Tati

We all want find and connect with that special person ….. it is good that you understand this man is not one. I wish you joy and happiness …. and know you will find that special person that will fill your days and night . Keep the faith

Tony

Dear Chatty Lady

Another point of interest, all marriages have hard times . After the birth of children , especially the first child, can be especially hard. The excitement of youth, love and freedom are replace overnight by responsibility , demands and limitations .

When you child begin to have a level of self containment ( around 4 years old) to you feel you can start reclaiming your life. It is possible that “this guy” represents a fast track back to your old self.

Tony

Miyoid

Reading your post I am impressed with quality of your writing, the depth of your feeling , your passion and the colourful interpretation you captured from one simple photo is truly amazing. The pain and pattern of your thought process is so profoundly expressive. I read a book recently by Emily Ruskovich called Idaho, your quality of anguished writing is similar . A terrible beauty fighting to be find meaning, to be understood and ultimately to be loved.

I am dyslexic, I write and cry later when I see my stupid spelling and grammar mistakes, I am always so impressed by people with your talent. Success is a fight to over come your weakness and fears, some say you spend your adult life trying to understand your childhood.  I succeeded in areas I though I was weak, I tried so hard not been seen as stupid I succeeded beyond my wildest expectations. In school teachers would rank us 1 to 48, yes we had 48 pupils in our class room, I was always in the mid 40’s, a few from the bottom. I hated it , this experience added rocket fuel to my drive, my relentless competitive drive … it’s only in recent years I have begun to realise that I have arrived.

You could write a book based on that simple photo posted by the sea side , I suggest you use you deep personal search for meaning to write.

Tony

Miyoid

You are not along being trapped in nostalgia. It is clear you had a good childhood and now compare your life with good memories from the past. We are all products of our experiences , so all people are nostalgic to different degrees. Overall, I see nothing wrong with creating experiences that made you happy.

Actually, there is no such thing as success, so long as the projects you do satisfy your curiosity good things usually fall into place.

I had a post here explaining the root of my deep nostalgia , a regular contributor called me a liar and ridiculed me, a total character assassination, so I deleted my post and find it hard to now trust people on this site …. but I am trying to over come this .

You write that you felt exploited, why do you feel exploited ?

Tony

Time moves on and what was an important issue back then is nothing now …. that is the beauty of time