Dear James:

Seeing your 😂😂😂 brought the first smile to my face today. Sincerely, I am glad that you were at least entertained by my study, and that you laughed loudly! I hope you laugh out loud many more times, it’s healthy for you!

(I am Anita, by the way, not Alessa)

Some of what you wrote over time (much of it I quoted before, here on your thread) has been helpful and illuminating for me. I want to go back and read those quotes. I thank you for these.

Anita

The ego is just see what it want to see lol.

I am sorry but i laughed loudly 😂

Dear Tee,

Try to take care your body and cause more stress. You have no idea how free and beauty it is without you.

Peace.

Hi James

I don’t know if you’re interested in actual lineages that pursue spiritual practices?

It might be a sore spot because whilst you have had some insight due to your experiences with drugs and meditation. You wouldn’t be considered enlightened from their perspectives.

At least a foundational level of cultivation would be required, as well as health. With your major surgery which would mean that you have some blockages, you wouldn’t be considered healthy.

These lineages also practice healing and offer these services. I don’t know if you’re interested in going deeper into these things or if you’re happy where you are? But I’m happy to connect you if you’re interested. There is a Daoist-Buddhist lineage and a Muslim one. So you would be free to explore in a way that feels suitable. 🩵

Hi James,

isolation and meditation retreats are the best for surrendering the self and body.

Yes, but it wasn’t just a mere spiritual retreat, James. It was living in darkness for an entire year. Here’s what AI says about living in darkness for a prolonged period of time:

Living in prolonged darkness severely disrupts your internal body clock (circadian rhythm), leading to sleep problems, fatigue, and mental health issues like depression, while causing physical problems such as Vitamin D deficiency, weak bones, heart trouble, and altered hormone levels, potentially causing hallucinations and vision changes due to sensory deprivation.

It’s putting yourself through extreme sensory deprivation. Which affects both your physical health (apparently isn’t good for your heart either) and messes up with your mind too. No one does such “retreats”, simply because they are harmful.

Krishnamurti has a say, to die every moment is the only way to live without fear.

You’re mixing two things: there is the fear of the ego, and there is the legitimate care for our body, which stops us from putting ourselves into reckless, dangerous situations, which might kill us or disable us.

Extensive drug use or exposing our body to extreme deprivation (such as living in darkness for an entire year) are examples of reckless behavior that puts our body into unnecessary jeopardy.

Self-care (if it’s reasonable and not self-obsessed) is not a feature of the ego. It belongs to healthy self-love, which is what Jesus was talking about too: to love ourselves. Hurting and depriving our body on purpose isn’t love.

People who reasonably care about their body aren’t stuck in their ego. They just follow common sense and even what’s written in the Scripture, if you will.

In short, there are many forms of ego fear, but reasonable self-care isn’t one of them…

Hi James,

Ai and spirituality? 😂

didn’t ask AI about spirituality but about the impact of living in darkness for prolonged periods of time.

Pretty serious things happen actually. There was an experiment where they put the volunteers in an underground bunker, which means total sensory deprivation: no light, no sounds, no human contact. The experiment lasted for only 48 hrs, but after 30 hrs they started to hallucinate and lose their mind.

One of them said it’s like torture. And in fact, apparently sensory deprivation is used as a form of torture, to extract information from prisoners of war, for example.

I guess you did have some sensory input, your sensory deprivation wasn’t complete, but still, 365 days alone in darkness is just way out there.

I don’t think our bodies are designed for things like that. I believe we don’t need to go to the brink of self-destruction to realize the truth…

As for the things you’ve realized, well, you say we should stop caring about everything, including our body, our children, our loved ones… you care as an expression of the ego.

We should also stop caring to call people their names because, “Roberta, James, Alessa, Anita, Thomas etc…These are just names, why is it so important? Moreover, these sentences are just sentences, why are they so important?”

Indeed, why is anything important when the truth (your truth) is that nothing is important…

Moreover, nothing really exists: “So even body and universe is so called exist because you imagine or think”.

So if nothing exists, but is only a figment of our imagination, why would we care indeed?

Hello James and Everyone:

“James: “I am not gonna get into these. Too early for you guys and not ready.” (Dec 28)- too early for us guys to Submit to your prophetic leadership, not ready to Follow you. I can’t think of a more fitting example to a stronger Ego (and arrogance) than yours, as expressed in this quote.

There’s no dialogue with you unless one agrees with you completely, and even better, asks for your guidance- that’s when you engage in a dialogue and express kindness.

When challenged, you dismiss the entire message of the challenger (no matter how empathetic and gentle the message) as “mind,” which is his catch‑all category for anything you don’t want to engage with. This is not a dialogue; it’s a closed system.

The pattern- someone asks → you answer, someone validates→ you agree. Someone questions you → you preach, one challenges you → you dismiss.

Because you framed your worldview is as absolute, any counterargument becomes proof that the other person is “still trapped.”, and any disagreement is reframed as: ignorance, ego, illusion, attachment, “mind”, “you’re not awakened yet”, or the latest, today: “you guys and not ready.”

Your worldview immune to critique. You avoid every question that would require self-reflection, and from time to time, you escalate into prophetic warning: “I am not here to teach you, I am here to warn you. Either you follow or not. If you don’t, death will show you.”

This reveals the power dynamic you are trying to create: You are the one who “knows.” Others are the ones who must “follow.” Reality itself will punish disagreement; follow or suffer.

You don’t say: “This is my experience.”, “This is my interpretation.”
You say: “This is the Truth.”, “Death will show you.”, “I am here to warn you.”-

This is very far from spiritual humility — it’s metaphysical authoritarianism.

Ending with “Peace” after issuing a death warning is not peace.

The dynamic you practice is called a ONE-UP, ONE-DOWN DYNAMIC: a pattern in communication or relationships where one person consistently places themselves above the other — in knowledge, authority, morality, insight, or power — while placing the other person below them. You are always Right and others’ chance of being right as well is NO disagreement, no challenging questions, nothing but complete agreement and submission.

A one‑up stance often includes correcting others constantly, dismissing their experiences, reframing disagreement as ignorance, claiming special insight or enlightenment, and speaking with absolute certainty; while the other person is invalidated, talked down to, and told their perspective is “mind,” “illusion,” or “attachment”, warned or lectured.

A SELF-SEALING BELIEF SYSTEM is one that automatically protects itself from being questioned, no matter what anyone says. Any challenge is reinterpreted as proof that the belief is correct, no evidence can count against it, no counterargument is allowed to land. It “seals itself” against criticism.

A self‑sealing system has built‑in defenses like: “If you disagree, that means you don’t understand.”, “If you question this, that means your ego is resisting.”, “If you argue, that proves you’re trapped in illusion.” You literally cannot win.

The conversation is not about evidence, logic, shared reality or mutual understanding- unless one submits and follows you completely.

Here are examples from your messages: someone says: “Stress comes from emotions.”, you say: “Emotions are mind. Mind is illusion.”

Someone says: “We can influence the body.”, you say: “There is no you to influence anything.”

Someone says: “Your worldview has contradictions.”, you say: “That’s your mind resisting.”

Why people use self‑sealing worldviews? Because their inner world feels unstable, uncertainty feels dangerous. A self‑sealing system is a psychological safety mechanism.

In simple terms, a self‑sealing belief is one that cannot be wrong, because it reinterprets every challenge as proof that it’s right.

Anita