Dear James
this is part of your quote dated 27/12/25 ego can’t even see what is even written on the post because of pre judgement.
So you mistaking me for Thomas & Anita for Alessa over the last few days was that your ego at play? or is it just a human quirky thing, I often get my sons names mixed up even when they are standing in front of me(Ego, brain fart who knows?) & who is the who that knows?
What is conscious, mind, soul? what happens to them when the physical body dies or even before the body is born? Science & philosophers & sages have pondered this over the millennia.
I guess in the meantime being a bear of very little brain I will just try to concentrate on being kind with a dash of inquisitiveness & try not to do too much damage to my self or others.
Regards
Roberta

Dear James

You say no one supported you. so you gathered a years worth of food, toilet roll etc all in one go & just ate raw?
The person i knew -Lhundrop is/was a monk , he spent time renovating a small space & someone from the monastery came up with food & left it in a darkened antichamber a small number of us donated a little each month to help cover his food costs.
I did a 3 month solo retreat for 5 days a week, I could not afford or get time off, but I was doing 2 nightshifts, so I could do my practice between rounds & kept the retreatant mind whilst still performing my tasks & did mantra when walking from my hut to work & back. My son cooked & shopped for me I am still so grateful to him for the opportunity he gave me.
We were advised that although there can be some amazing experiences during meditation they are not the purpose of meditation as one can easily get sidetracked by them, & start to crave them & will not ultimately lead to enlightenment.
My experiences were not as lifechanging as yours. But I do get little glimpses of what you are alluding to ( words are a poor substitute for the real experience) & ponder on these things from time to time.
Is it true that the effect of psychedelics can stay in the brain & lead to flash backs years later?
Kind regards
Roberta

Dear Anita

That was interesting about the deep seatedness of if X is this then Y has to be that.
What do you believe good is? & how do you manifest it? This may help you clarify & reinforce the neural pathways you want to cultivate.
Does drawing/painting & or physically writing with a pen help?
For me visualization & mantra are a good medium to counteract negativity that arises in my mind & helps me move forward in a positive way.
Best wishes
Roberta

Hey Guys
Ann’s last post was nearly a month ago. For whatever reason she is not engaging with us (Tiny Buddha Forum) so why, oh why do you two butt heads like rutting stags no matter what the thread?

Hi Peter

Thank you for your gentle approach in your last 2 postings. You share insights which nourish my inner journey & hopefully that of others.
Bless you
Roberta

Hi Alessa

The Tibetans revere their mothers. In texts the talk of being like a mother looking after their only child. Protective & loving to understand how much a mother goes thru & how we should be grateful for their tender loving care. This often does not sit well nowadays particularly in the west because of all the instances of neglect ( is it a symptom of the modern world? easy access to drugs & alcohol etc). The older I get the better I appreciate & understand my mother & try to mimic her kindness & generosity & when I notice my mind sounds like her negativity, I consciously pause, to do a reset to how I aspire to be. So even many years after her death she remains one of my precious teachers.
Best wishes