Thanks I would like to meditate but I feel like I can’t rest my mind.

To still the mind notice the inner narrator.

Ear’s hear, eyes see, skin sense, tongue taste , heart beats, lungs breathe…. mind narrates.

Seeing, hearing, tasting… these are happenings. There is no-thing to make happen, happenings happen. Yet the ‘I’ (and language) likes to think it can and so tends to get in the way.

Your breathing and then someone tells you to breath… what changes? Its funny, if one is asked to be spontaneous can your response to that ask be spontaneous? Even if you might be spontaneous language will prevent you from proving it so the wise remain silent.  Thus we come to the inner narrator.

In meditation one is asked to breathe and the narrator, narrating on the breathe and maybe even try to take over. I think the idea is that the narrator will get distracted on the breath and turn from a narrator into a silent detached observer of the breathe….

That kind of works until the narrator gets bored and or uncomfortable when it notices that ‘no I’ is breathing, there is just breathing, just the happening. The narrator realizing that its not and can’t make happenings happen wonders about its own existence. If afraid of such a question it fills the empty space meditation with random thoughts and memories.

Practicing the practice the inner narrator might notice the problem isn’t existence but with language, the problem of naming everything as if the name is the thing, the narrator might notice it can watch with out naming and still exist. The inner narrator might even find it enjoys the rest and role as observer. The observer with no name, just is.

Happenings happen, eyes see, ears hear….

We are a drop of water in the ocean

We are a drop in the ocean and the drop contains the entire ocean.  A circle whose center is everywhere and circumference nowhere. We are not brought into the world but out of it, so cannot be separated from IT. Everything connected, everything belongs.

LOL and I’m not even Drunk

We see the world as we are not as it is. The world isn’t broken, the task then isn’t to fix the world (as if we had the power and control to do so, (thinking which is what gets us into these messes) but to clarify how we see ourselves so that we might better see and respond the world as it is.

My suspicion is that a honest engagement in that task will naturally lead to compassion and contentment (bliss) with the realization we are not separate from each other or the world in which we live.  We become water, we flow….

To clarify what I think happens. Ego consciousness does not trust the flow that is Life and so fears that death is the end. Worse this ego self not only doesn’t trust the process that is Life this false self attempts to control Life, which it can’t, and so finding itself frustrated, digs in, and digging in wishes to die. The very thing its resisting.

Essentially the ego self is saying NO to Life which is like spitting in the wind. If true the way out isn’t some imagined UP but though, getting to a place of trusting Life to be Life. A YES that I suspect leads to a further step of a ‘knowing‘ that Life as It Is, is Love.

Other Outtakes from the Midnight Library that feel appropriate:

“Sometimes just to say your own truth out loud is enough to find others like you.”

“The paradox of volcanoes was that they were symbols of destruction but also life. Once the lava slows and cools, it solidifies and then breaks down over time to become soil – rich, fertile soil.
She wasn’t a black hole, she decided. She was a volcano. And like a volcano she couldn’t run away from herself. She’d have to stay there and tend to that wasteland.
She could plant a forest inside herself.”

“Want,’ is an interesting word. It means lack. Sometimes if we fill that lack with something else the original want disappears entirely.”

“And even if you were a pawn – maybe we all are – then you should remember that a pawn is the most magical piece of all. It might look small and ordinary but it isn’t. because a pawn is never just a pawn. A pawn is a queen-in-waiting. All you need to do is find a way to keep moving forward. One square after another. And you can get to the other side and unlock all kinds of power.”

“It is quite a revelation to discover that the place you wanted to escape to is the exact same place you escaped from. That the prison wasn’t the place, but the perspective.”

“Nora had always had a problem accepting herself. From as far back as she could remember, she’d had the sense that she wasn’t enough. Her parents who both had their own insecurities, had encouraged that idea.
She imagined, now, what it would be like to accept herself completely. Every mistake she had ever made. Every mark on her body. Every dream she had ever made. Every dream she hadn’t reached or pain she had felt. Every lust or longing she had suppressed.
She imagined accepting it all. The way she accepted nature. The way she accepted a glacier or a puffin or the breach of a whale.
She imagined seeing herself as just another brilliant freak of nature. Just another sentient animal, trying her best.
And in doing so, she imagined what it was like to be free.”

Hi Lorm

Thoughts are a happening. The more you try or will yourself not to engage some thought the longer it lingers. Frustrating as from the point of view of the mind trying our not trying to engage with a though is the same thing. In both cases your holding on to it and blocking flow.

As Helcat mentioned Meditation techniques could help. “Oh here is that fantasy again”, engage or don’t engage, whatever you choose do so without judgment as it the judgment that clings to such things and prevents flow.

You might notice that when you don’t apply judgments to having the fantasy you might go a step further and examine the judgments your making about the fantasies your having, the desire for relationship. In the fantasy what are you labeling as good, bad, if only, shoulds…  At that point you might make such judgements conscious and being conscious allow them to inform you vice block you.

