Oh, the 😴 part 👍

As to the innocent part of yourself- what comes to my mind is that when you innocently approached your mother to hug her, she accused you of ulterior motives (non-innocence).

And about the fragile part- what comes to mind is that you wanted to hug her so calm that naturally fragile part, but she didn’t. So, maybe you denied that part of yourself?

🫂 Anita

Hey Nichole 🙂

I did previously let him know of the neighbor’s 🐔 🐔 🐔 walking a bit up the road and all hell broke loose (running after them and going crazy, scaring the chickens badly), so I learned my lesson 😑

The Mac and Cheese was excellent. I mixed it with eggs and other foods for the 🧀 flavor.

A cozy place, your kitty 😺, freedom ✨️- these sound ike wonderful things to be present with.
Do you think that you need more socializing- connecting with people?

I was at the taproom last afternoon (with Bogart) and was bored because other people were talking to each other and I wasn’t part of any conversation (beyond a bit of small talk).

Then an unfriendly man showed up (didn’t even return my hello) with a small dog who viciously barked at Bogart- that made me feel badly.

But then two women showed up (I know both and they are friendly and interactive), and it made all the positive difference.

Bogart is lying real close to me right now. He’s so adorably cute 😍

🐔 🐈 🐕 Anita

About 2 retire for the night 🌙 😴

Hey Dear Bee’s-Knees-Confused 🙂

When you “see her as such an innocent and kind soul” and you don’t want to “fail her”, it feels to me like you’re talking about a little girl- not a woman your age.

As if she’s a little girl and you (the grown-up) are responsible for her..

I can develop this thinking further, but I’ll wait to read your thoughts about it.

🐝 Anita

Hi Zenith:

I was thinking about you only yesterday! Good to hear from you, and please no worries about not posting for a while. I understand how it is.

Sounds like you’re overwhelmed with parenting and work and same-old-same-old. I wish you could have a vacation on your own and be away from everything and everyone for a while!

I am okay, tired after a long walk with my dog (did I tell you I have a dog, my first ever?)

Anita

Oh, yes, I do feel this way 🙂

* That last happy face emoji with its pink cheeks bothers me: it’s too happy to my liking.. Edit: 🙂- much better

Good evening, Thomas 🙂

Interruption? Not at all. It is truly a pleasure to read from you 🙏

And you getting carried away in your thoughts- please do (I do every day)

Good job 👏 fixing the hole in the tire and all the other mechanical fixing that you do!

In the last few years, I have spent more time and miles walking than driving, strange..?

Reading from you over time, I learned that you’re truly a dedicated father and husband. Admirable.

About death- true.. it is not energy destroyed. It’s energy transformed.

Allowing energy such as shame and guilt to transform while still alive in this (aging) body- is what is taking place in my mind and heart these very days, and that’s as happy as I can be 👍

Thank you, Thomas for asking, for posting, for sharing 🙏

🌙 🤍 Anita