Hi Zenith:

I was thinking about you only yesterday! Good to hear from you, and please no worries about not posting for a while. I understand how it is.

Sounds like you’re overwhelmed with parenting and work and same-old-same-old. I wish you could have a vacation on your own and be away from everything and everyone for a while!

I am okay, tired after a long walk with my dog (did I tell you I have a dog, my first ever?)

Anita

Hey Zenith:

Talking about patience: I lost mine on the walk with Bogart about 20 minutes ago. He pulled hard, I gave in, and he walked down into a ditch, insisted on eating who knows what (makes me nervous, don’t know what it was.. ), wouldn’t listen to me telling him to come up from the ditch and when he finally did, his leash got caught in sharp blackberry vines. I was so exasperated😠😡😤, I felt like leaving him there and then, unable to free himself. I yelled at him (then felt guilty).. eventually, I managed to untangle the leash and took him home, cutting the walk short (only 1.5 miles)

I’m still recovering from the emotional upheaval, sitting on the lounge chair with.. Bogart lying down by my feet with his head over my leg. I’m still angry though.

I’m glad that your cat is more patient than the both of us 🙂 and hope that you get to take some kind of vacation somewhere local this year, a change of scenery, away from daily stressors 😌

🤍 Anita

Thank you, Zenith 🙂 It makes me feel less like a momster 👻 Really, having Bogart is teaching me how difficult it must be to be a mother. My hat is off to you 👍 👏

(when I use the 📱 emojis come up or I can easily get them.. and I can’t resist them 😺)

😏 Anita

It helps to light up the mood. I don’t think gifs will show up here, in the forums, but I like them too. (I am using the computer right now, so no emojis show up (sad face emoji)

Dear Zenith:

I am sorry you’re feeling anxious again 😔. It makes sense though that an old hurt rises to the surface once in a while. It’s hurtful to be treated differently, as less-than. It can be very hurtful (I know from personal experience 😔). This kind of hurt doesn’t disappear just because you don’t always feel it or think about it. Did anyone treat you badly recently?

Anita

Hey Zenith:

I remember that you deleted the thread where we talked at about this issue, and now I don’t remember the details. I wish I did.

I wish there was a way for you to care less about your MIL’S preferences just so that you’d have peace of mind and heart.

I remember you shared how you grew up in a poor family and because of that (unfairly and unjustly, of course) you were treated by richer family as less than.

That’s a deep wound that understandably bleeds into the present once in a while, even if you get to own a 2nd (or 3rd) house. Does it 😔?

🤍 Anita