And how do you deal with it?

I often feel sad that theyre no longer a part of my life even though i know its for the better

I live with my mother and 2 sisters and thats all, i dont feel comfortable talking about my past or childhood right now. I want to make the present and future better.

You’re right i guess we cant always have what we want and thats a lesson i needed to learn

Not a relationship but just to stay friends and be on good terms, he even said himself he wants to say friends cause we click so well but then ghosted fof a reason i dont understand

It could be my fault too but i cant think of anything that i did, i broke up with him because all of a sudden he became distant and then he went on vacation and became a total different person because he was smoking weed and I wasn’t going to wait for something worse to happen so i broke things off and he didnt care at all he actually seemed happy and like i was holding him back from having fun. My explanation to this is that he didnt give himself enough time to get over his ex girlfriend which he was with for 5 years and that i was a rebound and maybe he wanted to experience what the single life is like and i was holding him back, even though he talked about marriage alot and gave me false hope he then said he was never ready for commitment and that I deserve someone better.

He was never used to communicating and how I always sent him poems i wrote or told him how i feel and just faught for him that pushed him away further. And everytime he would do something that upsets me and i talk to him about it he thinks its arguing and he thinks im crazy. Hes never used to talking when something happens he just ignores everything and distances himself

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