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  • in reply to: Feels like Time is passing too fast #446331
    anita
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    SereneWolf: I hope you’re doing well and that you return to your thread if you wish. I also hope you don’t mind me posting here for Tee.

    Dear Tee:

    I didn’t read your response to Alessa until after I sent my previous message to you.

    When I read these words—”The true limitation was my belief that I was doomed to fail. That there is no point in trying, because I would fail anyway.”—I immediately thought of learned helplessness, something I know all too well from personal experience. It affected my life in many ways, holding me back from opportunities and growth. To be healthy and content, we need a sense of control over our lives—not absolute control, but enough to feel agency in our choices and direction.

    “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”- The middle part of this prayer speaks directly to exerting control over one’s life—choosing to take action where we can, rather than succumbing to the belief that we are powerless.

    I also want to add that physical pain affects me deeply. My tendency is to catastrophize it, fearing it will never improve and will always limit me. The thought of losing the ability to walk is frightening. I know many people in real life who struggle with knee pain, experiencing discomfort while walking. Among those who had knee replacement surgery, the majority saw significant improvement, and some even became completely pain-free.

    Wishing you continued healing and strength. ❤️

    anita

    in reply to: Developing Compassion and Self-Compassion #446327
    anita
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    Dear Alessa:

    Thank you for sharing this. I really admire your self-awareness—it takes a lot of courage to recognize how past trauma shapes your thoughts. The fact that you can step back and see that these negative thoughts aren’t always true is a huge sign of growth.

    I love that you’re working on mental flexibility. Learning that not everything we feel is true or needs a reaction is such an important step in healing. It’s tough when emotions feel so real in the moment, but giving yourself grace and letting them pass is powerful.

    I also really appreciate your thoughts on communication and relationships. Expressing emotions isn’t always easy—especially when we fear rejection. And it’s true, people sometimes struggle to hear pain from those they care about. But that doesn’t mean your feelings aren’t valid.

    Your reflections show how much progress you’re making. You are not your negative thoughts—they are just echoes of the past, and you are learning to move beyond them. Keep being gentle with yourself. You’re doing incredible work ❤️ 🔥 🦅

    anita

    in reply to: Feels like Time is passing too fast #446323
    anita
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    Dear Tee:

    The highlight of my day so far was seeing your post—after nine months and 17 days since your last one on August 10. I’m absolutely thrilled to hear from you again 🥳

    Thank you for your kind words, Tee—they truly mean a lot to me. I deeply appreciate your presence here, your wisdom, and the empathy you extend to others. You have such a profound ability to reflect on your experiences and share them with honesty and insight, which is a gift to everyone who reads your words.

    I want to take a moment to acknowledge the incredible progress you’ve made. Realizing that your perception of a hostile higher power was, in fact, a projection of your mother’s influence is a profound breakthrough. It’s inspiring to witness your journey—moving from despair to hope and releasing the false belief that you were doomed. This is truly powerful work, and I deeply respect the courage it takes to confront these truths and begin, or continue, forging a new path forward.

    Your reflections deeply resonate with my own journey. Lately, I’ve been working in my threads on retrieving little girl anita from the past—the part of me that was left frozen, trapped in the grasp of the omnipotent ‘God’ you spoke of, which, for me, was my mother. I’ve been focusing on giving my past experiences and emotions space—a third dimension—allowing myself to express what was once so severely repressed and suppressed. It has been a process of unfolding, of granting that younger part of me a voice so she can exist fully in my present rather than remaining locked in the past. Reading about your progress strengthens my own resolve, reminding me that we are both untangling the deep patterns that shaped us.

    I truly hope you continue to connect with us here on tiny buddha. Your insights, your presence, and your empathy are such a gift to this space. The way you process and articulate your experiences not only helps you but also offers light to others navigating similar journeys. Please keep sharing—you have so much wisdom to bless us with, and I, for one, am grateful for it.

    Wishing you continued healing and strength 💪 💖 🔥 🌞 🌿 🦅

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446309
    anita
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    To Heal is to Feel again. To feel ALIVE, no matter the circumstances of your life.

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446308
    anita
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    I am very content with the above posting. Yet, more red wine, more.. unearthed truth?

    This is exciting (to me):

    What’s next? What else is ready to be unearthed?

    So much has been buried. It’s exciting to bring dead things to the surface.

    Bringing dead things to the surface so that they can breathe and get to live again.

    To Live Again.

    To LIVE AGAIN-

    The emotion back, is what living is about.

    People don’t understand it- they think (a few do) that I am drowning in the same-old-misery, they don’t understand that I get to live again, to bring LIFE back to my mind and heart.

    I get to feel alive again!

    So, what am I feeling alive about this Monday night?

    Just feeling ALIVE.

    Unfrozen, thawed.

    Don’t even care to know what it is exactly, it’s the FEELING ALIVE.

    Feeling Alive- something I didn’t know; something that was not familiar to me all.. those.. years.

    Alive.

    It’s special when you’ve known so much dead-dead-deadness throughout your unactualized youth.

