Hey anita
Yes i feel like that too, i’ve learned to earn love, not to be given freely so now i feel weird/unsettled.. Its sad because it makes me feel like now i “owe” the other person something.
Yes kinda like that, because my feelings are eluding me right now (maybe what im referring to as “feelings” is the intense infatuation of the honeymoon phase though), that i wont be able to keep up and be good for her, and i’ll hurt her.