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August 8, 2016 at 7:20 pm #111944AnonymousGuest
Dear Shirley, Earth Angel:
I don’t like opening links so it is better you don’t post the links. I like your quote about god, I agree. I believe nature has a whole lot of wisdom for us to learn from although I don’t worship nature. I don’t think nature needs worshipping. Last night I slept in a tent in the back of the house, in the woods. I thought about you looking at the trees and listening later to coyotes howling, knowing how much you enjoy nature.
Regarding dates, I used to add and subtract and multiply and… the numbers of dates and am so glad I no longer do that. I think it was part of my anxiety to look for meaning in numbers.
anita
August 9, 2016 at 10:39 am #111997JanusParticipanti agree that spending too much time with numbers makes my brain hurt at times. i have started looking for codes in the bible b/c there have been books saying that the bible has different codes and i am curious. i’m not a christian or catholic and science often influences my beliefs a lot. some wiccans have rituals to worship nature, but i just enjoy being out in nature and exploring the different types of trees and flowers. i tend to combine science and spirituality together. this is my photosynthesis summary and how it relates to atp production. do you think i should add more details?
Photosynthesis
Photosynthesis is a process by plants to convert sunlight into chemical energy that can be stored as carbohydrate molecules such as sugars to produce CO2 and water. The chemical equation of photosynthesis is an endergonic reaction since it absorbs the energy of sunlight to start the reaction. The photosynthesis equation is 6CO2 + 6H2O ——-> C6H12O6 + 6O2. Photosynthesis occurs when energy from light is absorbed in chloroplasts of plant leaves. In these reactions that depend on light (light-dependent reactions) some energy is used to take electrons from substances such as water to produce oxygen. The splitting of the water molecule frees the hydrogen to create NADPH (reduced form of NADP+) and ATP. In plants and algae, sugars are produced by a series of light-independent reactions called the Calvin Cycle. In the Calvin Cycle, carbon dioxide is included into already existing carbon compounds. Using the ATP and the NADPH produced in the light-dependent reactions, the compounds are reduced to form carbohydrates such as glucose.August 9, 2016 at 2:00 pm #112001JanusParticipantI made some edits to photosynthesis and used another source.
Photosynthesis
Photosynthesis is a process by plants to convert sunlight into chemical energy that can be stored as carbohydrate molecules such as sugars to produce CO2 and water. The chemical equation of photosynthesis is an endergonic reaction since it absorbs the energy of sunlight to start the reaction. The photosynthesis equation is 6CO2 + 6H2O ——-> C6H12O6 + 6O2. Photosynthesis occurs when energy from light is absorbed in chloroplasts of plant leaves. In these reactions that depend on light (light-dependent reactions) some energy is used to take electrons from substances such as water to produce oxygen. The splitting of the water molecule frees the hydrogen to create NADPH (reduced form of NADP+) and ATP. In plants and algae, sugars are produced by a series of light-independent reactions called the Calvin Cycle. In the Calvin Cycle, carbon dioxide is included into already existing carbon compounds. Using the ATP and the NADPH produced in the light-dependent reactions, the compounds are reduced to form carbohydrates such as glucose. In the light-dependent reactions a molecule of the pigment chlorophyll absorbs a photon (particle of visible light with zero mass) and loses one electron. The electron is passed to pheophytin (modified chlorophyll) which passes the electron to a quinone (aromatic compound that is important as a coenzyme or electron acceptor and also used in making dyes) starting the flow of electrons down an electron transport chain that leads to a reduction of NADP to NADPH. This process creates a proton gradient across the chloroplast membrane which is used by ATP synthase to produce ATP. When a water molecule is split in a process called photolysis, the chlorophyll molecule gains the electron it lost and O2 is released. Light-dependent reactions occur in the thylakoid membrane (thylakoids are flattened sacs inside a chloroplast that carry out photosynthesis) and occur as cyclic and noncyclic. In the noncyclic reaction photons are captured in the light harvesting complexes (array of protein and chlorophyll molecules in the thylakoid membrane) of photosystem II (protein complexes that carry out the absorption of light and transfer of energy and electrons). The absorption of a photon from the light harvesting complex frees an electron that can be transferred to pheophytin (primary electron acceptor). While the electrons are traveling down the electron transport chain, protons (Hydrogen ions) are being pumped into the thylakoid space (chemiosmosis). An ATP synthase enzyme uses this to generate ATP during photophosphorylation and NADPH is also produced. The cyclic reaction only replenishes ATP without producing NADPH. In the light-independent reactions or the Calvin Cycle, the enzyme Rubisco (catalyzes the reaction that incorporates CO2 into the Calvin Cycle) captures carbon dioxide from the atmosphere and uses the NADPH (formed in the light-dependent reactions) to release three-carbon sugars that are later combined to form sugar and starch.August 9, 2016 at 7:21 pm #112017AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
I enjoy nature too. And it is so good to take breaks from interacting with people, isn’t it?
