Hmm seems someone found my post to Alessa to be inappropriate??

No worries health wise. Life is to be lived not worried about. All we can do is to try. That is the strange thing about will. If we really want it then it will happen. If not then we float between here and there.

New project, yes. Want to hear more. What are we working on? For me, March means getting the tax papers together to file taxes before April 15th. When the weather is a little warmer, then oil changes for the car. Maybe repair a concrete stair or step. Maybe actually build the shed my wife wanted for the back yard. Don’t know. Depends on finances. Have had a couple of trees removed due to dangers of falling down and hitting power lines. That was a big hit in the pockets. So, slowing down projects.

On the subject of stories, short one.
There once was a philosopher and scholar who had devoted himself to the study of Zen for many years.
One day, he finally attained enlightenment.
He, then, took all of his books out into the yard and burned them all.

I think the value of the books are like the finger pointing to the moon.
Got to look up to the moon and not focus on the finger.

Anita,

Thanks for the reply. Umm, the finger in terms of health anxiety? Well, getting the finger in terms of health means something doesn’t like you being healthy. Nothing personal. Just bad luck. If I were to get bad news like the big C. Cancer then okay. Accept and move on .. the best I can. Don’t hate the cancer. Don’t dread the shortened lifespan. Just do what you think best with the time you have. There was a short video on Youtube which the woman was getting a speeding ticket. She didn’t care because the court date was past her expiration date. Later, she was rude to people she didn’t like. It was funny. Because people who would have been important has now become something else. And it was due to the way one looks at life, with what value.

Having anxiety in life’s situation is about how one thinks about or feels about the situation. If we give up on expectations and live in the moment then it could release some tension?? Sort of saying, Is that so?. The story of the man accused of being the father of the baby of the pregnant girl. The truth comes out after he takes care of the baby for a year. The girl and the real father of the baby want the baby back. If the man lamented his bad luck then he would suffer the incident again. Making his suffering worse. Instead did what he had to do as life presented itself.

Well, this is the way I see it. Only my opinion which doesn’t mean a whole lot. And should not be taken as advice for surely I am the one who needs advice the most. Listen and learn. Even if the words don’t make sense for now. Speaking of which, …. Looking up to the moon. Its meaning could be like religious people’s concern for getting into heaven. It is something far off. Don’t know if it is true. But, we think we can see it and reach for it. Sometimes, I wish I could dream another dream and live another life. Then, here I am again.

Would that mean, since I am broken that I was cracked before when I was made?? Maybe that would explain a few things? LOL.