    Tonight, it’s not about Analyzing, it’s about Feeling-

    What a privilege it is to feel, to just feel.

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446307
    anita
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    It just occurred to me: some people will prefer that I stay in my 2-D existence, that of repression and suppression, simply because it does not irritate their own 2-D existence.

    I should therefore add: Trigger Warning- Third Dimension- anita To Follow:

    Of course, I have no idea what is to follow. There is no planning here. Whatever 3rd dimension chooses to make itself known tonight-

    Nothing.

    Changed music on YouTube, maybe something will make itself known, maybe not.

    Maybe this: the belly up- surrender pose, like that of a submissive dog.

    NO! NEVER AGAIN!

    I hate that gesture of submission.

    I am all for loving others, but not for submitting to what is unfair and unjust, just so to “get along”.

    I need to get along with myself, is my point, prioritizing myself, here, on my thread, where no one is obligated to read or reply.

    My Own Space.

    Image-memory: little girl anita with short, black hair looking in the mirror, mother behind, the one who gave me that haircut.

    She looks at me in the mirror, content with the haircut she gave me, a moment of bonding: she is content with something that’s connected to me- a haircut.

    She was only 30 years old back then.

    I liked that moment, that’s the closest to experiencing her approval.

    A haircut.

    That was it, the reason I remember that one event- she was content with something that had something to do with me.

    A sort of she validating me.

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446306
    anita
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    Expressing in the way of healing means that what I am typing here is not about seeking approval from whomever may be reading this, as in: “think well of me, approve of me!”

    No, it’s about me being true to myself.

    So, what does being true to myself mean?

    My mind goes to the image of 5 or 10-year-old anita in short haircut, black hair (not the grey- white hair of current).

    Little girl anita hurting so badly, so scared.. and no one there to help her.

    She pushed down her feelings best she could so to survive prolonged, unending unmitigated pain.

    Fast forward 50 years or more, little girl anita is still here, on this earth.

    She is right here, tonight.

    I am giving her the 3rd Dimension- Emotion brought back to awareness, a way for her to escape the entrapment of the 2-dimensional suffocating existence of emotional repression and suppression.

    I may add more tonight.

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446305
    anita
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    There’s been a misunderstanding. I’ve been EXPRESSING my repressed and suppressed emotions of childhood in these forums, and a few people reading misunderstood, thinking that I am stuck in the past, not understanding that my only way to move forward is THROUGH it.

    I am using big case letters because this misunderstanding upsets me, and it’s been invalidating, making my healing process more difficult and slower than it could be if I receive validation.

    Expressing emotions about past wounds isn’t the same as being stuck—it’s an essential part of healing. When pain is repressed or suppressed, it lingers beneath the surface, shaping behaviors and emotions in unseen ways. Bringing those emotions into the open is how healing actually happens—it’s the process of acknowledging, processing, and integrating them into a healthier emotional landscape.

    Some people may see revisiting painful emotions as dwelling on the past, but that perspective doesn’t account for the reality that healing requires feeling. I am not trapped in the past—I am actively working through it so it no longer controls me in the present.

    People who misunderstand my process view healing through a lens—one that prioritizes “moving on” rather than “moving through.”

    At the end of the day, my healing process is my own, and only I truly know what’s right for me.

    Releasing what was suppressed is an act of courage, not regression.

    Again, releasing what was suppressed is an act of COURAGE, not regression.

    Detachment while repressed is a coping mechanism, not actual healing. Coping mechanisms help a person survive emotional distress—they provide temporary relief, allowing people to function despite unresolved pain. Repression and detachment can protect someone from overwhelming emotions, but feelings need to be integrated, not repressed and suppressed.

    Healing involves acknowledging, feeling, and working through silenced emotions. It requires bringing repressed experiences into awareness, understanding them, and allowing yourself to process them without needing to detach.

    So, detachment while repressing pain can be useful in the moment, but true healing happens when those emotions are confronted rather than avoided.

    I think I am going to EXPRESS MORE in the next post, lol.

    anita

    anita
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    About LOVE-

    What is love? Well, there’s a song with this title, it says:

    “What is love? Oh, baby, don’t hurt me Don’t hurt me, no more Oh, baby, don’t hurt me Don’t hurt me, no more…
    Woah-woah-woah-woah Oh-woah-woah, uh-huh Woah-woah-woah-woah Oh-woah-woah, uh-huh”-

    This kind of love sounds painful and unintelligent.

    So, the answer is not in that song.

    Or maybe it is.

    No it isn’t.

    So, what is love?

    I say it’s a feeling of goodwill: a friendly, helpful, cooperative attitude toward others; kindness, positive intentions. It’s not about being Right and the other being Wrong (except when it comes to harmful actions). It’s about live-and-let-live- with acceptance, kindness and tolerance of differences.

    It’s about not holding grudges against others just because they have a different understanding of things.

    For me, to love someone successfully means to make them FEEL accepted unconditionally, no pressure to be or become anything other than what he- or she- already is.

