also sometime near november 17, i got selected as “Most Memorable” for senior superlatives so i took a picture for the year book with my counterpart (the person who won the category with me) on december 1. i just got elected council of my Divine Essence coven on spellsofmagic.com. also i won the recording secretary for academic challenge in around october. i’m glad of these accomplishments. these are other reasons to tell my inner bully that what it says about me isn’t true.

so i think i may need teacher-student tutoring for java b/c i’m falling behind and it’s hard to think with 16 students yelling at once. there are 18 students and two are quiet (me and another girl). i got an 81 on my ap calc test and also i think it’s just nerves that get me for ap calc and ap biology b/c i understand the material until i get to the test and i’m nervous. i understand the logic of ap biology better than i do for ap calc, science just tends to come naturally to me even though i still have to work hard, while for ap calc sometimes the logic is a bit fuzzy, but i’m working on it. as the chapters go on, it’s starting to make sense for both ap classes.

i think that would be a good idea, but i feel like that accommodation is usually granted to people who have disabilities or depression. i’m not so sure having anxiety is much of a reason. so i have 26 more test corrections to do for ap biology by friday. currently working on vocab cards for ch.17 on how genes turn on codes for proteins and it’s pretty straightforward. i find that i understand java somewhat and can come up with some of the computer codes, but i’m not the best at it, but it makes sense. during the times when the classmates are not that loud and i can think better, i tend to be able to get most of the codes started and ask the teacher to edit. i’m trying to think of a way to study for the ap calc midterm that’s coming up in january, i’m thinking of doing practice problems from the book again. also for ap biology’s midterm, i’ll probably review my notes and look up some diagrams in the book. the good thing is that i’m making progress with my inner bully and today i started the morning with the inner bully for fifteen minutes and throughout the day, it faded away and didn’t bother me at all. steve and andrew were quite fun and also made me laugh. i like having both of them around b/c the more i am laid-back, the less my inner bully shows.

andrew has taught me how to laugh more even when things are hard. he makes me smile when he cracks jokes while we are studying ap biology. i can’t wait to see the certificate for the anniversary of this thread. you could possibly say “Tribute to Earth Angel Shirley’s Life Story” “This is in honor of the many setbacks she faced and the way she overcame them with her scientific wit and poetic prowess.” also put the date and title of this forum as well as the anniversary date. i think i have been experimenting with hypnosis so when the students are loud, i imagine i’m in a bubble and that bubble is oblivious to the chatter of the students and only me and the teacher are in the bubble.

thanks a lot:) so i think i want to study chromosomes and figure out some of the stuff that science is still lacking. since little is known about bdelloid rotifers and archaea, i might do more research and find some new stuff. i found a microscope at a flea market and i am going to ask my ap biology teacher for some coverslips so i can look at organisms. either i do that for a career or i study cancer cells in humans. i think i’m more interested in studying the chemical molecules in humans and figuring out what makes us really us. a privet shrub also has 46 chromosomes like us, but why are we human? why do we read those genes while they read those genes? i want to figure some things out and maybe i’ll discover some cool things. there are some publishing places in brick, nj that i think would be cool to submit my poems to. there is one called Hibernian Publishing. i am going to search for the most decent price ones. also the company hibernian publishing sounds like hibernation which reminds me of why i like the winter so much. it’s a lot quieter in the winter and i get to wear my favorite sweaters. andrew made a fun comment in ap biology saying that “i’m like a cub in hibernation during the winter. i pull on my sweatshirts and feel comfy in my quiet little den of warmth as my mind uses the fuel to problem solve.” in a way andrew’s comment is quite accurate, i like the winter b/c it’s quiet and i can hibernate without much people around. my inner bully likes to rage when there are people around that i don’t know well b/c i feel they are judging me. also my ap calc teacher is great at explaining things, i understand the things he goes over and i find it quite fun. i like the challenge of doing complicated problems with formulas and following the steps. i enjoy the steps behind things and not the logic with it. if you give a few blocks of wood and asked me to construct a box, i wouldn’t be sure where to start b/c i don’t understand the logic on how to build the box. this often goes with logic word problems, once a push gets me started i understand it better. going back to the box analogy, if you give me a picture of the finished box with labels of numbers adjoining sides, i would be able to figure out how to arrange the pieces of wood into a box. speaking of boxes a former chapter in ap calc was optimization and it talked about making a box out of paper with the biggest volume. optimization problems also have to do with things you are trying to maximize or minimize such as distance traveling somewhere and the cost.

i actually understand how to do a program to calculate interest for java, but i still don’t understand how to instantiate a class within a class and call the methods which is why i am still working on my bank account programs. i understand strings and i just recently learned about printf with formatted strings.

i know how to use a for loop and while loops and counters. i’m making progress in java:D