December 31, 2022 at 11:55 am #412939
My beloved friend Anita; this year has only been a hindrage for me so far. It had its ups but it was mainly lows. trying my best to stay positive throughout everything tho. i be.lieve that 2023 will be my year 🙂 i hope you are doing good as well. i wish you the best of new years and the best of times
loveDecember 31, 2022 at 1:22 pm #412947AnonymousGuest
Good to read from you 4 months and 9 days after you last posted here. I hope that 2023’s lows will not be as low and that the highs.. will not be as high (Moderation is key) as in 2022! Thank you for your good wishes, I very much appreciate it that you chose to post here today, Happy New Year to you, my beloved friend soma!
anitaAugust 18, 2023 at 4:26 pm #421358
first of all how are you doing? how’s everything? i hope you’re doing okay and feeling good. how has been your summer? mine was pretty good! do you remember how i told you i was going to take an exam that would determine my career like two years ago? well i did pretty good i was actually ranked 28.000 amongst 3mil people!!!! i will attend an amazing university hopefully and its been sooo relaxing to have it finally over! i actually got back with my ex about three months ago and its been going super good 🧿 he is an amazing person who makes me feel loved,secure, funny, beautiful and so many other things. i honestly love him sooo much to a point where its kinda scary. what i mean is that i am scared of ever losing him again. we have been seperate for a year before getting back together and that year has been like living throuh hell for me. we’ve been through so much and to be honest he has broken my heart for a number of times during that year. cant really describe how miswrable i was but its safe to say theres been many sleeples night many blackout days and many tears. but i think it was all worth it and was necessery for us to become the people we are today and fpr us to grow. its better than it ever was today but i must admit i am feeling retroactive jelousy very badly. i cant stop myself from getting hurt or jelous about his past. wheter it be the year we were apart or even before that. but mainly the year we were apart. i really have to tell it in detail for you to understand everything but to sum it up he had a few flings last year and they bother me so much now. apart from the intimacy or sexual experiences he had i often thinl about how he might have liked others. i liked many people whilst we were apart top but maybe because i know i was always in love wth him it doesnt matter. i wish i could just not care and get on with it. i am actually working on this and understand that the feelings i am experiencing arent his fault but a result of my own insecurities and creative mind. i hope it becomes easier! anyways anita again hope youre doing well!! dont forget to look after yourself and dont forget to love yourself and others <3September 15, 2023 at 7:36 am #422128anitaParticipant
Hey back to you, Dear soma:
I don’t know if you are following the activity on your thread, it being almost a month since you posted the above (I did not participate in the forums at the time). Please let me know if you are reading this post and I will reply to you further.
anitaSeptember 20, 2023 at 1:35 am #422288
YES I READ YOUR POST, LOVE YASeptember 20, 2023 at 7:51 am #422290anitaParticipant
Good to read from you! You started your thread on April 2, 2021, two years and five+ months ago. You were then in high school, two years or so to graduation, studying in one of the best high schools in Turkey. You were very anxious at the time, “anxious all around the clock“, stressed about the high expectations people had of you “to have a great career”.
Fast forward to your post before last, that of Aug 18, 2023- a month and 2 days ago- you shared that your summer was pretty good, that you did very well in the exam you took, the one that would determine your career, ranking 28,000 among the 3,000,000 young people who took it. You were hoping therefore to attend an amazing university.
* C o N g R a T u L a T i O n S S o M a ! ! !
You also shared that after a one year separation from your boyfriend, a year of “many sleepless nights.. many tears“, you got back with him three months earlier (May 2023), loving him “sooo much to a point where it’s kinda scary.. I am scared of ever losing him again“. Even though the resumed relationship has been “better than it ever was“, you’ve been feeling “retroactive jealousy very badly“, jealousy about his past, mainly about the few flings he had during year of the separation from you, but “even before that“.
How are you feeling most recently/ today?