As far as your photosynthesis description in the first post, regarding the beginning: “Photosynthesis is a process by plants to convert sunlight into chemical energy that can be stored as carbohydrate molecules such as sugars to produce CO2 and water.”
I think “…stored as carbohydrate molecules such as sugars” should be the end of the sentence. “to produce CO2 and water” is not relevant to photosynthesis, these are the products of respiration, not photosynthesis.
And then: ” The chemical equation of photosynthesis is an endergonic reaction since it absorbs the energy of sunlight to start the reaction” is not a complete thought because every reaction absorbs energy to start the reaction but photosynthesis is endergonic because the energy of the products is bigger than that of the reactants, so in total the reaction stores energy.
You added much more in the second post. Don’t forget to separate the essay into paragraphs.
Oh, the Calvin Cycle.. I remember now.
By the way, I think photosynthesis happens in all the green parts of the plant, not just the leaves…?
Keep combining science and spirituality. As you know, I often take scientific principles and apply them to human behavior. I believe the two, science and true spirituality, that is what is real and yet not clearly evident, are not separate. That is, I think science doesn’t end someplace and spirituality starts.
anita
August 10, 2016 at 9:44 am #112058JanusParticipantthanks anita for catching the mistake in the first line, sometimes when i’m writing a lot of information, it can be hard to catch mistakes like that. thanks for your edits. the main part of photosynthesis occurs in the leaves b/c chloroplasts are located there and they help the process of photosynthesis. leaves are like the windows in a plant, they have chloroplasts (window panes) whom they can open and the thylakoid (window screen within the chloroplast) can filter in light to produce energy. this reminds me of a life scenario where the leaves of the plant which are the highest on the tree supported by branches (much like friends and people support and hold each other up) and the heart of a person can be like the thylakoid which opens and brings in light and happiness.
August 10, 2016 at 10:23 am #112067AnonymousGuestDear Shirley, scientist, poet and Earth Angel:
I like your analogy of the heart being like the thylakoid. Only a scientist and a poet can combine these two into an image. You repeatedly combine your scientific knowledge with your poetic imagination. This makes for a special poetic genre, Poetic Science, or… Poecience (sounding like “potion”).
anita
August 10, 2016 at 11:44 am #112071JanusParticipanti am currently going to read a few books from the library and this is one of them: Twelve by twelve : a one-room cabin off the grid & beyond the American dream by Powers, William, 1971-
i read a preview on googlebooks.com and i enjoyed how the author explains about combining science and spirituality. i also read the part when he mentions a friend whom he calls “Dr. Jackie Benton” who is a poet and scientist. i also want to go for a doctorate and combine both science and poetry so when i read that there were others like me out there, i was quite excited. i also have sent requests to join writing groups on facebook and have submitted a writing sample to The Write Life and posted a link to it on google play. the poems i submitted were the ones about youth struggles. i like your term on “Poescience” it is quite creative and makes me smile. i realize there are more people who are scientific philosophers than i thought and that makes me elated and drives the inner bully out b/c it had been telling me that a person can’t be creative and logical at the same time.
August 10, 2016 at 1:22 pm #112085AnonymousGuestDear Poescience (I will call you that only this one time, here):
Hope you enjoy the book. Let me know what you learn from reading it.
As far as writing groups, I belonged to one and would like to share with you the following point: be aware. Who are these other people who will be critiquing your work? In my experience they critiqued my grammar and such things as not using “…” Looking back there was no value for it for me. A few of the writers there used perfect English, an amazing vocabulary, very imaginative scenes, characters but they lacked a story, a meaning, for me. I like your writing because although it has good images, it also has meaningful messages to pass on.
In critiquing writing, you have to consider WHO is the person critiquing, what is their motivation in writing. If they are interested in entertainment only, they may not appreciate the valid messages in your writing.
