Hi young!

Its ok to reflect, just dont give in to answering the thoughts/what ifs because then u spiral deeper.Hmm, sure, ask me anything that comes to ur mind since mine is all over the place. In general the experience with OCD has been very difficult, i think ive had it since the beginning (didnt know it back then because i was still in honeymoon phase) because i was constantly sending screenshots of some of our messages to AI asking for its opinions and see if there are any bad/hidden messages behind her words, how did i do/etc, which i think is still OCD but on another theme. As soon as i went out of the honeymoon phase it latched onto me “not feeling”, so i cried and cried for months, becoming bedridden, quitting my hobbies praying that “i feel like before again” and feeling like such a horrible person for leading her on and that i am gonna hurt her.

Ask anything else u want.