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ParticipantDear Overthepoint:
First and foremost, congratulations on the incredible progress you’ve made in accepting yourself and overcoming addiction. This is a significant achievement, and you should be proud of yourself.
You shared that you faced significant challenges over the past seven years, including depression, anxiety, and addiction issues. Recently, particularly over the past 35 days, you experienced the following: “an impressive sense of liberation… deep sexual desires… a profound longing to live—fully live… a very intense torrent of energy… tremendous inner joy… a continuous state of mild ecstasy“.
The problem: “this energy is so intense that it demands all my attention, or at least I am unable to redirect it toward other things. Let’s say that it is so strong that, rather than moving me, it somehow paralyzes me“.
Chronic anxiety and depression are often associated with elevated levels of stress hormones like cortisol. Once you experienced positive changes, particularly overcoming addiction and achieving a sense of control over your life, the levels of these stress hormones may have decreased, leading to a sense of liberation and joy.
Also, during prolonged periods of anxiety and depression, the brain’s neurotransmitter levels, such as serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine, aka feel-good chemicals, are secreted at low levels. Once you experienced the positive changes you experienced, including acceptance and reconciliation with your sexuality, maybe your brain has been overcompensating in the last 35 days, secreting an excess of these feel-good chemicals.
I read that it’s not uncommon for the brain to experience periods of overcompensation, especially after prolonged low levels. However, this state is usually temporary as the brain works to re-establish balance. However, if the over-secretion continues for an extended period, it can lead to negative symptoms. It’s important therefore, to work with a healthcare professional or professionals. They can provide guidance on lifestyle changes, therapy, or medication if necessary.
It’s great therefore that you have an appointment with your psychologist coming up. In the meantime, you are welcome to share more about your thoughts, feelings and experiences here, in your thread, as long as it helps. Also, engaging in mindfulness practices or meditation, and in exercise, yoga, and/ or creative pursuits like writing or painting can help you regulate your emotions and redirect the energy in a positive way.
Be kind to yourself during this transition. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed at times. Remember that you’re on a path of healing and growth, and it’s important to give yourself grace and patience. You’re not alone in this, and there are many who can relate to your experiences. I remember that when I was very depressed for prolonged periods of time, every once in a wile, my brain.. sort of took a break from the depression and I felt intense joy, a feeling of being fully alive.
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ParticipantDear Riley:
It reads like you’re in a really tough situation with this friendship. It’s clear that you’ve put a lot of effort into understanding and supporting her, but it’s also essential to prioritize your own well-being.
In your three posts so far, you shared that the friendship is toxic and draining. Despite your attempts to communicate your discomfort to her and set boundaries, she dismissed your concerns. Even though you feel that the friendship is toxic to you, and that distancing yourself from her would be better for your well-being, you find yourself returning to her because of loneliness.
Your friend appears to be self-focused, often centering conversations around her own problems and needs. She seems to have a binary view of friendships—either very close with constant communication, or nothing at all. Understandably, this all-or-nothing approach is overwhelming for others.
She has shared that she is diagnosed with bipolar disorder and has a history of psychological problems. Her interaction with the therapist, where she felt traumatized by the therapist’s wording and overreacted, according to you, suggests she might struggle with professional relationships as well.
Her sensitivity to criticism makes it difficult for her to accept feedback. She disregards your boundaries, sharing personal stories and details despite your discomfort. Her behavior indicates a lack of respect for your feelings and privacy.
One reason you have tolerated this so far is your loneliness. There may be other reasons, and you can share, if you would like, what of the following reasons apply to you, if any: maybe you hope that she will change and become more considerate over time. Maybe knowing about her psychological struggles and diagnosis evokes empathy in you, causing you to tolerate more than you would tolerate from other people. Maybe the time and emotional investment that you already put in the friendship makes it difficult to let go, and maybe ending the friendship could create awkwardness in social settings with mutual friends (..???)
It’s important to acknowledge, Riley, how this friendship is affecting your mental and emotional health. Feeling drained and used is a significant sign that this relationship is not be healthy for you. Consider what you truly need from a friendship: mutual respect, understanding, and a balance that allows you to feel valued and comfortable. Your instincts are telling you that distancing yourself will better for your long-term well-being. It’s okay to listen to that inner voice and prioritize your health.
If you decide that ending the friendship is the best course of action, do so with compassion. You can explain your need for space and wish her well without diving into criticisms or past grievances. Ending a friendship is not easy, but sometimes it’s necessary for your own health. You deserve relationships that uplift and support you.
You wrote: “as soon as we stop talking I feel very lonely and try to get in contact with her again“- I wonder about your relationships with other people, family, other friends..? And I wonder if you would like to elaborate on your loneliness experience?
