrant it. These are automatic survival responses designed to protect you from harm .

Over‑explaining or over‑apologizing — behaviors that may look like personality traits but are actually trauma responses shaped by past experiences of needing to prevent conflict or danger .

Difficulty trusting or connecting — trauma can affect relationships by making closeness feel risky or overwhelming, even when the other person is safe and supportive .

Intrusive memories triggered by perceived threat — research shows that perceived threat can trigger intrusive memories similar to PTSD symptoms, even when the actual situation is not dangerous .

Everyday habits that mask trauma responses — hyper‑independence, people‑pleasing, or emotional numbing can appear as personality traits but often reflect the nervous system’s attempt to stay safe in the world .

Why this matters
These patterns are not signs of weakness or overreaction. They are the nervous system’s learned survival strategies. Trauma teaches the brain to prioritize safety over accuracy, so it reacts quickly to anything that resembles past danger. Understanding these patterns helps you recognize that the reactions are not “you being dramatic”—they are your body trying to protect you.”

I hope that you take your time reading and maybe re-reading the above and let me know what parts fit your experience with your girlfriend?

Anita

Hey Dear 🌙🦉 Confused:

It’s normal to have the urge to back off when sensing rejection, especially when you sense rejection from a person you felt so close to.

You and I have this in common: growing up in an environment where closeness was unsafe: couldn’t trust it to extend from one moment to the next, when at any moment, or day, or week it could be reversed, and reversed terribly.

So, as an adult, you expect the same of what you grew up with. Not consciously, but the body remembers even when your mind forgets.

😔 🐔 Anita

Hey Dear Confused:

“Nothing touches me anymore” because too much touched you, too much still touching you ( the fear she’ll leave you, the fear of losing that beautiful connection)?

😢🐔🤔 (no new emojis 😔) Anita

Dear Harry:

Above, on Nov 29, 2016, you wrote to me:

“Thank you, Anita. I did not post in the appreciation section, but what you do here really makes a difference. It’s like a type of therapy and connection.”

My response on the same day: “You are welcome, gracious Harry.”, and then dived into analysis and guidance.

On Dec 27, 2016, on your other thread (“Why do anything”), you wrote to me:

“Hi. Anita. Honestly, you are a wonderful person. I am happy I came here. It’s great connecting with you here. Who knows, maybe I might have the honor of bumping into you one day”

In my response there, on that same day, there was no acknowledgment at all of the warmth you expressed. My response dived straight into guidance:

“Dear Harry: How to spend your time wisely? One or more of the following: 1. Attend one-to-one competent psychotherapy. 2. Attend competent group psychotherapy… 7. Attend a public speaking or acting class. anita”

These past exchanges teach me today how uncomfortable and unsafe I have been with emotional closeness and how safer I felt with emotional distance, shifting quickly to analyzing, guiding, taking on the teacher- helper role. That’s a childhood survival adaptation that continued into most of my adulthood.

I want to explore this later.

Anita