Trauma can change your life physically/mentally/emotionally! Get a professional help! There are many books out there to help you but none of them will help if you don’t follow what they preach. Sometimes to get 1-2-3 books is enough, don’t do endless research. Work with what you have/ be consistent with whatever steps you take.  Live in present moment, past can’t be changed and future may not come. Now is important. Xx god bless

Why does it matter how old your boyfriends are? I think you are overanalysing things! Let me tell you from my experience…husband of 12y…things get boring, forget the steamy sex that we once had lol and guess what??….that’s how it is for pretty much everyone!!! So I’m not being rude here but do not think for a second that you are all that when married man jumps at you, because what it shows is their boredom rather than anything else. But if single guy fancies you, you know for sure it’s because of you and not his slightly boring wife! And do you want to be part of family where everyone points fingers at you for breaking someone’s marriage, because that’s what you do, you marry/date a person and eventually their family too. It seems to me that your married men and their wife’s are subconsciously your dad and mum. I am parent to 2 kids and believe me, we learn as we go along. There is no book/manual or whatever. Everyone is unique and there is not 1 perfect parent, perhaps some that played the guessing game well 😉

Ok let me help you here…to seclude yourself is losing battle! Believe me, it will be 10x harder for you once you start shutting everyone else out! The biggest thing you could to is ask for help! So many people don’t and that’s a mistake right there. That is 100% anxiety you suffer from and it needs to be dealt with. There is lots of good books on anxiety and coping skills. It’s ok not to be liked by everyone, in fact you are searching for non-existing thing if that’s what you expect. Nobody is perfect and guess what…many people that have smile on their face are simply good at hiding their worries and unhappiness. Nobody said you need 347 friends in life. I’m in my late 30s and I can count my friends on one hand!

Freya let me give you tips on this…I’m mum of 2, stay at home mum. And I feel exactly the same, only I was stay at home mum of 10 years. I finished my law degree, got pregnant, had kids and I feel like my life as if ended 10y ago. What’s more I’m so not confident and anxious to go back to work although I want to. I can’t even begin to explain how dead I have been feeling the past decade. I literally have dreams of going to work. So do not become like me and here are some tips on what I would change, could I turn back the time.
1, don’t become stay at home mum…ever. 2, don’t just become mum, and nothing else. 3, get that sitter and go out (make kids realise that that’s how things are, it will become a norm). 4, go on holidays without hubby and kids sometime (or a spa day trip). 5, ask for help when you need one. 6, keep in mind kids need you for few years…don’t miss those precious years, at age 8-10 they won’t be interested in chatting/playing/cuddling as much. Xx keep strong