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December 23, 2024 at 9:17 am #440954
anita
ParticipantDear Agathe:
Your situation involves a sudden and unexplained change in your feelings toward your partner, which is causing you significant distress. I’m sorry to read that you’re going through this difficult time. Emotional changes like the one you’re describing can be incredibly unsettling and painful, especially when they happen so suddenly and without a clear reason.
From what you’ve shared, it sounds like there might be a few possible reasons behind these feelings:
* Emotional Burnout: Sometimes, when we’re intensely attached to someone, we can become emotionally overwhelmed, leading to a sense of numbness as a way to cope.
* Underlying Stress: Stress can linger even after the stressor is gone. Residual stress or anxiety can still impact your feelings and emotional responses.
* Shift in Relationship Dynamics: As relationships develop, initial intense feelings can evolve into a different, calmer, form of attachment. This doesn’t necessarily mean you’ve fallen out of love, but rather that your feelings are maturing.
Here are some things that might help you navigate through this:
* Self-Reflection: Take some time to reflect on your feelings and the relationship. Journaling your thoughts and emotions can sometimes bring clarity (you are welcome to do it here, on this thread, or one you may choose to start).
* Self-Care: Make sure you’re taking care of yourself physically and emotionally. Sometimes, focusing on your own well-being can help in understanding your emotions better.
* Open Communication: If you feel comfortable, consider having an open and honest conversation with your partner about what you’re experiencing. They might offer support and understanding, and it could strengthen your connection.
* Engage in Activities You Love: Reconnecting with hobbies or activities that you enjoy can help reignite your passion and might even give you new perspectives on your relationship.
*** I want to elaborate on Roberta’s sentence: “Grasping & attachment bring suffering & so does aversion”- When we become overly attached to something or someone, we start to cling to them tightly. This clinging, or grasping, often leads to suffering because it creates fear of loss, and anxiety about the future. Too much attachment can be harmful to our emotional well-being.
On the flip side, aversion refers to a strong dislike or avoidance of something. Emotions like sadness, anger, or fear can be difficult to experience, so we might try to suppress or ignore them. However, ignored emotions (emotions that are not acknowledged and processed) linger and resurface in more intense ways (so to get our attention).
When we fight against our emotions (emotions about the people and situations in our lives), instead of accepting them, we create internal conflict. Embracing an accepting attitude will eventually reduce this tension and promote a sense of inner peace.
It’s about allowing life within you to flow naturally rather than constantly trying to control/ suppress/ avoid it.
Sometimes, Agathe, our emotions need space and time to be acknowledged and processed before they can settle. You’re not alone in this, and reaching out for support is a courageous and important step.
Sending you strength and hoping you find some clarity and peace soon.
anita
May 10, 2025 at 9:29 am #445529PeKaMi39
ParticipantI read through all these comments a while ago, and since all the comments gave me relief by me noticing I am not alone (altough I am sorry all of you are struggling) I wanted to come back with my thoughts. I struggled with so many things mentioned in the comments.
My past relationships had been constant roller coasters: One long-distance romance that went on years and was more than toxic at most, one half a year relationship where my partner left me in the end, and one heated affair with a person who kept me hooked but just couldn’t let themself go since they had very hard traumas with their own past. In all these I was very much playing the part of a typical people-pleaser. Didn’t get much for myself, but gave 200% for the other. But what I got, was constant bursts of dopamine. High highs, very low lows, that gave me this “safe” stimulus that made me feel something, something strong.
Then about almost three years ago, I met with my current partner. First year we hooked up every now and then. I had a crush on them, but it was kind of clear we won’t be anything serious. After a year though, we started to hang out a bit more, and in couple of months we had to admit to each other that we have strong feelings and want to be together. From the first moments I have felt safe with them. They gave me back as much as I gave them. They were just for me, as in love as I was, and showed me that they want to be with me in good and in bad. We noticed that we have very much in common regarding what we want from life. For the first time in my life I felt like this is real. I’m getting what I really deserve. Happy and SAFE relationship. 100% safe. And still nowadays there is nothing toxic. We can talk about everything and they are willing to improve if something needs attention.