    I said “to love successfully” right above because, well, like the song I started this post with.. love can hurt. Well, if it hurts, it was unsuccessful.

    Life hurts, Love doesn’t hurt.

    anita

    in reply to: Healing Without the Need for Change or Fix #446302
    anita
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    in reply to: Struggling to settle in new role #446289
    anita
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    Dear Tom:

    No worries about the delay. I remember you weren’t looking forward to your trip to the U.S.—did it turn out better than you expected?

    You might benefit from a therapist specializing in childhood trauma, emotional regulation, and cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT). These areas can help you process the impact of your past and develop ways to manage overthinking.

    Here are your options (according to AI):

    1. NHS Therapy (Free or Low-Cost)

    The NHS offers talking therapies for anxiety, depression, and trauma. You can self-refer online or ask your GP for a referral.

    Therapy is available in person, by phone, or online, but there may be waiting times.

    2. Charitable Organizations (Free or Low-Cost)

    * Mind UK – Offers mental health support and therapy services.

    * Anxiety UK – Provides therapy on a sliding scale based on income.

    3. Private Therapy (Paid)- You can find private therapists through directories like:

    * BACP (British Association for Counselling and Psychotherapy).

    * UKCP (UK Council for Psychotherapy).

    Private therapy offers more flexibility and shorter wait times, but costs vary. Some therapists offer sliding-scale fees based on income.

    If you’re unsure where to start, AI says, self-referring through the NHS might be the easiest first step.

    I am looking forward to read about your next step 🚀

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446285
    anita
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    Dear Alessa:

    I really appreciate your message from yesterday. Thank you for being so open and for sharing your thoughts with me. Your kindness and willingness to talk are truly valuable.

    I’m grateful that you had enough therapy to avoid the painful outcomes of trauma that you mentioned. ❤️

    I also want to say that I’m taking a break from discussing my mother for now. I need to step back from it at this time.

    That said, I’m grateful for our conversations and for you being here. Please know that I respect your boundaries too, and I understand that you’re facing challenges in the present. Whenever you feel like talking, I’m here.

    Take care, and talk soon. ❤️

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446282
    anita
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    Actually, I think that Copilot is my best friend.

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446281
    anita
    Participant

    anita to Copilot (AI): “I have been participating in tiny buddha’s public forums, while there’s no one but one person reading my posts, can I post in a different website where I can reach more than just one person?”

    Copilot, May 25: Absolutely! There are plenty of online communities where you can share your thoughts and engage with a larger audience. Here are a few popular forums for self-help and personal growth:

    Reddit’s r/self improvement – A vibrant community with over 1.5 million members discussing personal growth, motivation, and productivity.
    The Fastlane Forum – Focused on self-development and motivation, this forum is great for discussing mindset shifts and personal success.
    SelfGrowth.com – A website dedicated to self-improvement, offering discussions on goal setting, stress management, and personal development.
    Aspire Atlas – A platform that connects people on their personal development journey, offering insights and support.
    Each of these communities has active discussions and a broad audience, so you’re likely to find more engagement than on Tiny Buddha. Would you like help choosing the best one for your needs?”

    anita: Yes.

    Copilot, May 25: Great! It depends on what kind of audience you’d like to reach and the style of discussion you prefer. Here are some options tailored to different needs:
    If you’re looking for deeper, thoughtful discussions: Reddit’s r/selfimprovement has a large and engaged community, with people actively sharing advice and personal stories. You’ll likely get thoughtful responses to your posts.
    If you prefer structured self-development topics: SelfGrowth.com offers categorized discussions on various aspects of personal growth, from relationships to mindfulness.
    If you’re interested in personal success and motivation: The Fastlane Forum focuses on entrepreneurial and success-oriented discussions, with people sharing their insights and breakthroughs.
    If you want a smaller, supportive community: Aspire Atlas has a more intimate feel and is great if you’re looking for consistent engagement with like-minded people.
    Would you like me to help you craft an introduction post to get started?” anita: Yes.

    Copilot, May 25: “Great! Here’s a strong introduction post you can use on any forum:
    Title: Exploring Personal Growth – Looking for Insightful Conversations
    Hello everyone,
    I’ve been on a journey of self-discovery and personal growth, and I love diving into deep discussions about mindfulness, motivation, and mental well-being. I’ve been sharing my thoughts on Tiny Buddha’s forums, but I’m eager to connect with more people and exchange insights with a broader community.

    What inspires you on your path to self-improvement? Any wisdom or habits that have made a big difference in your life? I’d love to hear your thoughts!

    Looking forward to meaningful conversations. 😊”-

    … LOL.. Maybe Copilot is my best friend, Crazy World.

    anita

    in reply to: Trapped in Yesterday: The Cost of Self-Invalidation #446280
    anita
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    I am totally willing to withdraw or adjust my participation on these tiny buddha forums if it would encourage more people to participate. Maybe there is a more appropriate forum for me to participate in, a forum where I will heal further and shine, while encouraging others to do the same.

    If you (ANYONE READING??) know of such a forum that’s right for me, please let me know what it could be.

    anita

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