A fantasy becomes unskillful when it becomes a trick used to hide away from life rather then engaging with life. In a fantasy world one appears to a have more control so it may ‘feel’ safer, and being safer can become a pleasant trap.  My owe experience with getting stuck in fantasy has been linked to a desire of the ego for control (both illusions). Something one can address in meditation.

Hi Helcat
The African Yoruba religion have a interesting take on reincarnation is that the soul actually chooses the experience they wish to have in life.  No training required. I have a friend that believes this as it give her comfort.

From what I read of the wisdom traditions with regards to choosing ones next life, it stars with ‘knowing one self’ so that you can ‘see’ reality clearly and thier by respond to it vice react. Then you get face with the challenge of coming to terms with the problem of opposites, duality, binary thinking.   You can see the problem of binary thinking played out on social media where everything seems to be either or, like – dislike, with me – against me, all or nothing. Language doesn’t help as its dependent on contrasting and implying the opposite.

Funny thing as the problem of opposites becomes resolved within ones experience, words disappear including the ‘I’ which I think Rob hints at.

I’d be very interested in you take on a problem I’ve had with Buddhism and other traditions. In Buddhism only the Now exists yet many of the concepts and teachings appear to be projected onto some future and that seems like a contradiction.

Lately when I read about such things from various wisdom traditions I’ve been re-referencing the teachings to the Now. Is what I’m learning about the Now? In that context the teachings seem to resonate. Heaven is now, nirvana is now, hell is now, purgatory is now, death is now, life is now…  If we don’t notice its because we see the world as we are not as it is, we get in the way. So the work (training) is so that we see ourselves better and doing so get out of the way. (surprise the self, small s, disappears as does separateness.)

Using the story of the Garden, Adam and Eve gain the knowledge or good and evil. Note that  ‘knowledge of‘ is not the same as the ‘knowledge of what is‘ and so we have tension between the opposites. This tension gives birth to ego consciousness, language and the problem of opposites.  How can something be good one moment and bad the next? Its a problem, and the first thing Adam and Eve note with this new ego consciousness is that they are separate, maybe not good and naked where being naked is judged shameful. So they try to hide and cover themselves up with layers of ‘clothing’ – personas/masks.

The end is in the beginning, babies become conscious though the tension of opposite and the suspicion of separation from mother.  Then we spend the rest of our lives trying to undo that experience which all the wisdom traditions point to involving learning to see through the problem of opposites and a realization that we arn’t and never were separate ‘I’s’.

You, me, everyone, everything is IT and that is a happening and possibility of every Now.

No Idea if that made any sense just seeing where the thoughts go. Still thanks for allowing me to express them.

During the process of death and rebirth there is an opportunity to choose which realm you are born into.

Not sure if ‘choose’ is the correct word. If in that perspective life and death are a “something” that is separate or a experience that is projected to some future end/beginning then karma/memory (seeing the world as we are not as it is) is a huge factor in that notion of choice. Begs the question how to see the world as it is and so respond to it as it is? The answer involves getting out of the ‘I’ out of the way.  Thus we work for that which no work is required as thier is no I.

From another perspective ‘death and rebirth’ is THE realty of every “Now”- every breath a opportunity to get out of the way.

What you are in your in-most being escapes your examination in rather the same way that you can’t look directly into your own eyes without using a mirror, you can’t bite your own teeth, you can’t taste your own tongue, and you can’t touch the tip of this finger with the tip of this finger – Watts

The I does not exist as sperate. Nothing is separate and everything belongs.

“Your real self, the real you, is everything there is… but concentrated and expressing itself at the point called your physical organism.”

“We are all floating in a tremendous river and the river carries you along. Some of the people in the river are swimming against the current, but they are still being carried along. Others have learned that the art of the thing is to swim with it. You have to flow with the river. There is no other way. You can swim against it, and pretend not to be flowing with it. But you still flow with the river. Swimming Headless

“When you know that you have to go with the river, suddenly you acquire—behind everything that you do—the power of the river.” – Watts

I might recommend Joseph Campbell ‘Pathways to Bliss: Mythology and Personal Transformation’

Campbell defined myth as “other people’s religion.” But he also said that one of the basic functions of myth is to help each individual through the journey of life, providing a sort of travel guide or map to reach fulfillment — or, as he called it, bliss. For Campbell, many of the world’s most powerful myths support the individual’s heroic path toward bliss.

In Pathways to Bliss, Campbell examines this personal, psychological side of myth.  Here he anchors mythology’s symbolic wisdom to the individual, applying the most poetic mythical metaphors to the challenges of our daily lives.

Campbell dwells on life’s important questions. Combining cross-cultural stories with the teachings of modern psychology, he examines the ways in which our myths shape and enrich our lives and shows how story/myth can help each of us truly identify and follow our bliss.

Another book you may like is  “Reflections on the Art of Living – A Joseph Campbell Companion” by Diane K. Osbon