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ParticipantDear Anonymous:It sounds like you’re in a challenging situation with this friendship. Here are a few thoughts that might help you navigate your feelings and decision:It’s important to recognize what you need from a friendship and what your boundaries are. You mentioned feeling discomfort with the constant need for interaction and sharing all private stories. It’s perfectly okay to want a balance that respects your personal space and boundaries.If you decide to continue the friendship, consider having a candid conversation with her about how you feel. Gently express your need for balance and space without making her feel criticized. For example, you could say, “I value our friendship, but I also need some time for myself to recharge.”Reflect on how the friendship affects you overall. If being around her is more often negative than positive, it might be worth considering the long-term impact on your mental and emotional health. Friendships should ideally uplift and support you.If the thought of ending the friendship abruptly is overwhelming, consider gradually reducing the frequency of contact. This way, you can create some distance without completely cutting ties, giving yourself time to assess how you feel.Focus on self-care and seek support from other friends or activities that make you feel good. Loneliness can sometimes draw us back to familiar but unhealthy patterns. Building a supportive network can help alleviate the feeling of loneliness.Ultimately, trust your instincts. If you feel that stepping back from the friendship is better for your well-being, it’s okay to prioritize yourself. True friends will respect your need for space and understand your decision.Remember, it’s essential to prioritize your well-being in any relationship. It’s okay to step back or set boundaries if it means taking care of yourself.
Warm regards,
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ParticipantDear Charles:
Thank you for sharing your thoughtful insights on using compassion to navigate fear and anxiety. Your approach resonates deeply, highlighting the transformative power of compassion both towards others and ourselves.
Your suggestion to recognize fear and anxiety without judgment is incredibly powerful. By acknowledging these feelings as natural responses to perceived threats, we can reduce self-criticism and understand our experiences more compassionately.
Imagining how we would comfort a friend and extending that same kindness to ourselves is a practice that many of us overlook. Your reminder to offer ourselves words of encouragement, like “It’s okay to feel this way. I’m here for you,” is a comforting and practical way to address emotional struggles.
The reminder that everyone experiences fear and anxiety at some point helps foster a sense of solidarity and shared humanity. Knowing that we are not alone in our struggles can be incredibly reassuring.
Asking ourselves what we need in the moment and responding with kindness—whether it’s taking a walk, calling a friend, journaling, or resting—emphasizes the importance of self-care. This approach helps us meet our needs with compassion rather than reactivity.
“Through compassion, we can soften the edges of fear and anxiety, transforming them into opportunities for growth and understanding. It’s not about making the discomfort disappear but rather embracing ourselves fully—even in our most vulnerable moments“- your message conveys the idea that the goal is to embrace oneself fully, even during times of discomfort and vulnerability, rather than trying to eliminate the discomfort, is inspiring, and it aligns beautifully with the concept of self-compassion.
Ending with the affirmation that we are all worthy of kindness, patience, and love—especially from ourselves—serves as a powerful reminder of the importance of self-acceptance and self-care.
Thank you again for sharing your wisdom and warmth. Your message is a beacon of hope and kindness, encouraging us all to approach our struggles with compassion.
With gratitude,
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ParticipantDear Zenith:
Thank you (always) for sharing your feelings with me. You’ve been through a lot, and it’s understandable that these experiences shaped your views on trust and friendship.
It’s great that you have such a strong support system in your family. Having people who are consistently there for you is incredibly important, especially during tough times.
It is difficult, sometimes very difficult, when people we think we can rely on change or move on. Your feelings are valid, and it’s okay to feel the way you do.
Considering giving your daughter a sibling because of this is a big decision. It’s wonderful that you want to ensure she has a strong support system, just like you do. Balancing this desire with practical concerns, like affordability, is important. Remember, the love and support you provide as a parent are already a strong foundation for her.
* A personal note: my mother expressed to me that she had my sister (6 years after I was born) so to give me a support system. Unfortunately, and I suspect partly because of the age gap, having a (much younger) sister did not provide support to me while I was growing up.
Building trust and friendships can take time and can be difficult, especially with the experiences you’ve had (this is true to me too, give my experiences!). It’s okay to take things at your own pace and to focus on those relationships that make you feel safe and valued.
Whenever you want to talk more about this, I’m here for you.
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ParticipantDear Peter:
The canvas metaphor which you presented in your original post in this thread (almost 6 months ago, June 20) and returned to yesterday (“Back to the canvas metaphor…“) is one that I studied, got excited about.. and then forgot about it. I want to resurrect it and make a practical use of it in my life today.
As I understand it, and according to my research today, the metaphor extends to life and existence, suggesting that every moment holds infinite potential and is connected to the eternal present. Yesterday, you expressed that the metaphor illustrates the cumulative nature of choices and actions. Each choice influences the next, leading to a developed style that limits creativity, limiting the infinite potential in every moment. The idea is to keep the canvas “blank” to avoid accumulation and remain truly free.
Just as the canvas remains blank and holds infinite potential, beliefs can confine us by defining boundaries and limiting our perception of potential. True freedom lies in embracing the blank canvas of existence, free from accumulated beliefs and fears.
The blank canvas metaphor is quite similar to the concept of “beginner’s mind.“, “Shoshin“, in Zen Buddhism. The blank canvas symbolizes a fresh start, unburdened by previous strokes or accumulated actions. The beginner’s mind refers to approaching life with an open, eager, and uncluttered perspective, as if seeing things for the first time. It involves being free from preconceived notions and open to all possibilities.
