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January 22, 2015 at 10:56 pm #71808
It’s a courageous post. Especially because you are owning up to this obsessive behavior with her. It is also very common, more common than you might think. I’ve done it and the women I work with confess to this.
I think that some level of curiosity is normal. What you are describing sounds like a great opportunity to look into self-esteem, self-worth and how you view yourself in general.
Him dating someone else might actually have been the reason he was able to get back together with you.Whatever he needed to learn in his relationship with you, and he couldn’t, he probably learned with the next girl. This is also very common too, almost needed. Don’t use her strengths to your disadvantage. She might be the total opposite of you and that means nothing. It will be a painful journey if you use your differences to hurt yourself. And if you keep looking hard enough, you WILL find reasons why she is better than you and your self-created jealousy will erode the relationship. If he was done “learning” with her and walked away, then embrace this opportunity to enjoy him and grow with him.
Wish you the best on your journey!
BanuDecember 26, 2014 at 10:40 pm #69860
I am so glad it helped you out! You can heal and create happy, trusting relationships. Please don’t give up!
BanuDecember 26, 2014 at 12:37 pm #69852
We all have patterns in relationships and sabotaging connections with potential partners is very common. It has to do with our early attachment (anxious or secure) and the attachment we had with our caregivers ends up getting repeated in romantic pursuits. No exceptions. and you are not alone. Expectation gets a bad rap. To me, expectations are needs that are communicated poorly it misunderstood. We don’t voice them because our inner child assumes that she/he would be too much (just like she did when she was a kid) or that she doesn’t deserve to have it. I recently published a post here on TB on finding your ideal partner (http://tinybuddha.com/blog/key-finding-ideal-partner-life/) and I think it might benefit you in attracting the right partner. Don’t give up and make it a sob story but a collection of experiences that helped you understand your patterns. You can work through this!
BanuDecember 26, 2014 at 12:27 pm #69848
That is confusing isn’ it? As a woman, I would say that you have to trust your gut feeling. I am guessing that this “getting built up and dropped is a pattern in you and is replaying with this guy. I see it as a juicy opportunity to dive deeper into it, not make it about him but understanding and healing this pattern in you. That can only happen by finding its source,feeling it, forgiving it and practicing a replacement behavior. I wrote a recent article that got published here on Tiny Buddha on finding your ideal partner: <a href=”http://tinybuddha.com/blog/key-finding-ideal-partner-life/. Identify what you need, based on self-love. He is your teacher now. Use this to get ready to open up to the love you deserve. In short, speaking up will break the cycle. Don’t be afraid of losing him. Someone who cannot understand the importance of consistency may not be the ideal partner for you. Communicate what you need. That IS self-love.
PS: Check out my other TinyBuddha post on Self-love.
You can do this!
BanuOctober 16, 2014 at 6:57 pm #66370
Good for you for reaching out and seeking a solution for what you think could be a hindrance to your happiness in the long run. Hanging onto an ex is very common and the best medicine is time. I happen to be working on an article on this topic so here are my highlights that might help. There are a few main reasons why we hang onto our Ex.
1)We tend to glorify the good and forget the “bad” (bad: what was incompatible)
2) We are afraid of our grief and hanging onto them helps us delay our process (most people fear their feelings!)
3) We feel guilt for the mistakes we made and a part of us fantasizes about getting back together and doing everything right this time.
4) Heart takes time to let go. In my experience, if you really want to let go and move on, it takes about 1-2 years. It doesn’t mean that it will be excruciating the whole time. It all depends on your perspective.
5) We forget that relationships are spiritual assignments. They have their expiration and that is OK. Not all of them are supposed to last a lifetime. It does not mean that the relationship was bad or meaningless. It means that you got what you needed out of it. Now process, extract wisdom, make necessary changes (do your inner work). When you’re ready, the next relationship (next assignment) will show up.
Here is what worked for me:
Make a list of what worked and didn’t work. Be realistic.
Keep a journal and process what comes up.
Delete him from your Facebook (constant FB checking does not help at all!)
Get out and start doing new stuff (volunteer, take a new class, start a book club, etc..)
Give yourself permission to feel your feelings. Don’t resist what comes up but don’t indulge.
Hope this helps. Additionally, I wrote an article posted here on TB about my experience after my break-up that might speak to you:
BanuOctober 16, 2014 at 6:35 pm #66369
First off, congratulations on getting real and honest with your “love script”. Pain is a great catalyst for that, isn’t it? My love pattern was similar to yours and I learned great lessons from those relationships.
I have written 2 articles that might help:
Hope these help. You can change your patterns!
BanuSeptember 4, 2014 at 11:24 am #64388
Wow, Kristin, that’s a biggie. I can only imagine the sense of betrayal you might be feeling. As if you don’t know when anymore or what to trust. Our our sense of reality gets shaken up when something like this shows up. I sense that this person is so far into this pattern that they don’t know how to stop. One way I might be able to help you find an opening is this: Think about a behavior that you have, you don’t like it (maybe feel guilty or icky afterwards) but you don’t know how to stop. It has almost become automatic and unconscious. I believe that we all have something like that in our lives. Patterns are addictive and one that seems to be based on survival (like lying) is hard to break. One thing you might do for yourself out of self love is to realize that this behavior/habit of hers isn’t personal to you (though, the implications are personal) and it comes from a deep desire to find acceptance. She obviously does not believe that she is good enough to receive acceptance and love from people as who she is now. I hope that helps. I wrote a blogpost on this topic that might help: http://www.workwithbanu.com/what-to-remember-when-dealing-with-toxic-people/
BanuSeptember 2, 2014 at 6:55 pm #64310
I came across this thread coincidentally. I must say that, it is very courageous of you to write this and reach out to the community. I don’t know if you recognize it but THAT IS AN ACT OF SELF-LOVE. I struggled with the same thing for a long time and I totally understand the pain you’re feeling as I have been there. I wrote an article on this very topic on TB here. Hope you will find it useful.
You can do it!