There is one thing I thought about regarding your poems: because a whole lot of people, especially younger people, are quite impatient, it could be a good idea for you to cut off the length of the various poems, sort of to cut the portions. So each poem is presented as 4-5 shorter poems with a space of time between presentations, on your Facebook, that is.
anita
August 11, 2016 at 11:51 am #112168JanusParticipanti agree, some writers lack a story and meaning b/c they write for perfection and for sales. i like to write poetry b/c it helps me express my feelings and i like the idea of how words can help inspire others. when i am dancing alone, i don’t care about being pretty or having the crowd’s attention to my talents, i dance b/c i am truly me being lifted by the music and letting the words of the music tell me how to move myself. i like the idea of posting the poems in short snippets. i am currently reading a book called “To the Hilt.” and it’s about a father who is in financial trouble in london (his trusted advisor Norman Quoron betrayed him and his King Alfred’s brewery and he should have trusted Tobias Tollright) and asks his stepson, Alex to help him. Alex leads a simplistic life as a painter in scotland to help salvage his reputation. Alex realizes he must help protect his stepfather’s horse Golden Malt which is a racehorse and also King Alfred’s Golden Cup from becoming assets to pay debts. Alex who enjoys living in the Scottish Highlands in solitude where he can paint golf scenes now finds himself being part of the business world. I like Alex’s attitude when people like his friend emily (and says Alex’s paintings sell to golfers and people they “capture the perseverance of the human spirit” pg 60) who trains racehorses think him a bit strange to be a painter because he says “I paint what I like. I earn my bread. I’ll never be Rembrandt. I settle for what I can do, and if that is to give pleasure, well it’s better than nothing.” (Dick Francis pg 61). Alexander talks about how people think he is strange when they see his long hair in curls and also his paint-splattered clothes and how society thinks people are a team and doesn’t like solitude, but he thinks more creatively when he is alone and he doesn’t care if he is odd. I also didn’t know that “diminuedoed” was a word until i saw it in the book describing the horses hooves decreasing in the distance. it’s an italian term that applies to musical sound and it’s synonym is decrescendo. plangent means loud sound like a bell and largo means slow.
August 11, 2016 at 6:13 pm #112195JanusParticipantthis is the first book whom i like all the characters. i like emily b/c she is outspoken about her beliefs and she is quite self-reliant and confident about herself when she says “i’m know as a dragon There aren’t many with the guts of Saint George.” pg 69. I looked up Saint george and he is a crusader legend. i like uncle robert (alex’s uncle and also related to King Alfred in Scotland) b/c he is wise and he also wants to protect king alfred’s treasure from those who might misuse it. i like ivan in england who is the stepfather who is in financial crisis. although, patsy is a bit annoying since she is the legitimate daughter of ivan, i find her manipulative charms entertaining. she is able to use her saccharine nature and have people pity her or think she’s a good person to her advantage esp. when it comes to the legal rights of transferring the brewery to Alex or her since ivan is recuperating from a heart attack, but has a bit of depression (i feel sorry for ivan since i feel as if he represents many people who have financial worries). i also like zoe lang b/c she is a smart professor studying history and uncle robert hires her to see about the golden cup and she concludes that it isn’t really King Alfred’s but a victorian relic “worth killing for, but not worth dying for” pg 119. i have developed an interest in historical suspense books that have a natural aspect that seems to speak to me. i also like james who is the child of uncle robert and he is quite a positive person who encourages others and also likes to play golf with alex. i also like jed b/c he has alex’s trust and his uncles’s trust and he is helping them with the golden cup. i like the way alex describes zoe lang who is 89 and says “The outward appearance of age could color one’s expectations of a person’s character. I wanted to paint her as young, vibrant, fanatical, with the ghost of the way she looked now superimposed in thin light gray lines, like age’s cobwebs. I strongly sensed a singular powerful entity that might have intensified with time, not faded. We were dealing with that inner woman, and should not forget it.” pg 118-119.
August 11, 2016 at 8:14 pm #112211AnonymousGuestDear Shirley, Earth Angel:
I can see why you like the character Alex in To the Hilt: he is okay with being different or odd, to live life his own way regardless of social convention and criticism. The quote: ” “I paint what I like. I earn my bread.” I like this quote very much. In other words, Alex is saying: I work, earn my money, pay my bills so I get to paint what I like. And he likes solitude, like you. Isn’t it inspiring when people don’t apologize for their ways regardless of the social conventions?
