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  • #200663
    srk
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    Hey,

    I am in my early 20’s. I am an introvert. I am not on any social media. I am a workaholic who is driven by goals. I never paid a lot of heed to relationships of any kind. I did not even pay any attention to that aspect of my life. Its my birthday next week and nobody has ever wished me on my birthday for as long as I can remember and that never used to bother me. I would work my ass off even on my birthdays.

    These days I am being more mindful and meditating a lot and suddenly I am feeling this loneliness and emptiness in my heart. I suddenly realised that a lot of “friends” in my life have gone out of my life. It has always been revolving doors. People have come and gone. No one has stayed. No friendship has lasted for more than a year. It has all gone cold after a while. There has been a lot of turbulence in this area. I did not mind earlier. I was too immersed with my work and studies. But now I am longing for stability in relationships. I want people to stay in my life. I want to be a part of other people’s lives. I want to open myself up to others. I have had enough of these revolving doors. When I head out and see a group of friends hanging out and laughing out loud I feel overwhelmingly sad. I do not know what to do. I wish I could travel back in time and lead my life in another way.

    Thanks for reading

    #200671
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear srk:

    How would you live your life differently, if you could travel back in time?

    anita

    #200673
    srk
    Participant

    Hi Anita,

    I would travel a lot more, have a group of friends who would be supportive and nurturing, do some adventures and sports and music- that would be it.

    Thanks

    #200677
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear srk:

    Of these things you would do differently, having “a group of friends who would be supportive and nurturing”- that is the most difficult goal, as I see it. It takes not only your participation but these other people’s participation. Some people are not capable or willing or both, to stay. Nor should they necessarily stay in a friendship, no matter what.

    You wrote: “When I head out and see a group of friends hanging out and laughing out loud I feel overwhelmingly sad”- I understand wanting connection, support, friendship, absolutely.

    But notice: when you see a group of friends laughing out loud, you don’t know if they are laughing an hour from then. We tend to see something and assume it is always like that. Chances are someone in that group is paying a high price to … fit in, in that group, to feel the temporary together feeling that we all crave.

    anita

     

     

     

    #200679
    srk
    Participant

    Hi Anita,

    You have made a very good observation. It does have a different perspective. But what is the point you are trying to drive home? That it is okay for me to live the way I am living right now? That I need to embrace things as is? Not try to build relationships in my life? Could you please elaborate on this?

    Thanks

    #200685
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear srk:

    Looking at your questions in your recent post, I will attend to your questions.

    “Not try to build relationships in my life?”- not a good idea. As social animals we are driven to build and maintain relationships. Our mental health is dependent on having at the least one good, healthy relationship.

    “That I need to embrace things as is?” -no, you need at least one good, loving relationship. More, better.

    Regarding the price people pay to fit in a group, to maintain a friendship that is not healthy- well, see to it that you don’t pay that price. Be selective, pay attention. You want “to be a part of other people’s lives”- see to it that your part in their life is a Win for them, and that their part in your life is a Win for you (Win-Win relationships).

    You “want to open (yourself) up to others”- select the others, one at a time, individually, so that you open yourself up to something safe and good.

    anita

     

    #200689
    srk
    Participant

    Hi Anita,

    So the first thing I need to do is try getting to know people by making conversations but without attaching myself too much to the outcome. Isn’t that right?

    Thanks

    #200693
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear srk:

    I believe so. If you attach yourself to the outcome of having a lasting friendship without getting to know a person, you will do anything for that outcome, and some of that anything will harm you. Get to know a person first, be cautious. See to it that you are true to yourself all through the process of making friends.

    anita

    #200699
    srk
    Participant

    Hi Anita,

    Thanks for the advice. I will try this and see how it goes.

    Thanks

    #200701
    Anonymous
    Guest

    You are welcome, srk.

    anita

    #200711
    Mark
    Participant
    #200751
    Jaclyn
    Participant

    Hi srk,

    Is it possible that friendships in your past faded quickly because you were not mindfully cultivating them? You said you are a workaholic who didn’t pay a lot of attention to your relationships in the past, and didn’t mind that. But now you do mind, and you’re paying attention. Maybe this awareness and desire to create concrete and genuine relationships is the first step in your journey toward finding them. I am a big believer that everything happens for a reason, and I would say not to focus on the past and what you could have done differently, because you will never be able to go back and change anything. But now you can focus on moving forward intentionally and opening yourself up to new possibilities and relationships. Acknowledging a problem in your life is the first step toward remedying it, and I think you’re off to a good start by thinking about what you are lacking in your life.

    Also, the early 20s are a weird and inherently impermanent time. I am in my early 20s myself, and my situation and relationships change frequently. So try not to be too discouraged by people leaving and entering your life often, it does happen as people are on their own journeys. It won’t be that way forever. I hope this message helped, and even if it doesn’t you’ve been given some great advice already. I really enjoyed Mark’s attachment; I read it and it gave me some insight for myself, thanks Mark!

    Best,

    Jaclyn

    #200759
    srk
    Participant

    Thanks Mark. That was a nice article. It has given me fresh insight 🙂

    Jaclyn, its true that I did not mindfully cultivate relationships as I was always running a race. There was “no enough time” for anything. I was on a hamster wheel. And yes now I am paying attention and have acknowledged the problem. I want to resolve this but I am being very patient with things. Its also true what you said. There is no point in beating myself up over the past. Its never too late to start trying something new. Everyday is the first day of the rest of our lives.

    Thanks 🙂

    #200789
    Mark
    Participant

    Glad that article helped Jaclyn and srk.

     

    Mark

    #200801
    Inky
    Participant

    Hi srk,

    It’s hard to be a young introvert. I agree with a post above that in your 20’s people tend to come and go.

    Friends are also like plants. You have to do the work. You have to water and weed. And sometimes the plant is eaten by another animal or it catches a random plant disease. But maybe, just maybe, one day you will be rewarded by a perennial (a plant that always comes back around).

    Good Luck!

    Inky

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