Hugs Anita. The surgeon’s off once called not long ago to say he has been called away for an emergency so they have overbooked me for Wednesday afternoon.  I’m going to head home soon.  Feeling pretty tired from working the weekend. I finished 9.30 this morning. Work was good though. Definitely the best job I have had.

Maybe sounds trivial, but in trying to have with some grace, I have slightly changed my appearance and way of dressing. The perfumes I was using recently seemed way too heavy so I found a nice scent I have liked for a long time which is much more gentle.  Do you know it?  It is popular and is called MOR and is a blend of rose with a hint of marshmallow and vanilla. Soothing to me.  I’m going to have a long shower when I get home and bought some Dove Vanilla Body Wash.

I bought some very natural colored eye shadows. I had neglected my skin for these last 2 months, and that and the sadness and not looking after myself aged me many more years than just 2 years.  Not my imagination as my dear friend said  something to me about it months ago.  Im starting to look better now.

Dog has had x-rays and I’m hoping to find out the results soon.

Who knows what could h as open in the near future, buttons morning when I woke, I read that Ukranian diplomats will be having discussions with Russian diplomats at the border soon.  I pray for everyone’s safety.

Thank you so much Anita. Yes, I am optimistic, and I believe I will cope with this well. It’s been taking l longer for operations through the public system because during COVID, the health system postponed most surgeries there is a back log but I expect it to be within a few weeks.

Oh my dogs have saved ME. I have had this do f since he was 7 weeks old.  He gets so excited to see m when I get home e and never goes far from my side. If I get up in the middle of the night, no matter how tired he is, he gets up with me.  I’m sure he does it to check I am okay.  He won’t go to bed until I do.  I really get why they say dog sickens best for er nd.  I have a second dog with quite a different personality, but amazing as well in  different ways. She s very old, and I have a dig stroller for her now when we go for walks and she loves it.

I will post at a in tomorrow after I have seen surgeon and tell you what he says.  Thanks so much f o r your message encouragement and support. X

Hi Anita,

Surprisingly I’m not nervous about tomorrow or the surgery as I have been down this path before. 2011 and 2012 were pretty terrible as I was in hospitals every 6 weeks having some type 9f te set and procedure.  In 2012 after looking inside, they found 11 tiny tumors. I  was devastated and convinced th a t I would die, but that didn’t happy e n again and I only got one or 2 at a time and they were picked up when small.

I’m more worried about my dog.  He was millionaire extra clingy with me as he is when he us unwell, and it’s hard c to leave pets when they are unwell.  My friend and I decided that I f we are not satisfied after this next vet visit where he will have more x-rays, we are going to travel to a city in the next state where they have a veterinary university who c h is meant to be the be day place to take dogs wh e re the diagnosis is uncertain as they get looked at by a whole te a m of gets.  It’s going to cost me a bit this week with vet fees, but he is worth every cent.

I hope we were to better news about the Ukraine. Putin is a lunatic.

Thank you Peter.  I will try your suggestions.

Honeyblossom just came into my head not so much because I feel it represents me – more that it is something I like- a flower which sustains life and healing – although I have been told I have honey blonde hair!

I’m feeling somewhat improved.  I’m working over the weekend so I rested up as much as O could, but did manage to get some important red kk s, and my friend visited in the afternoon. She made me laugh!

I started reading more articles at Tiny Budha and started a new journal to focus objectively.

I have been aware for a time of feeling unpleasantness in both my chest and stomach.  I feel certain this is emotional. I believe the chest sensation is unresolved grief and in my stomach, I am experiencing anxiety.

I am going to Google for meditation exercises to release chakra blockages. Have you ever done that?

Thanks so much Anita.  Lovely to be communicating with you too.  Enjoy your walk! 🙂