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  • #304779

    anita
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    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    “this threads enough proof I am a complete mess and should steer clear of people”- I don’t see you this way, a complete mess, and I definitely don’t think you should steer clear of people, (except for people who are not good for you to be around, such as the guy from work who did not follow his plan with you, not even letting you know that he won’t!)

    My understanding of you, and I wrote this to you not long ago, is that you are a loving man, and loyal too, and kind.

    I will soon be away from the computer and back tomorrow morning in about 12 hours from now.

    anita

    #304937

    pete
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    Why is it so hard to let go of the memories? like…

     

    Early morning texting.

    Phone calls.

    Those hangouts.

    That closeness.

     

    I really enjoyed texting her early in the morning at around 8-8:45 which I found was the best time to message her because after that she would take a while to get back to me. Now since her man I can message her early and I wont get a message back until night time or even the next day. Phone calls I used to feel really good about them, like our own special time. Now? it’s kinda boring…nothing to talk about and they are 10-15 minutes instead of nearly an hour or 1 hour. I don’t even feel like phoning her if she has things happen, don’t really care anymore because things have changed since that guy and I don’t like how it’s changed. The hangouts…well, lack of them really. Friendship is based off a lot of lies now and “money owed”. That closeness? don’t think we will have that anymore, probably for the best.

     

    I did something bad though. I went and exercised and felt somewhat good and forgot my plan of drifting away and text her for a hike next week that I rain checked a few weeks ago and she messaged back 9 hours later and said she would love to go hiking with me. Can’t ditch out now, i’ve already flaked on several the last few months. I’ll just message her tomorrow for Tuesday.

     

    I don’t enjoy things like I used to NOW because I am tired of how things seemed to have turned against me so quickly which means it’s a weak friendship, I just miss those memories I had…nostalgia. I wish I could feel them, relive them again. Sometimes at work I try and listen carefully for my text message sound to beep for an early morning ding, but it never happens. I went from this 😐 to 😀 right from that ding. I just wish I could just disapear, but I feel if I disapear so will those memories I miss.

    #304983

    anita
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    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    If memories of closeness is all you have, then hold on to them. Better not forget.

    I hope you do go on the hike with her next week, that it does take place, and if it does, I wish you will be talking to her, during the hike, tell her how you feel, just like you did in this recent post. Tell her.

    anita

    #304999

    pete
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    I’m not gonna worry about it as she has a boyfriend now and doesn’t need me saying these things, I’ll just enjoy her company and talk about her camping trip she was on and whatever else. My worries are not her worries. I’ll never be open to her even though that’s what she wants.

    #305003

    anita
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    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    “I’ll never be open to her even though that’s what she wants”- why ???

    anita

    #305423

    pete
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    Eh, I just don’t. Still not heard from the woman, told her to text or call me in a day or 2 back on Friday to get a time on Tuesday, hopefully she does or i’ll just ignore her. Been doing more tinder, a woman that was here for the weekend wanted to hang out but I was working, she’s now flying back home (same province). 🙁  Told her we should stay in touch via text, she told me to add her to whatsapp but I need her number for that and was really bummed out she’s leaving and wont be meeting up due to me workin and she’s never been here before, coulda been her tour guide. Been messaging another one, keep making her blush but she’s also far away. All the girls I like messaging are always so far away! would be much simpler if I had my license.

    #305471

    anita
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    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    Good thing you are interested in other women, in meeting a woman who will be your girlfriend.

    “much simpler if I had my license”- you mean driver’s license?

    anita

    #305589

    pete
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    Yes drivers license.

     

    Alot of BS is happening to me in the last few days though…tinder, non tinder. All women related.

    #305651

    anita
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    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    Not being able to drive will run on your dating parade, so to speak, anywhere except for such rare places as New York City with many millions of people and an incredibly efficient subway system.