I can see why you like Emily’s quote: “i’m know as a dragon There aren’t many with the guts of Saint George.” – you value courage very much.
Back to Alex, another thing in common with you is his appreciation of the elderly, something you wrote about repeatedly in previous posts. I like that last quote: “I strongly sensed a singular powerful entity that might have intensified with time, not faded”- I hope this could be said about me, and you, someday, in old age!
anita
August 12, 2016 at 11:56 am #112251JanusParticipanti enjoy working with the elderly ever since ninth grade community service at the nursing homes. i like helping them with crafts and it makes me appreciate my life more just by helping them with the simple things. i like alex b/c he is a quick thinker and also quite simplistic in his decisions. i find that when i’m taking notes from my ap biology book, i write more info between 3-6 pages of notes, but when i type and organize them, it turns out to be 1-3 pages. it’s b/c when i read, i pay attention to a lot of the details and when i type i do a general overview. anyway as the story progresses, patsy gets less respect from alex and the others b/c she becomes a bit bossy when she wants ivan to add a codicil in his will to include her since she isn’t satisfied with just acquiring the brewery. she starts to be manipulative of those who seem a bit insecure such as surtees benchmark (her husband) and ivan himself trying to persuade him to let her take the financial matters into her hands and leave alex out of it. patsy is a bit jealous of alex b/c he is only a stepson and also just a painter, yet ivan wants alex to help with his financial things. also patsy meddles with oliver grantchester who is ivan’s dominant lawyer to ask him if he can change the codicil so she can help with the financial things, but it doesn’t succeed. alex believes that if the golden cup falls into desmond finch’s hands he may give it to patsy and they will sell ivan’s possession to rid themselves of the brewery’s debts. he also hires Young and Uttley a private detective to keep an eye on surtees since he believes suretees has a grudge against him since his stepfather gave him the privilege to hide the golden cup. ivan does add a codicil to his will and alex helps him, but patsy hasn’t found out yet. also desmond finch (chief advisor of the brewery and second to ivan who was once the financial advisor) doesn’t approve of alex either.
August 12, 2016 at 12:01 pm #112252JanusParticipanti like environmental science b/c it is easier to understand than molecular biology, but the latter is more interesting. i love nature so learning about the ecosystem and how organisms play their part is quite cool, but since i want to research stem cells and neural functions i think molecular biology gives more detail into each organism.
August 12, 2016 at 1:18 pm #112256AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
Being pulled in different directions figuring out your future career? Your interests are many, from helping the elderly to… all the way to the latest: environmental science vs molecular biology. Be gentle with yourself as you navigate through your interests- there are many and there will be more. Read anything that interests you, investigate a bit: how could I use this field in a future career? Can I do this on a very part time as a volunteer and do the other thing for a living? Am I likely to be emotionally satisfied doing this vs that?
Pay attention to your motivations: when you catch yourself wanting to do a certain thing because there is more money in it and your parents will approve, pay attention: you only need a certain amount of money and you are not alive so that others- including your parents- will think well of you.
What you need to be satisfied and well is what is going on in your head (thinking and feeling) – not in other people’s heads.
Patsy, by the way, reads like an unpleasant character, manipulative, bossy. What do you feel about her character?
anita
August 12, 2016 at 1:58 pm #112261JanusParticipanti love nature, but i think most of my career is headed in the medical field b/c i have a lot of information in my mind about human and animal systems. i want to be a molecular biologist and study how to help people prevent diseases such as cancer. i feel a bit sorry for patsy b/c i understand her frustration at alex getting the financial advisor when he lives in scotland while she lives with ivan in england. alex however doesn’t seem too perturbed at patsy b/c he wants to settle things in a simplistic way and that is what i like about him. i feel as if patsy reminds me of myself at times with andrew since we compete and the teachers seem to like andrew better. i don’t approve of her manipulation her father and her husband to possibly sell the golden cup, but i believe her reason is b/c she wants to salvage the brewery’s reputation. i think being a molecular biologist allows me to use my analytical skills to help others, while on the side i will be an environmental biologist and write poetry to help me relax. i really enjoy this tinybuddha forum b/c it has helped me realize more about myself. looking back at the first post, i was a lost confused teen unsure of my worth and now i’m starting to build my confidence and i know that whatever career i go into will probably relate to to science and health (includes mental, physical and spiritual). i think i might make my college essay titled “How the Blog changed my Life.”
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