Remind yourself of this, Zenith: no real threat= nothing to fear. repeat it while taking a few slow breaths, air in (courage in) and air out (fear out).
Yes, Zenit, it is quite depressing when the weather is like this and I can’t go out- too windy, plus the rain. I am walking on the treadmill (on and off, 1/2 mile portions, adding to a planned 3 miles), walking always, or almost always helps with my mood.
lol.After two weeks of our conversation, my neighbor tried to set up a play date. I said no because we already visited that place with my other friend. I didnt call my neighbor at that time because of how she archived my chats and I didnt want to talk her. Anyways other day, my little one saw my neighbors daughter and she ran to her house to play with her. I had to go her house as I didnt have any other choice. My little one was missing her badly so I set up a play date. When I asked my neighbors daughter if she would like to join us for skating she said she would be busy with her other group of friends. I realized in the moment my friend could not admit the fact that she is busy with her other group of friends but her kiddo straight up told me that her friends would be coming over or she would be busy with them during the weekend. I still put my ego aside for the sake of my daughter my planned a play date for both of them and they said yes. It was awkward and I felt like our friendship is not same as it was before. I still could sense that she is still angry with me. I still miss her and keep thinking about her. She has move don and having fun with her freinds.
It is sad, Zenith. I wish things were different for you, but at least your kid has a friend to play with sometimes, a playdate.
I wish there was a way to get you and her into a counseling session with a very good therapist who could help make things a lot better (I know it’s not possible though, you said she is not into psychology/ therapy).
Sometimes I want to relocate to a different house so that I dont think about her anymore. It will feels like a friendship breakup which hit me hard this time. I had 2 friends who ignored me like this in the past few years I got over them. I dont know why this one feels tough. I have only one friend left in the city. I dont trust her anymore I know she would do the same. I just dont want anymore friends. My husband is only my best friend that I trust now. He is the best and I love him. I am spending more time with my daughter and husband. But sometimes I feel so empty that we are just 3 of us and dont have friends to hang out with. That feeling is so weird. Then I look at social media and feel bad that how come people have so many friends.
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