The idea that the canvas remains blank, even as it gets painted, suggests living in the present moment and realizing that each moment holds limitless potential. Practicing a beginner’s mind means embracing the present moment without the baggage of past experiences or judgments, allowing one to fully engage with the here and now.
Avoiding the accumulation of brush strokes to maintain the canvas’s blank state is akin to not letting past actions or memories define or limit one’s current experience. Similarly, the beginner’s mind encourages letting go of accumulated knowledge and experiences to see things afresh, thereby avoiding the constraints that come from past conditioning.
Both the blank canvas metaphor and the beginner’s mind encourage a state of openness, potential, and living in the present without being constrained by past experiences or preconceived notions. They both advocate for a fresh, unrestricted approach to life and creativity.
Thank you Peter for sharing these insightful reflections. They provide much food for thought and inspire a deeper contemplation, on my part.
And now … Blank.
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ParticipantDear EvFran:
You are welcome, EvFran, so very welcome. I remember so well how you stood up for me, coming to my aid back in Feb last year, when few- if any did. Yes, you can count on my support, you deserve nothing less!
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ParticipantDear Zenith:
It’s great to read that you’re doing well and had a fun time at Disney! Spending time with family and seeing your little one so happy must have been wonderful. It sounds like you had a really nice trip to Disney. Family moments like these are special and create great memories.
It’s normal to feel emotional about your child growing up. Those feelings of time passing quickly can be bittersweet.
Good to read that you made peace with your friend. Setting boundaries is smart, especially if you don’t want to get hurt again. It’s good that you can still meet for your kids’ sake.
Worrying about getting older is a common concern, even for someone in their mid-30s. At 35, many people reflect on the past and future goals. Even though 35 or so, is still young, some people start noticing physical changes, such as slower metabolism or the beginning of age-related health concerns. Concerns about financial stability and planning for retirement can become more pronounced, and uncertainty of future economic conditions contribute to these worries.
Maintaining and building strong social support networks becomes more important as people think about their future social life.
I hope that you connect with reasonable and supportive people and find ways to manage your anxiety best you can.
You’re doing great, and it’s okay to feel the way you do. Whenever you someone to talk to, I’m here.
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ParticipantDear Zenith: So good reading such a positive update! I will reply further when I am back to the computer later in the day.
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ParticipantDear EvFran:
Thank you for your kind words, and it’s good to know that you are around as well 🙂
It’s completely understandable to feel horrible and frustrated in such a difficult situation. You’ve done everything you can to support your uncle. You made sure he has access to all the necessary information and support, which is a testament to your care and thoughtfulness. I admire your care and dedication to him and it being for such a long time.
Sometimes (maybe often), despite our best efforts, we can’t change how others respond. It’s important to acknowledge your feelings and give yourself credit for all that you’ve done.
You made significant personal sacrifices for your uncle’s well-being. Realizing that you need to prioritize your own life and well-being is a crucial and brave step. It’s okay to make decisions that ensure your own happiness and health. It’s inspiring to hear that you’re planning for your future and seeking positive changes.
Maybe the following affirmations will help you along the way: I have the strength to overcome challenges and build the life I want,
I deserve to take care of myself and prioritize my well-being,
I am capable of achieving my goals and creating a fulfilling future.
You have a lot to offer, and taking this time for yourself will help you heal and grow. If you ever need someone to talk to or more support, I’m here for you!
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ParticipantDear EvFran: good to read back from you, I’ll read and reply on about 14 hours from now (I know you like me saying this, that I’ll be back in so and so many hours 😊)
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ParticipantContinued:
The Return to Love, return from Anger,
Return to Togetherness, return from Aloneness.
From Fear back to Trust.
Although I grew up with fiery eyes and a bitter, oh such a bitter, unforgettable, unforgivable tongue, words of spite harshly, oh, so cruelly flung, I now choose to known love, and let love be known through me,
I choose to notice and acknowledge any bit of Love expressed by others, and respond to it with Love.
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ParticipantContinued, Dear Reader, a poem:
In the heat of Anger, when temper roars,
There whispers soft, gentle grace,
A Love that yearns to take its place.
Through fiery eyes and bitter tongue,
Where words of spite are harshly flung,
Love’s tender touch begins its dance,
A chance to heal, a sweet romance.
It weaves through storms with silken thread,
To soothe the wounds where anger bled,
With every tear, and every cry,
It lifts the heart, it clears the sky.
For love does not with anger vie,
But stands its ground and pacifies,
It melts the ice, it calms the fire,
And leads the soul to higher spire.
In moments dark, when rage appears,
And fills the world with doubts and fears,
Love’s gentle hand will guide the way.
So let not anger rule the night,
For love will shine, a beacon bright,
With patience, kindness, tender care,
Love triumphs over anger, everywhere.
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ParticipantHow are you, Zenith???
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ParticipantHow are you me, and how is your father?
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