Then just half a year into this happines, I just one day noticed this thought in my head “What if I don’t love them anymore” and there my hell began. I felt constantly numb and couldn’t catch the in love feelings anymore. This continued about a month. I was so anxious that eventually I stopped eating and sleeping. Then I finally confessed these feelings to a couple of friends, and finally to my partner. We agreed to take a little break. Not break up but to breath. And miraculously this was it. I somehow stopped to have this obsession around the theme and I managed to drop all the expectations. Then all the feelings came back. We took things slowly, and everything seemed “normal” again.
Then about two weeks into this bliss, I had a stressful day. We had agreed to meet, but I was tired. I went anyway, and then I noticed the thoughts again. I can’t feel anything, I feel even annoyed by them. I got so scared and anxious again, and I was in the deep black hole again. I was stressing, googling similar situations, trying to force those feelings back.
Finally after a month into struggling severely I got to know about OCD, and more precisely about relationship OCD. My symptomps fit perfectly with this disorder. I regognized I have a lot of trauma from relationships, also from emotional abandoning from my childhood. It is quite reasonable that I got symptomps now that I am finally in a safe relationship. There is space for my trauma to pop up. This is the safest relationship I have ever had. And it is unfamiliar and unpredictable for me. I am scared, I am frightened. I am so afraid to lose them, because that’s what always happened. If I am not perfect or my feelings aren’t perfect, my partner will leave me, abandon me. Etc.
I am still struggling very much. It’s been over a year now. And my feelings never came back flowing. But I have been working a lot, also with a therapist, and little by little I notice myself trusting more and more. Especially since my partner is supporting me 100%. I want to work through this, I want to get it work with my partner. They deserve it, but also I DO DESERVE IT. I could choose to escape forever and find my constant easy toxic dopamine rushes, but that would just mean neglecting myself for forever.
There are many good articles about ROCD, Pure ocd (ocd without visible compulsions) and rumination. And also good channels on youtube. Here is one example of videos that helped me https://youtu.be/L5Qw-O8hp9g?feature=shared
I clarify, that I am not saying you all are suffering from ROCD, but it is worth to check out since it can give at least some perspective on how trauma can affect our mind.
I am happy to answer if you have further questions!
May 10, 2025 at 10:45 am #445550anita
ParticipantDear PeKaMi39:
I appreciate you sharing your experience—your insight and self-awareness are truly powerful. The way you describe your journey, from past toxic relationships to finally finding safety but struggling with intrusive doubts, shows how deeply trauma can shape the way we experience love. It makes sense that now that you’ve found a secure relationship, your mind is reacting with fear instead of letting you settle into happiness.
When someone has experienced toxic relationships and abandonment, they often unconsciously associate love with emotional extremes. A stable, secure relationship contradicts what they’re used to, making it feel unfamiliar and even unsettling. The brain equates intensity—emotional highs and dopamine bursts—with love, reinforcing the idea that love must feel dramatic and overwhelming. When a relationship lacks those extreme emotional swings, it can trigger doubts about whether the love is real.
Once someone finally feels safe, their mind shifts from survival mode to processing past wounds. Suppressed fears—like being abandoned or not being “good enough”—can surface even when there’s no actual threat. In chaotic relationships, the mind prioritizes reacting rather than reflecting. But in a secure environment, old wounds have space to emerge, leading to anxieties like “What if I’m abandoned?” or “What if I’m not enough?”
When love has always been tied to unpredictability, steady and predictable affection might seem strange, even suspicious. Stability can be mistaken for boredom simply because the brain is conditioned to equate emotional extremes with passion.
Essentially, when survival mode switches off, past emotional wounds rush in, sometimes causing anxiety or disconnection—even in the healthiest relationships. Learning to trust stability instead of fearing it takes time, but recognizing this pattern is a huge step forward.