    I don’t know Tinder, but am familiar with Plenty of Fish, ten years ago it was free for members and based in Canada. There is also Match with a membership fee. These two make serious dating, that is, dating for the purpose of having a love relationship for life, possible. Many meet their mates on these two sites.

    Maybe you should try Plenty of Fish and aim at contacting women in the same area where you live? (I can help you put together a Profile there so to increase your chances to get what you are looking for).

    anita

    #305697

    pete
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    So we just hung out, about 3 hours together. Lots of hiking, none of those feelings came up and it wasn’t awkward, lots of talking. It just felt normal. She is thinking of buying cheap land with her boyfriend (he makes a lot of money and fell in love with that area) in the middle of the province near her dad really soon and her mom is moving back there aswell. So soon she will be gone, she said she would still visit sometimes here and she’s almost done packing up and officially moving into her boyfriends house. Showed her what I wanted to show her, she thought it was cool and she was getting a little emotional because what I did for her and how much she appreciates what I did for her a few years ago and could not have sold her home and been where she’s at now if it wasn’t for me. Had a bite to eat, got some gas and she was talking to her man on the phone for a few minutes and came back in all smiles and happy, they call eachother once a day sometimes more then once a day.

     

    I also got a huge chunk of the money she owed back and said she really does not want money to get in the way between us. We also sang in the car and used my water bottle as a mic and swapped between the 2 of us when it was our turn.

     

    As for the POF stuff…I use POF and Tinder. POF girls never message me back so I gave up on that place. I am just looking for friends and girls to chill with, go on hikes, etc.

    #305699

    anita
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    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    When I read that her boyfriend makes a lot of money and the two  of them will be living together, I was hoping your loan will be paid in full very soon. Glad you got a huge chunk of the loan repaid and that the rest will be paid soon.

    She does appreciate you, I always thought of her as a good woman who genuinely likes you.

    But clearly, she has a boyfriend and plans with him. Regarding POF, maybe your profile is not attractive and maybe the messages you send women can be improved. If you want to copy and paste your profile there and/ or send me examples of messages you send, do so and I will give you my editing suggestions.

    anita

    #305703

    pete
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    Yeah, she stopped and stared at me with huge eyes trying not to get emotional talking about it saying how HUGE this was for her at different times and I am like “You’re welcome, what are friends for? and I had the money to help”, then later said “I just wanted you to get away from work and heal up”. She’s thinking of going to become a massage teacher but needs to travel to Australia for a week, so she’s not sure but I told her go for it you never know. She also said we have never hiked so early in the morning and she liked it. She normally hikes with her man a few times a week but it leads to a lake and they go swimming, but where we went everyone was talking to us and I told her “People talk to you more in the morning here then at night and nobody says anything”. Also talked about getting a license so when she moves I can get on my motorbike and visit her sometimes instead of just her coming here to see me and whoever else.

     

    I’ll do the dating app stuff another time, i’m not like TOO worried about it right now I just want to be more active.

    #305707

    anita
    Participant

    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    What a lovely exchange the two of you had on this hike, a bit like the good old days of that summer. I always thought of her as genuine, sincere and a good person and this is the reason, I believe, why you got so attached to her. I hope the friendship between the two of you continues, because it is valuable, even though you didn’t and don’t see her as often as you’d like (not even close). It is valuable because people like her are hard to find, and she brought the loving part of you to the surface.

    The dating site, another time.

    anita

    #305709

    pete
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    I’m going to let it drift away little by little and even more so when she’s moved at that cheap land she wants to buy near her father.  Maybe later in life when we are much older if I get curious how she’s doing track down her number and see if she wants to talk on the phone? But our texting, calling, hanging out is going to be about her doing it, not me anymore. I need to look for other people now.

    #305723

    anita
    Participant

    Dear blkhwkdwn1:

    “I need to look for other people now”- I understand. When you feel like it, if you do, I will be glad to help you in such looking, looking for other good (!) people, be it through POF like I suggested, or elsewhere. It takes a thoughtful, planned search to make it happen.

    anita

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