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  • #324457
    anita
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    Dear Angelgirl:

    Thank you for your appreciation and kindness. Do post here anytime. Whenever you do, I will be glad to read what you post and reply.

    anita

    #330477
    anita
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    Happy New Year, Angelgirl !

    anita

    #330481
    Angelgirl
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    Happy new year Anita. I hope 2020 brings you lots of happiness, success and luck. I thought of you earlier today as I spent Christmas alone and also new year on my own. I felt a bit sad yesterday but I’m ending the year in a good job. Personal life is non existent but I told someone that I didn’t want to meet as I’m not interested in anything casual. I’m able to take a stand and will look after myself in 2020 !

    #330483
    anita
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    Dear Angelgirl:

    Good to read back from you! Thank you for your good wishes, congratulations for standing up for yourself, as the worthy woman that you are, and please do look after yourself in this coming year. Post again anytme.

    anita

    #330489
    Angelgirl
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    Thank you Anita and I’ll keep going. And feeling more worthy about myself. I thank you for helping me this year. I’m very grateful.

    #330491
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Angelgirl:

    You are welcome, and I thank you for always being so very appreciative and gracious.

    anita

    #333649
    Angelgirl
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    Hi Anita

    I just wanted to write about how I was feeling somewhere and this post came to mind. I had a good day at work but I haven’t been well the last few days. My mate from Paris came to visit over the weekend and told me all about how happy she is with her husband and how he looks after her. Why do people hurt you like that? She knows I’ve been single for years. I am trying to date but I don’t want to set my standards short and have messy relationships again. People who I don’t want to chat to keep coming back while no one nice says hello. Are some people like me just unloveable? We just won’t see any love in this lifetime? Do I accept it and go on? I know you said that you’ve got to go on and live in hope but nothing changes. The same old awful people keep coming back coz they feel that they can use me. I’ll be 45 in April and want to go on a solo holiday. I always thought I would be with someone but that wasn’t meant to be. And then my mate says- oh what will happen if something happens to you? Who will come and rescue you? I wanted to say – who has looked after me when I was unwell since Sunday? I had to get up, cook and try and do some work as it’s relatively a new job. I don’t have those luxuries in life and I don’t complain. But why are people hurtful? Why do they come and thrust it in my face when I don’t ask for that information or invite them? The married man, the friend with benefits. My ex husband – these are the only people who want to chat with me. Obviously everyone who didn’t treat me well. I don’t want to meet any of them. Will my fate ever change? On days like today, I truly despair and had to write. I’m so sorry !

    #333675
    anita
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    Dear Angelgirl:

    It is inconsiderate for this woman to go on and on about how her husband looks after her if she knows that this is your sore point, that you are not married and you don’t have a man to look after yourself. If she is fully aware of this being so painful to you, then she is bragging, showing off, feeling good about seeing envy in your eyes. Which means that she is not  so happy, needing to extract happiness by bragging to you.

    Question is: how can you meet a man who is decent and who is interested in a long term, committed relationship. Such men exist, and you need only one of these men so to change this fate you mentioned, that is, your status of being a single woman, not in a love relationship.

    You can’t change this former friend-with-benefits, nor can you/ were you able to change your ex husband. This is why it is crucial to locate just one decent man who doesn’t require changing!

    anita

    #333683
    Angelgirl
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    I’m not giving up hope Anita. But sometimes, I wonder why people are cruel when they know that I’ve been single since 2013. I don’t invite myself to any of their homes and mind my business here and only ever think of going on a solo holiday. It feels like people talk to me so that they feel better about their lives. Which is very sad. I don’t have many friends but most are married or with boyfriends. I hope they are happy – I don’t intrude and don’t want anything from them. I guess that is how the world is. Cruel towards someone who didn’t have the right opportunities in her personal life. I’ll accept it. Thank you for writing to me. It was a difficult day but I am growing and accepting. It’s all I can do.

    #333693
    anita
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    Dear Angelgirl:

    You are welcome. If a friend is a good friend, and you tell that friend that it bothers you to hear her stories about her good relationship because you don’t have one, that friend will stop telling you her stories. If she is not a good friend, but an acquaintance who likes bragging, better not spend any time with her, not on the phone and not in person.

    Think about what I said, about needing only one decent man in your life. It is possible for you, maybe in that solo holiday, maybe with some planning and figuring if and how you can possibly make it happen.

    anita

    #333697
    Angelgirl
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    I didn’t tell her that it bothers me. Her happiness doesn’t. I am happy for her. But I don’t need the details. She was with me at university. I haven’t seen her in over 2 years despite being best friends. But no need to gloat about her life. But it’s not just her. Everyone I know seems to do it and expects me to listen and be quiet.

    I don’t know if it’s possible on my solo holiday but I’ll be positive and go on. I just know family and friends can be cruel. What can I expect from strangers then?? I’ve always known it but some days are just harder than others. Thank you so much for replying to my posts.

    #333699
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Angelgirl:

    Maybe she didn’t know that it bothers you because you didn’t tell her. I understand that it is not her expressed happiness that bothers you but the reason she is happy (being married/ in a love relationship) but you don’t want the details.

    I am surprised that so many people gloat to you about their happy relationships, because I don’t think that it is so common, to have a happy relationship, not for long anyway.

    “I just know family and friends can be cruel. What can you expect from strangers then??”- I found out that often you can expect way better from strangers than you can expect from family. And regarding friends, maybe they are not all cruel, maybe a few simply don’t know that their detailed stories bother you.

    anita

    #333701
    Angelgirl
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    Anita, I can’t tell you the number of people tho gloat to me. Literally everyone. She has always told me about how she is so happy and then will say – I know you haven’t been lucky but you’ve done ok. As if that is consolation. My other friend asked me what I was doing this weekend. I said I was out with this mate from Paris. And she said – oh I was doing some home admin and lazy time with Mark. We’ve only been together since September but my weekends are so much better now. And I didn’t ask for that information or detail.
    its the same way the Fwb would tell me about his holiday plans, his family knowing fully well that I am alone and haven’t been on a holiday in 5 years. People know. I don’t hide who I am or how I feel. But they still want to show me how amazing their life is. I have never shared details and never asked them about their life. They why do they? Cos they feel better gloating to someone who they know doesn’t have the ability to experience what they do. It’s always been that way. And they all know my life. Know what I’ve been through but they’ll still talk about themselves and their amazing lives. That is life.

    #333705
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Angelgirl:

    I need to be away from the computer for a while, can be a good few hours. When I am back, I will read and reply to your recent post (and anything you may add to it, you are welcome to add anything, anytime).

    anita

    #333727
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Angelgirl:

    Well, that doesn’t read like gloating to me, saying: “oh I was doing some home admin and lazy time with Mark. We’ve only been together since September but my weekends are so much better now”, doesn’t read like a whole lot of amazing (“how amazing their life is”).

    Maybe you think that other people have way better lives than they actually do. There are lots of people in unsatisfying relationships, many in miserable relationships many not in relationships at all. It so happens that most of my life I was not in a relationship and had very little social life.

    As alone and romantically/ socially disadvantaged as you think you are… you are not alone after all.

    Post again anytime, Angelgirl. I sure hope you feel better very soon!

    anita

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