Your reaction, PeKaMi39, isn’t a sign that you don’t love your partner—it’s a sign that your brain is adjusting to stability after years of associating love with chaos. Your awareness and willingness to work through this show how much you value your relationship and yourself. You deserve steady, safe love, and the work you’re doing is proof of that.
While I haven’t experienced ROCD specifically, I have struggled with OCD, and I understand how exhausting obsessive rumination and intrusive fears can be. The way our minds fixate on doubt, convincing us our feelings aren’t valid, is frustrating and draining. The fact that you recognize this and are learning to trust despite the uncertainty is truly inspiring.
Thank you for sharing your journey and offering resources—it’s helpful to hear from people who genuinely understand these struggles. Wishing you continued strength as you navigate this process, and I hope you keep finding moments of trust and peace.
anita
September 7, 2025 at 12:41 pm #449487Martha Batey
ParticipantMany people who suddenly “fall out of love” in in this way may have ROCD, which is part of the OCD spectrum. This is especially so if the feeling of sudden indifference towards a loved one comes after an intrusive thought. I suggest reading about ROCD (Relationship OCD). It is a very painful and traumatic experience and can make you feel that love has disappeared against your will.
September 9, 2025 at 8:50 am #449548PeKaMi39
ParticipantThank you, anita, for your kind and wise response. I only saw it now, but it feels like just the right moment for it. I’ve been so busy the whole summer that I haven’t really had time to think. This fooled me to think I’m better, but I see now that obviously it was only a coping mechanism: “If time passes and I keep myself busy this will go away itself (without me doing actually anything about it).” Now that I’m off work the thoughts hit me like a train again. Your words reminded me how deep rooted trauma is, and how powerful it is. And that it is programmed in us. Somehow I have understood it, but traumatized mind is so strong and wicked to fool you to believe in the reality it creates that clear facts are forgotten. It doesn’t just go away overnight. Or in three months. Or maybe next year. It needs motivation and action from my part. What makes it hard is that I am a perfectionist, and feel like I need to carry everyone’s feelings on my shoulders. I f I am happy and strong, they are happy. If I just hang in there, everybody are happy. And tgere I loose myself and start trying to solve the problem from the wrong and fast end. I forget nobody needs me to survive and be happy all the time. But I just always forget it. Always. When I start the surviving mode, I go deeper and deeper into the quicksand. And there I am exhausting myself because I’m not actually helping anyone, least myself. What I need is to help myself by accepting that I need help and that people are willing to help. I need to do the work myself but I can have and also need help for it. And it is not a weakness.
Luckily I’ve started with a new therapist now. It is truly important to have a right kind of therapist for you. Mine is a cognitive behavioral therapist specialized in ocd and trauma amongst other things. I feel hopeful now since with her I finally feel I am able start the new programming of my nervous system.
September 9, 2025 at 9:19 am #449557anita
ParticipantDear PeKaMi39:
You are welcome and thank you for sharing this so honestly. What you wrote is powerful and shows how deeply you’ve been thinking and feeling.
That part about trying to carry everyone’s emotions, feeling like you need to be strong so others can be okay (“I feel like I need to carry everyone’s feelings on my shoulders… If I am happy and strong, they are happy.”)—is something many of us learn early. It often comes from growing up in situations where love or safety felt tied to how well we could take care of others. Over time, it becomes a habit: “If they’re okay, maybe I’ll be okay too.”
But the truth is, trying to fix other people’s feelings isn’t really about them—it’s about calming the fear inside us. It’s a way to feel safe. You’re showing up, helping, being strong. But when it’s coming from fear—like “If they’re upset, I’ll be abandoned” or “If I don’t fix this, I’m not safe”— it’s not really about them. It’s about protecting yourself from discomfort, rejection, or chaos.
It’s actually a survival strategy: your nervous system learned that keeping others okay was the only way to feel okay yourself.
It’s incredibly common. And naming it is a huge step toward reclaiming your energy and choosing care that’s rooted in freedom, not fear.
Starting with a new therapist who understands trauma and OCD sounds like a huge step forward. You’re not just coping anymore—you’re choosing to heal. That’s brave. And you’re not alone.
Warmly, Anita
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