Hello,

Been busy with my daughter trying to transfer to a 4 year college from community college. Went to open house. Got the tour. Spoke with financial aid office. Applied for federal aid and state aid and scholarships She wants to become a teacher. She has a mental handicap which was diagnosed when she was in preschool. So, all her life, she has been fighting hard to keep up. I am very proud of her and the way she has worked hard to get this far. On top of that she has had physical issues. Scoliosis. Middle school thru high school she had to wear a brace. Doctor suggested back surgery but wife thinks it is too dangerous. It was just tough enough to get her to take her wisdom teeth out. She really was afraid to do it. But, it had gotten so bad. Anyway, had to pay for one out of four because insurance would not cover it. Now insurance won’t cover her spine doctor appointment. Yeah, been busy.

Oh, Alessa, you should be looking at how to get the child into daycare or preschool as soon as you can. Apparently, spots fill up fast and so does the aid for it. My wife took care of most of it cause she had friends which kept her informed. I still remember taking my daughter to daycare and sitting at the steps with her telling me she doesn’t want to go. I had to go to work and so did her mom. Well, it got better when she went to preschool. The teacher was great and spotted my daughter’s issue quickly. Then signed her up to tests. You just don’t know what you can do when you hear this kind of news. My wife went for months thinking about the cause. I never blamed anyone or anything. Just tried to do the best we can.

Yes, my wife was in the medical field in her country. And when Co-vid hit, she made us take pre-cautions. Of course, still caught it eventually. Tested positive but did not have symptoms. The vaccine shots was the worst. Anyway, we washed our hands every time we came from outside. We still do. It may sound like too much. Or maybe not enough? Anyway, I hope you and your family are okay.

Anita, hope you and yours are well. Any progress with training the dog? How is your outlook at work? I seem to remember some turmoil?? Well, things will change and hopefully for the better. Has the news about Iran and Israel affected you? It certainly has brought about things which affect us all. One way or another I hope the war or military action ends soon. I don’t know if Trump was an idiot or a genius for trying to stop Iran. Did he stop a future apocalypse? Or did he start one?

I hope Peter and Roberta and everyone else on here will have a good coming year. Thanks for caring. Might be awhile before I get a chance to update. Live long and prosper and eat well.

Sorry for the interruption. Had to drive my daughter to her school for class. One class in person and the others are on line. These days the teachers don’t teach. They set up classes on line and have the students do their studies on line. No presentations. No actual teaching. Schedule tests and that is it. So, different from when I went to college. Anyway, proud of her progress.

Yeah, truly like working on cars. Unfortunately, getting older and many things aren’t as easy as before. Had a nail in the tire today. Took it off and pulled the nail out. Put a plug in with glue. Holding air now. The TPMS sensor alerted me to the leak.

Oh, yeah, thoughts about death. Nothing new in the world about it. Because of our ego and thinking mind, we have created this idea of self. Our world is made up of our thoughts and we created this ego. So, it can not see its own end. And death is only allowing the energies to migrate to another vessel. The Karma created during this life needs to find it resolution. And so, the next life finds its way to do this.

Of course, people have always said that energy can not be created nor destroyed only transformed from one state to another. And so, when we die, the energy moves along. What we experience along the way is the way it has always been from the beginning of life to the end of the universe. And then on to the next universe.

Sorry, got carried away in my thoughts. I really need to start meditating again. The quiet. The emptiness is where we came from and it is where we go.

So, how is everything with you? Are you happy?

I think without the motivation to seek for better that one would wallow in what is comfortable. I know this true for me as I have never accomplished any grand thing I had set myself to accomplish. Oh, I did finish school. Went to get a job. Worked and got married. Normal things, I think? But, I never set up that company to create jobs. Nor amass that fortune. Did not find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. So, misery and suffering seem to be motivation to do better. I don’t want to starve so I find work and keep the job to pay the bills and get food. Without the need to feed myself then I might be just another bum.

Some people never make it out of the suffering. And some find the light at the end of the tunnel. I have got to say that reading about all your pain that I am amazed you have gotten this far. So being alone and suffering has given you courage to be better than what was given to you. I hope someday that you do find the peace you are looking for.

I would think that what is needed now is to sort out what it is that you really want and stick to the plan. If you are over thinking stuff then maybe spend some time relaxing. Or meditation. Live in the moment without extra thought about the moment. A monk was walking around when he heard the sound of a tiger. Chased by the tiger, he ran to the edge of a small cliff and hung by a vine. Below he could see two more tigers looking up at him. On the vine, he saw a berry and he took the berry and ate it. He enjoyed the berry very much. So when there is so much stuff happening, sometimes you just got to enjoy the berry.