May 7, 2021 at 8:34 am #379341
I want to take some time readjusting my habits and will not be posting for more than a few weeks on social media.
I read what you posted and I am going to find that third group you spoke of the old fashioned way. I want to find that third group.
Thank you again for all the help you provided for me and your endless empathy. Look forward to communicating with you again sometime in July.May 7, 2021 at 9:11 am #379346
You are very welcome and thank you for your appreciation. I wish you well and am looking forward to communicate with you again when you are back.
anitaMay 18, 2021 at 7:27 pm #380062
I am not posting to you this evening so to pressure you to post again, not at all. I am posting just to let you know that someone is thinking about you, hoping that you are okay, someone wishing you a good Tuesday night. Good night, Lisa.
anitaFebruary 20, 2022 at 4:28 am #393199
Just checking in…I see it’s been awhile since I posted. How are you?
LisaFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:06 am #393203
I am fine, thank you. How are you???
anitaFebruary 21, 2022 at 9:54 am #393249
Last time you shared something substantial about yourself was on January 27, 2021, more than a year ago. You posted on that day: “I have tried to make people like me by being of some service to them. Never saying no… I want to be around people. They do not want to be around me” –
During this last year, Jan 2021-February 2022 (1) Did you try to make people like you by being of service to them and never saying no? (2) Did you want to be around any person in particular and did anyone express wanting to be around you?
anitaMarch 15, 2022 at 8:29 am #395214
How are you, Lisa?
anitaApril 1, 2022 at 6:06 am #396660
Glad to hear you are fine. To answer your questions, I continue to try and please people for my own survival. I have given up on them liking me.
In my life I have wanted to be around numerous people but you know the rest…
Sorry to just be getting back to you.
LisaApril 1, 2022 at 3:24 pm #396690
I am glad to read back from you.
You wrote today: “I continue to try and please people for my own survival… In my life I have wanted to be around numerous people, but you know the rest…” – I wanted to take this opportunity to remind myself of some of the rest, particularly what you wrote about your own survival by going over some of our past communication.
I re-read my detailed and thorough summary of your life story which I posted Jan 30, 2021, on this thread; no need to repeat it here because you can go back and read, if you wish. You clearly suffered a lot, from the very beginning of your life, possibly when still in the womb as your teenage mother possibly abused drugs while pregnant with you; you suffered abandonment, abuse at home, bullying at school… so much suffering so early in life- it is heart breaking!!!
And you suffered Alone (Alone is the title of your first thread): “I feel I was left to figure it out on my own and I have learned nothing more than to just survive“, you wrote years ago.
On December 2, 2018, you wrote: “Anita yes, I am anxious all the time and I have been basically all my life… Yes, I am always afraid“.
April 17, 2020: “I never had control over anything“.
May 14, 2020: “I can’t see myself as anything but a victim. I was a good child and so many things worked against me becoming a good adult. The same people who abandoned me and tore away at my self-esteem, rolled their eyes at me, betrayed me… I needed help a long time ago and they let me sink… When I’m upset, no one comes to me. When I’m calm no one comes to me, when appear happy no one comes to me“.
I keep coming back to you, for years, in the context of your two threads. I want to read more from you, I want to read how you find some peace of mind and heart within yourself, to read that you no longer suffer unnecessarily. I want you to feel okay as much as I want myself to feel okay, as much as I want any suffering person to feel okay!!!
anitaApril 2, 2022 at 2:33 pm #396711
Wow, Anita, thank you for going to the trouble to look back at my posts.I really appreciate it. Thank you also for staying with me on this forum. There are some things that have improved and other things that have become worse like my physical problems. I will post in more depth in the near future, I promise.
LisaApril 2, 2022 at 3:20 pm #396712
You are welcome and thank you for posting back to me! I am looking forward to your next more in-depth post, when you have the space in your mind and in your day to post next.
anitaMay 12, 2022 at 3:18 pm #399993
I am checking on you, a month and ten days since last post, just wanted to let you know that you are not forgotten.