When i was younger, i could have gone to art school to do a foundation course, and then perhaps fine art. But about the time i was thinking of this, my mother decided she was going to go to the art school. She told me i should help support her by doing housework. I ended up leaving and going to work.

Then as an adult, years later, having never recovered from abuse, i related this to a woman from a church who then criticised me and told me i should support her to do art. Well i then did encourage her and now i feel burnt out creatively again. I dont forgive either of them for the guilt they placed on me when i was struggling.

I feel mostly creatively blocked. I suppose that would please my mother.